CD 7 - Well it's CD 7 and I still have no desire to temp. When we BD yesterday afternoon, I was so relaxed about it. Unless I change my mind mid-cycle and start temping again, I will have no idea when I ovulate this cycle... well... maybe an educated 'guess,' but really I won't know for sure, so it makes it kind of interesting. Sort of 'mysterious.' I think I could get used to this.
Christmas was nice - the look on Hannah's face was priceless as she opened her presents. We had a hard time getting her to stop playing with one toy long enough to unwrap the next one, LOL. My Christmas dinner turned out well, too. I didn't have time to make the pumpkin pie, but had some chocolate bark on hand so I melted some and we had chocolate-dipped strawberries.
There were a few 'issues,' but nothing major. DH didn't get me anything for Christmas. He told me Christmas Eve, and when he saw my reaction, he felt pretty badly. It wouldn't be that big of a deal, but this isn't the first time he has failed to get me a gift for a birthday/anniversary/Valentine's Day/etc. He has promised before that he would 'make it up to me' yet never has. Still... I didn't hold it against him. I really don't think he means anything by it. He's just... well... a typical man. Nevertheless, he knows I wasn't happy about it. Afterall, he did "make" a gift for another family member, who isn't even directly related to him.
Another issue was that Hannah stayed up insanely late on Christmas Eve, making it difficult to get her presents wrapped. She kept getting back out of bed over and over. Somehow we survived it, though, and it was all worth it to see the look on her face Christmas morning.
CD 12 ~ I have continued to be very laid back this cycle. I've taken my temp a few times so far, but not every day, and I'm not using OPKs at all. Most importantly, I have not been obsessing about how much we BD. I also think I am finally starting to learn about that patience God has been trying to teach me. In fact, I've changed in a lot of ways over the past couple of weeks. Through a series of sermons I've heard at church and on the radio, and lessons in Sunday School, plus prayers that I've prayed, and going through some tough financial times and seeing how God has provided for us, I have learned to trust God more, and to be less selfish and more giving, and to be more patient. I still have a long way to go I'm sure, but I have seen a big change taking place.
In other news, yesterday morning I woke up to a low grade fever and feeling flu-like. I was achy all over and had a sore throat. Strangely enough, though, by yesterday evening, the fever was gone and I started to feel better. This morning the fever was still gone, and I felt much better, except I do still have a sore throat.
Back on Christmas day, my dinner went well. All my food turned out great and I was so relieved. Fast forward to last night, New Year's Eve, and we didn't do much of anything. We went to bed before midnight (Hannah was asleep by 9:50 - miracle of all miracles, haha) and slept right through the arrival of the new year. Oh, well, we did BD before going to sleep. DH was all spunky (which he almost never is late at night), and suprisingly I was up to it, too, despite not being totally "up to par." It's funny, and ironic in a way, that the cycle I decide to be all laid back is the cycle we have BD'd more often so far than any other cycle since we were trying for Hannah, when we were still honeymooners, no less! Ha!
This morning we sort of celebrated the New Year by having doughnuts for breakfast, then had a nice relaxing day overall.
The saga with Hannah doing to bed late is still going on for the most part, BUT... at least it's earlier now. Last night was 9:50, tonight it was 11:00. So at least it's not midnight or 1:00 anymore.
Oh wanted to mention... I did have EWCM this afternoon and tonight. Not sure if it's the real thing, or leftovers from BD'ing last night, though. I noticed my temp has already taken that downward shift, too, but not sure if that means anything in relation to when I'll O.
CD 16 ~ No O as of yet, but I'm still having fertile CM. It went from EWCM to abundant S, then back to what it is now - W CM. Not every time, but most times. I thought I might have O'd on CD 14 because my temp went up on CD 15 (yesterday morning), and was thinking, Wow - how cool would it be like a 'normal' person and O on CD 14, LOL. :) But today my temp was back down some, so unless it's a fallback temp, I don't think O has occurred yet. Oh, and I did have what "felt" like O pain today, but who knows. My breasts have been sore since a couple of days ago, which usually happens around O. Last night they also started to feel a little fuller and 'heavier', which I found odd. That does happen around O time for some women, though.
CD 17 ~ I put my temp in this morning and FF gave me CH's! :eek: I was surprised, to say the least. FF thinks I O'd on CD 14, but since I had O pain yesterday, I'm thinking I might have O'd then (CD 16) and am only 1 dpo instead of 3. Who knows. The watery CM I talked about yesterday did turn into EWCM by day's end and was the most I'd had so far. Today it's been mostly dry, with a little 'leftover EWCM' mixed with C CM. It was kinda 'milky.' Anywhooo... I'm hoping it's true because it will mean less of a wait this month. I'm not going to totally believe it until I see another higher temp tomorrow, though.
