My temp looks good and my chart looks picture perfect. but for some reason, I am just not feeling it today. I think I am just getting cranky and want the 2WW to be OVER! I took another HPT today and it was snow white (it was a different brand of test)...but it was a big bummer.
I think I need a mini break from the boards. I'm taking the weekend off. I'll be back monday, but I'll keep my chart updated. and of course, this 'break' won't stop me from testing......
I'm going to look at office space with a friend of mine today. She is finally ready to open her own business and I'm going to be her partner......It is so exciting. I'll go into detail later, once its confirmed.
Last edited by mettadel; 09-13-2007 at 07:37 AM.
temp rose to 98.4
I am dying!!!! the 2WW really is horrendous torture! UGH! I have a blood test today (cd21).
I don't know if I will test tomorrow or not. I am so sick and tired of the BFNs.
temp maintaining at 98.3
and I am waiting for the Doc to call and give me my results for the cd21 b/w and BPT that they did yesterday. WOuld a BPT be accurate on 11dpo?? I asked the nurse this, and she said, "it "should" be accurate"......great. I am hanging my hopes on a est that "should" be accurate......
I am so sad- and scared- and tired of trying to be optmistic. Hopefully I'll get the call soon. and I'll update.....one way or another.
Ok. heres the update.
Progesterone levels came back at 45.
but BPT was negative.
and my temp stayed high today.
and AF was due today and she hasn't shown.
another HPT was negative today.
Thats it. As you can all imagine, I am getting sick and tired of the am I/aren't I routine. If AF is coming, I wish she'd just show her ugly face. Why would my LP suddenly lengthen? Hopefully, I"ll know one of these days and I can end the suspense.
all I know is: my POAS addiction has been broken. I swear to you I will never POAS early again, in my life. I will wait until 15dpo, every time, b/c I have gotten two suspect tests this cycle (possible evap lines, I guess) and a host of negatives and depressed feelings.
I've got to go distract myself. I've been working on my business plan......
temp rose to 98.4
and here I am again not knowing whats going on.....my temp actually went UP this morning, and very very very closely resembles my pregnancy chart with DS. I am 14dpo and I feel like I'll know something tomorrow. I don't think I've had longer than 14 day LP before.
I will not test tomorrow and I did not test today either. I will test on saturday, 16dpo if my temps stay high.
oh- and I have a new symptom. heartburn. I NEVER get heartburn, but I always get it very badly when I'm pregnant....ofcourse, it never started this early with my other pregnancies.....I'll just add that one into the "could be" column and call it a day.
Last edited by mettadel; 09-13-2007 at 02:39 PM.
ok. The answer to the question on everybody's mind is....I'm a freak.
yup, thats it. There is no other way to explain it. 16 days of high, perfect temps, certain symptoms of sensitive nips, heartburn, and cramps......and too many BFNs to count.
Today, I saw two snow-white BFNs and and a "not pregnant"...BFNs are bad enough, but that "not pregnant" is totally mean.
I don't know what else to say. I feel like a freak of nature. and I find myself asking....why does my body have to be so screwed up? My last two cycles (before this current one) have been anovulatory, I've been on provera and two rounds of clomid....I get the "perfect" cycle this month and it seems impossible 'not' to be pregnant....but my body sucks. and fate is cruel.
Maybe I had a 'chemical pregnancy' or very early m/c (since I did have three suspect tests)....maybe I have one of those cysts that TCOYF talks about......at this point, all I want is the witch to show so I can get on with the next cycle.
I'm not sure where to go from here. Charting, obviously is meaningless for me. and testing is a waste of time and money. I am so sad and confused.
I have not tested since saturday. I will test tomorrow with FMU.
I am frustrated, b/c I just want AF to show (if she's going to show).....or to get my BFP. My Doc won't do anything until I am 2 weeks late. and even then, what is she going to do, besides Provera...nothing. It is a waiting game. and I'm tired of it.
we'll see what tomrrow brings.
my temp has finially dropped the last two mornings. I can safely assume that this cycle is coming to an end. Thank goodness!!! What a crazy month! I don't know if we'll ever know why my temps stayed up for so long.....cysts or a chemical pregnancy are both contenders. I just hope it doesn't happen again next cycle.
gotta call the doc and get more clomid and see what she has to say about 21 days above coverline.
Even with all my past problems with fertility....I never expected such weird crazy unexplainable cycles, as I have seen this summer.
on to a june baby.
******AF Has arrived******
Last edited by mettadel; 09-25-2007 at 07:00 PM.
I am on a new cycle. I don't think I'll ever know exactly what happened last cycle....I had a U/S today and there are no cysts. so thats a good thing.
My AF was really painful, heavy and 'clotted'....so a chemical pregnancy is possible.
ohwell. I am on 150mg clomid cd5-9. We'll see what happens this month.
**I am insane for starting my own business while also trying to have my 3rd baby......
No O yet.....only HIGHS on my monitor. some O pains. and the side effects of the clomid were really mild this month- I guess thats a good thing.
I am feeling like its not going to happen this month for me. I'm afraid that I might not O.....and the problem with Oing irregularly, is the fact that it makes timing of BDing very difficult.
I am just feeling down, I guess. Its been six months. not as long as a lot of the girls here at preg.org, I know.....but in those six months I have O'd twice. Not very good odds. and there is a limit on the number of rounds of clomid that my Doc will give me (this is #3).
Just please let it work!