13 dpo (p.m.) ~ As the day progressed today, started to feel VERY pukey, so decided to test this afternoon, and it was BFN. No surprise there. I would have been much more surprised had there been a 2nd line. Then... right on cue, more brownish spotting. I'm expecting AF to show up tomorrow. My temp should take that classic dive tomorrow morning.
CD 6 ~ AF wound up teasing me and didn't show up until after 3 full days of spotting, which I think is the first time that has happened in all my months of charting since May of '08. It was one of my longer LPs. With the nausea I was having it had me guessing whether AF or a BFP was right around the corner. AF wound up winning out of course.
It looks like AF has made her exit now, so it's time for new hope for a new cycle. I hope to work on lots of projects this month to keep me busy. I've said that before but never really followed through, but this month I'm off to a good start by attacking my closet. I'm not sure yet who will win... right now the closet is wining, but alas, I shall prevail. I never realized just how many clothes I had hiding in there. Wow. I already have one big bag full of clothes going to goodwill, and I'm sure there will be more before it's over. Once I begin going through all my shoes, even more bags will be filled. I already know that I have way too many shoes, many of which I don't even wear anymore. Something weird happened to my feet after I had my DD, and my feet no longer do well in heels. If I walk very far at all in them, my feet start to hurt something fierce. I hate it, too, because I love wearing heels. Not the ridiculous 3-inch+ ones that make your butt stick up in the air, but the 2 inch or less heels that make your legs look 'sexy.' Anyway, it will feel good when my closet is all cleaned out and organized again.
In other news, my DD is doing great going on the potty! She now wears underwear exclusively while at home, except during naps or overnight. She does still have accidents, but they are becoming less and less, and she will even ask to go potty while wearing a diaper now! I have yet to be daring enough to have her wear underwear when we go out in public or at the nursery at church, but I'll take that step soon. Very soon.
CD 8 (midnight) ~ *Yawn* Ahhh the wait to O is so boring. Oh wait, here's something exciting - I've had some spotting yesterday and today, which is not a normal thing for me! :rolleyes: :biglaugh: Ok maybe that's not exciting, but it's something to stare at on my chart and wonder why it's happening, haha. It isn't much, and only on the TP. It's probably just from BD or something. Who knows.
My closet hasn't been touched again yet. Just haven't had a chance. REALLY HOPE I can get to that tomorrow. It's bugging the bajeebees out of me for stuff to be sitting around in my bedroom waiting to be sorted or put back away (or washed).
My DD has made another big step in her potty progress! She is now going in the big toilet! :D She started that last night (Wed night). And today, when I took my friend to the doctor, she (my DD) went in the toilet in their bathroom there! Thankfully I was prepared and had a portable potty seat with me (the kind that goes over a regular toilet seat) "just in case." I couldn't believe it - her first time using a public toilet! So proud of her :boogie:
A bit of not so good news, though - my DH got a job, and was supposed to start today, but before the day was over he realized it wasn't for him. :( So... the wait continues for him to find a good job, and we hope that the work projects keep coming in. (For those who might be reading this and don't know, he is currently self-employed, but the work has been much more scarce lately.) I am having faith that God must have something better in mind for us.
CD 10 ~ The spotting has stopped, thankfully. I didn't have any yesterday and none today, either. Guess it was just from BD. I decided to use OPKs again this month and started testing this afternoon. It's way too early for me to O, I just wanted to play it safe by starting early so that if my temp does a crazy jump (as it often does) I won't be sitting there wondering if I could have O'd. Last month when I didn't do OPKs (in an effort to be more relaxed about things), FF moved my CH's, which I didn't like because I thought I was further along in the 2ww than I actually wound up being.
In other news ~ I love my DH, I really really do, but he was get-ting on de nerves today. This morning I planned to work on my closet, but he went in there and started working on stuff in the bedroom, and since I could tell he was in one of those 'bulldozer modes' I decided not to say anything and went to slam things around, I mean, do other things around the house. :) After the fact, I admit I was thankful for what he got done - he moved my dresser to a better spot (he even moved the electrical outlet--literally closed up the old one and created a new one--so that I could have easier access to it since the dresser now covered the old one), and cleaned out all the junk in boxes we had under the bed (and even swept under there!). Then he made a shelf with hanging bar for himself next to his side of the bed to put his hanging clothes (my clothes have taken over our closet, lol - typical).
Another thing he did that got on my nerves was when he cooked some eggs for Hannah and refused to spray the non-stick pan with cooking spray or put any butter in it to keep the eggs from sticking. Instead, he did it 'his way' which was to 'make sure the pan was real hot.' :roll: I could hear him scraping the pan with the spatula from the other room. I wanted to say something soooo bad, but I knew he would only take it as me trying to "tell him how to do things." Most likely his response would have been, "Ok." (As in, I hear you, but I'm going to blatantly ignore you.) He doesn't seem to think I have good suggestions, because he is set in his ways. Unless of course he ASKS for my opinion. Ugh, men. What are we to do with them?