In other news, my DD went to sleep at 8:30 last night and slept til around 8:00 this morning! :shock: I decided to try putting her to bed earlier just to see if she would, and it worked. Granted, she had not had a nap, but hey - whatever works. Tonight she was asleep by around 9:30 (again, no nap) - it would have been earlier, but she kept wanting to use the potty. That's another thing she's been doing better with. Yesterday and today I decided to just put her in her big girl underwear and pray she didn't make too big of a mess. Well it has worked like a charm to motivate her to use the potty! In those two days she has only had three accidents, two very minor and one major - even that wasn't too bad as it was on the kitchen floor, and I was planning to mop the kitchen today, anyway. She was so cute tonight - she pooped a long 'firm one' in the potty, and when she saw it she smiled and said, "It's a hotdog!" DH and I both laughed so hard. After cleaning that up and laying her down to put her diaper on for bedtime, she started kicking her legs and cried, "I have to pee! I have to pee!" So I let her go back to the potty, and she pooped a little more. I went through it all again and then Round #3 - she peed. Eventually i guess she will learn to do it all in one sitting. :rolleyes:
CD 20 ~ 6 dpo! :D Well FF took away my CH's on CD 18, then gave them back again yesterday when I put that temp in, LOL. Looks like that was right, because my temp went up a little more this a.m. As for possible symptoms, I have been hungrier since yesterday, especially in the early morning hours, and have had a touch of insomnia as well. Then today my breasts started to feel a tad bit "fuller," but I think it's too early for that to be a symptom. They are tender, too, but that is also a PMS symptom for me.
Since Thursday I hve been at my brother & SILs watching their kids while they're on a business trip. The first full day (yesterday-Friday) I was trying to adjust to taking care of two LOs plus a 9-yr old niece and 16-yr old nephew. The 9-yr old refused to take a shower Fri morning before school, and told me she had not taken one since Wed :shock: After going back and forth with her I finally gave up because she was going to be late for her bus - as it was, I was rushing out the door with her, the baby, and Hannah to walk her to her bustop in the cold. We had about 3 minutes to spare, but better to be safe than sorry. Last night I gave her a choice - I said, Do you want to take your shower tonight, or in the morning? She chose last night (reluctantly) :) My 16-yr old nephew has been easy - he's very independent. Last night he watched the LOs while DH and I went out to dinner,which was nice. We had some one-on-one time to talk and eat dinner in peace. It was a good thing we had that break because bedtime last night was chaotic. The baby was upset because she was confused that DH and I were sleeping in her mommy and daddy's bed (her crib is right next to their bed), and Hannah had a bad diaper rash so there was a lot of whining, loud crying, and then screaming because she didn't want to get in their shower to be washed off from the tar-like poopy diaper (she hasn't used her potty since being here since I decided to keep her in diapers during our stay to avoid accidents on their furniture/floors).
This morning was easier, though. The LOs got up earlier than I wanted to, but everything went pretty smoothly. I did everything faster today which helped me to get more done. After breakfast I had time to get on the computer and do a little housework, then late morning I gave them both baths (Hannah fought me hard because she wasn't used to their shower), fed them lunch, then put them both down for naps. Baby M was easy, she fell asleep in her highchair just as I was finishing up feeding her - Hannah was a little tougher but I stayed firm with her and she went on to sleep (had to lay down with her until she did, though). It's been nice to have a little down time while they're sleeping. In a few minutes I'll be waking them up, though. Don't want them to sleep too long as it might make bedtime tonight tougher. My 9-yr old niece is at her grandma's now and will be spending the night. My nephew is here but is in his room, probably on the computer, or maybe taking a nap himself. I tried to take a nap, but couldn't. Maybe I'll get some coffee now before waking the girls up.
CD 22 ~ FF changed my CH's on Sat morning when I put my temp in and has me O'ing on CD 16, so I am just now 6 dpo. Guess I was right about thinking I O'd on CD 16. Though... looking at my chart I think it's possible I could have O'd on cD 18, too - except my CM doesn't match up to that. So maybe it was CD 16. If so, I don't have much hope for this cycle. We BD that same day (CD 16), BUT... we weren't able to "seal the deal." Nor were we able to "seal the deal" the time before that. The last time we were able to was five days prior. From what I understand, the average maximum time that the wiggly guys can last is three days, and that's only if there is favorable CM. So... yah, thinking I'm likely out this cycle.
That being said, this evening my boobies did start to hurt. They aren't just "tender" - they actually hurt. Ladeeda, who cares, LOL. I wish they wouldn't hurt if it doesn't mean anything. So not fair. I've also been waking up STARVING for the past few days. Oh yeah, I'm sure that means something. Hahahahaha. Hey I have to laugh about it all... keeps me sane.
