On the board's the girls said I should talk to a Dr. about my concerns. During our first specialist appt after we found out that something was majorly wrong with Kassandra, we met with a genetic consultant. Genetically speaking we should be fine to TTC again. But when speaking to a perinatologist and a cardiologist our chances increase to have another heart baby. It's not by much but it's 2-3% more. Which normally I don't think 2-3% is significant enough to worry about, but after Kassandra's very rare condition it freak's me out. The kind of heart defect Kassandra had was .05 % of CHD's Ebstein's is very rare.
So all that said, since she got something so rare, my chances are increased even higher, will the next baby have it? I know its something no one can answer for me, but I thin about it every time I think about TTC again. I am however so lucky that its not a very high chance, because if it was 50/50 % I don't think I'd take the chance.
In doing more research this week on Ebstein's anomaly, and genetics I have found a group of people with 2 or more children with this defect. This worries me alot, could it be more genetic than they think?? (especially since there are many people with cases so little, they don't even know they have the defect. Some don't know till adults. Its currently under research weather there is a link to Ebstein's and genetics.
I do an awful lot of praying to have a healthy baby. Even though I petty much know what they will say I plan on calling the genetisis again, just incase I missed something she said. It has been just about 1yr since I talked to her, and at the time we were worried about our baby, not future babies.
I'm still waiting for a call back from the geneticist, They had to go over our file before contacting me again. I hope they don't try calling when I'm out of the house. Nick has a DR apt tomorrow and today is Andy's company picnic.
I've been wanting to come and post a few different things this past week but I just haven't had time. So much going on.
This is my ovulation week, so wish us luck!!!! I really hope I'll become preggo this cycle. A may baby sound's wonderful!!! Not to hot and not to cold!! Send us babydust!!!!!
Andy and I have had a few heart to heart talks about conceiving a new baby. We are both very scared but want it so very much. One point Andy brought up was that, he's worried that Kassandra happened just to prepare us for loosing another baby at an earlier stage. I'm scared of miscarriage and still birth too. We were so lucky to have the time with Kassandra that we did, so many aren't allowed this. Also like I said before I'm scared of anything and everything bad that could happen, another major defect or even a cord accident. I'm sure some are thinking that we are not ready to TTC if we're thinking of all this stuff, but I figure that this will worry us forever, even after having a healthy baby. I think we just need to get on with our lives. It hurts so much to have Empty Arms.
I did have an interesting conversation with a family member. I told her that DH and I were TTC again, and we'd rather not go out drinking because of this. She gave me that whole lecture about how that had nothing to do with Kassandra's death and that drinking wont change nothing during conception or 2ww. Well I think its a whole lot better to be safe than sorry!!!!! Then she told me that worrying is doing more damage than anything and she didn't say it directly but stress I had around then most likely had a factor in it. She doesnt think we should be TTC again. This stress is different but it's still stress. I don't know what to think or do, I wish I had a book of answers and not opinions. Its so frustrating.
Praying for a healthy pregnancy this cycle!!!
Starting my 2WW (its going to be a long 2weeks)
I got my tests yeasterday!!!!!! $11 for 25 I'll wait one week till testing, I heard it showed up for someone at 7dpo. If negative I'll wait 2 days and try again. 9-10 days dpo is a bit more common for these tests.
Yesterday was Kassandra's 8m b-day, I at 7dpo homing for some sort of miracle. BFN I know there's still a chance its quite early, I'm really trying to stay positive. Sunday I think I'll test again.
Yesterday a member of another message board I got was offering a new fertility monitor (monthly ovulation predictor kit) and 5 tubes off pre seed. All for FREE!!!!!! The box expired in March but I'm going to try it anyways. If not there's always another cycle.
Also yesterday my sister (Sarahdawn) found out she was pregnant. I was a bit shocked for a couple of min but then I got really excited for her. I hope she has a girl, so I can have a niece. I prayed for this to be a healthy pregnancy for her. I don't want what happened to me, happen to her. I also hope for a BFP so we can be preggo together again!! Tristan(her son) and Kassie were born 3m apart, so we did get to share part of a pregnancy together. It would be really cool if we could be on the same BB.
Oh and Nick also told me that he wanted a baby sister AND a baby brother!! Twins would be ok!!
I was going to test today, but I was really tired and forgot to POAS when I woke up. I'll be testing tomorrow am. Truthfully I don't think I am, I just don't feel like it. With both my prior pregnancies I was very nauseous early on, I just haven't been this last few days.
Praying for a miracle and a BFP tomorrow AM.
I took 3 saveontests this am all came up with a VERY light + line! It wasn't instant, it was after the pink urine color when down. I tried scanning but for some reason my scanner wont scan. (the copier works, but say something is wrong with the connections or programing, connections is fine, and program worked last week) I also took like 10 pictures but they are all fuzzy and you cannot see it.
I'll retest in the AM!!
I'm confused, I got the same result, I though HCG doubles everyday so it would be much darker. Maybe its an evap line. I should compare the two test, but didn't notice anything immaculant.
I thought about going in, but changed my mind. I know i can get in if I really wanted to. But I'm swamped with work and have to be done early so I can meet the plumber and estimator at what ~MAY~ be our new house!!!!! I just don't have the time to do anything else much less run to the clinic lab.
I guess I'll retest eaither later this afternoon or tomorrow morning.
Well it is light pink, and it was in the 10 min time soo......I'm thinking it may be a BPF!!!!!!! Also it dose look a tiny bit darker than yeasterdays test. But that may have faded over night.What's an evaporation line? Evaporation ("evap") lines result with the test's antibody strip just looks slightly different than the space around it. There is a line of antibodies (usually made from mouse cells) in the Control and Test section. The Control line binds with any liquid and turns pink (or blue, in tests using blue dye.) The Test/Result line turns pink only if pregnancy hormone is detected. If not, the moisture passes over this strip and does not turn pink. It may, however, become more visible when the light hits the moisture on the strip-- it may appear gray, colorless, like a "dent" in the test, or like a "ghost line." It may appear at any time-- as soon as the urine hits it, after a few minutes as the test absorbs the moisture, or after the 10-minute time limit. It may appear when the test is drying, or after it has dried. It may disappear as the test is drying, or after the test has dried, or not disappear at all.
The simple fact is that there is always "something there" that is slightly visible-- it's simply the antibodies on the test that would turn pink in the presence of hCG. When the test becomes wet, or as it dries, or after it dries, the antibody strip may become more visible. Therefore, all tests may have them. It is not a defect; it's just how tests are made.
A real positive is identified by its color (pink or blue, whatever the color of the test's dye is) and its appearance within 10 minutes of urinating on the stick. A line that appears after 10 minutes, regardless of color, must be considered an evap line and is caused by the test's chemicals changing. HPT's are rapid assay diagnostics, which means any results appearing after the "rapid" time limit of 10 minutes are invalid.
OMG!!!!!! I just finished the big deadline, and have one more to go, shouldn't take too long. I talked to my midwife and she said she'd do a blood test today!!! She'll be there till 5, she also said I can wait in her office till the results come back!!!!!So I don't have to wait!!!! I'm really getting nervous now!!!!! So many emotions. I'm having a hard time concentrating on work. less than 3hr I will know