So today I came back home. Taking care of four kids was fun, but very exhausting. I miss my baby niece already. She was so stinkin' cute. Just learned to walk recently and has to most adorable wobbly legs. And the facial expressions she has - Oh my... she could melt the hardest heart. She sure did melt mine. Every time she saw me she smiled so big and loved to cuddle with me and hugged my neck so tightly. :cloud9:
CD 23 ~ 7 dpo: Today my bbs have continued to hurt off and on, and I had a little nausea this morning that subsided by mid-afternoon. I have continued to temp every day for awhile now. Back when I started getting fertile CM is when I started temping every day again so that O could be detected by FF. Then it changed my CH's so I continued to temp to confirm my O day. And now I'm just continuing to do it because 1) I have felt like it and haven't minded doing it, and 2) I am curious now because my chart looks a lot different this month, LOL.
As for testing, I haven't been tempted yet. I had a passing thought today about it, but quickly dismissed it. I don't have any tests in the house right now anyway, except for one digital, which I want to save for after I see two lines. There is just something so disheartening about seeing the words, "Not pregnant," never mind how expensive they are, so I don't want to waste it. I did order ten free tests from a website about three weeks ago, but they haven't arrived, so I'm not counting on them. If they do arrive in the next couple of days, I'm not sure if I will be tempted to use one or not. I think I would much rather wait to see if AF arrives first. This is a new way of thinking for me, as normally I'd be so impatient and itching to test. Not sure what changed, but like I said before, something 'clicked' in me at the beginning of this cycle (the day AF arrived). Who knows what I will actually do, though. They say a leopard can't change its spots, and I have tested before AF was due almost every month for some time now. Though there was a time not that long ago (before getting pg with Hannah) that I didn't test early. I guess only time will tell.
Hannah was so funny tonight. She leaned over the arm of my easy chair and let her hair fall down over her face so she could "be in the dark" as she put it, and use the flashlight that was in her hand. So she hid under her hair and used her flashlight to look around :lol:
CD 26 ~ 10 dpo: Yesterday the nausea was much worse, but today it was better until this evening, then it started getting worse again. My bbs also weren't tender all day but started getting sore again this evening. So weird. My temp dipped down some yesterday, then went back up even higher today. That has made me want to get my hopes up a little. Yesterday I made the mistake of buying a 3-pk of FRERs to "have on hand just in case." At the time, I was feeling pretty strong. But since they have been in my house, they have been calling to me from the cabinet. Thankfully they are in the guest bathroom, which I almost never use. So tomorrow morning if my temp is still up I will have to make a mad dash for the toilet in the master bathroom and pee like crazy so I can't test, LOL.
Tomorrow I plan to work on a project around the house (probably de-cluttering my desk area) so I can keep myself busy and keep my mind off testing, then Sunday I'm hoping we'll think of somewhere to go after church and be gone most of the day, then maybe Monday (testing day) will get here faster.:) Hopefully I won't start to see any signs of AF this weekend and will be able to test on Monday. If I have time, maybe I'll work on some scrapbooking, too.
CD 29 ~ 13 dpo: I had my hopes up with such a nice looking chart until yesterday when I started to have some pre-AF signs. I had some CM that I always get a day or two before AF, the classic lower backache started, and the cramps began. Mild, but the same kind I get before AF arrives. Then this morning I had a bout of diarrhea, and that is another pre-AF sign. That is usually followed shortly thereafter by spotting (and sometimes full blown AF). And sure enough, a couple of hours later - a little while ago - I started to have a tiny amount of brownish spotting. It's very scant so far - only on the TP when I wipe, but it's there and I'm sure there's more to come.
At least I didn't waste a test today, if there's any 'positive' to be found.
It's okay. Well not really, but at least it wasn't a big surprise. Starting a couple of days ago I began to have that "just not feelin it" feeling I get when I just "know" I"m not pg and AF will arrive right on schedule.
In other, happier news... my DD has been so cute lately with her new "doll." Stuffed animals are her baby dolls. So right now she has this little monkey that she carries around with her sometimes along with a baby washcloth that she uses as the monkey's "blanket." She'll lay the washcloth down on the floor and lay the monkey on it, and talk to it about going to sleep like it's her 'baby.' Other times she'll wrap the little washcloth around the monkey like it's a 'blanket.' So freaking cute.
Today I am feeling so lazy. I have so much to do, yet am completely unmotivated. All I feel like doing is going out to lunch somewhere then maybe heading up to the mall with Hannah. One thing I DO need to do today is decide where we're going to have Hannah's birthday party so I can start doing the invitations and send them out. Her birthday is in THREE weeks! It just dawned on me this morning. EEK. I'm just going to do family and maybe a couple of close friends of Hannah's and a couple of our friends who know and adore Hannah. Hmmmm I wonder if I could do Facebook invites? I love getting party invitations via mail myself, though - so nice to get something other than bills, LOL, plus it's more "personal," but.... postage is so expensive now! I don't know. We'll see.