Other people got on my nerves today, too. First, on my trip up to the mall with Hannah, someone was supposed to yield to me but didn't and blocked my view of traffic on top of it. Then someone else pulled out right in front of me (I even saw them LOOK right at me!). Then when we got to the play area at the mall, I was sitting down watching Hannah, got up for a minute to go deal with her about something, and when I went to sit back down, this lady sat down in my spot (and my stroller was RIGHT THERE :shock:). I could have said something, but it's not like my name was written on that space, and there was space further over, so I just moved over and sat down. No big deal, but it still got on my nerves. I guess it shouldn't have, it's just that I was taught to be mindful of others around me, so it baffles me when I see someone who isn't. Oh well.
Things seem to be kind of tense between DH and I lately, too. I think a big part of it is the financial strain we are under right now. We're doing "okay," but things are pretty tight, and there is always the concern of when the work will pick back up, or when he will get a good job, whichever comes first. We can't do the things we used to, like (for example) going out to dinner every Friday night, and the occasional movie. Now we eat at home and might try to find something on satellite to watch, or rent a cheap movie, but mostly we just sit around and talk, and our DD is our source of entertainment. :) Right now, I am thankful that we don't have a big house with a big mortgage. We might live in a single-wide mobile home, but at least it's paid for. And overall it isn't "that" bad - it's a larger single-wide at least (3 Bedroom/2 Bath).
Oh - wanted to add that my bbs have been unusually sore since yesterday, which is weird. This doesn't normally happen til closer to O time. My CM is increasing quite a bit already, too. It's not fertile yet, but acts like it will be soon.
CD 11 ~ My body is acting weird now.
1. My bbs are still sore
2. My CM was increasing, but now it seems to be drying up again. All I had today was the smallest amount of S CM.
3. I've been having unmistakeable O pain on the right side tonight.
My temp did dip today, but I don't see how it's possible I'm O'ing. Yesterday's OPK was negative and so was today's, and I haven't had any fertile CM that I know of, unless I missed it.
So. My body is just acting all weird apparently.
My DH got on my nerves again today. Twice. This morning, he suddenly got mad at me, but wouldn't tell me why. He said he was "trying to let it go" and didn't want to talk about it. I couldn't think of ANYTHING that I said or did that would have possibly made him mad. So then I got extremely frustrated, because this has happened before, and it's usually something totally innocent that I say that he takes the wrong way. It makes me feel like I have to be careful with everything I say to him. But then he explained to me that he understood that I didn't mean anything by it, and that the problem was with HIM, and something HE needed to deal with. I still wanted to know what it was, but decided to let it go.
Then after church today we got delayed and couldn't start heading back home until 2:30 (and we were 40 minutes from home at that point). I was very hungry (and knew my DD probably was, too) and wanted to go straight home, but he insisted on making a stop first that wasn't absolutely necessary, and that took an extra 30 minutes. We didn't get home until 3:30, and I was starting to feel weak from hunger by then. He didn't think it was any big deal. Oh well, I got over it. I lived, and so did my DD (she fell asleep). :rolleyes:
On a more positive note, my DD is still doing great going potty in the big toilet. She is staying dry during the day with no accidents. WTG Hannah! :)
CD 14 ~ the spotting started back :confused: It stopped until CD 12 and has been going again for the last 3 days. Sometimes it's brown, sometimes it's red. Not sure WHAT is going on. At first I thought it might be related to BD, but now i'm not so sure.
Today's OPK was starting to get darker, and my CM is beginning to make the transition to fertile CM, so I'm thinking I might be O'ing in the next couple of days, or at least very soon.
I seem to be in a better mood today, thankfully. DH did something annoying again this morning, but I didn't let it get to me :) He needs to get a job, poor guy. It drives men crazy to not be able to provide sufficiently for their families.
We had a scare with my stepmom yesterday. She fainted and fell on the floor, cracking her head open. She had to have stitches - well "clamps" as they called them, not sure how those are different from stitches. They wanted to admit her for overnight observation, but she refused because she didn't think it was necessary. Her cat scan came back normal, as did the other tests they did. They told her to watch for swelling. She seems to be doing fine now, just has a nice headache. They aren't sure what is causing the fainting spells. This is the 2nd time it has happened.
My DH's truck is out of commission, too. When we were leaving my dad and stepmom's yesterday, it made scary noises when he started it, and thinks it might be the timing belt. So it's still sitting there. Hopefully he'll be able to get it fixed in the next few days.
My closet still sits undone. When I finally get to finish it I think I will have to throw a party.
At least I am finally getting serious about losing this weight and getting in good shape. This morning I went for an hour walk, and plan to do another hour walk this evening when i take my DD up to the mall. My goal is to do that twice a week, and on all the other days (except Sunday) do at least 20 minutes. I'd like to start running again, too. We'll see how that goes.
CD 19 ~ Well I wasted my money on OPKs this month. I never got a + and then ran out, and didn't want to spend any more money on them so I quit testing. The OPKs were fading in and getting darker, with the darkest being on the morning of CD 17, but by that evening it was light again. Then yesterday morning ( CD 18 ) it was even lighter, so I think I might have missed the surge. My surges tend to be pretty short-lived. The other possibility is that I would have gotten a + had I been able to test last night, or this morning. I don't think so, though. I had EWCM for 3 days, and as of this morning it dried up. That, along with last night's cramping makes me think I've already O'd, probably yesterday. My temp dipped down pretty low yesterday, too.
As for the spotting, I had one more day of it, on CD 16, and none since. So hopefully that is behind me now.
I was going to write more, but I'm too tired now and need to get to bed.
CD 21 ~ Well I thought I had indeed O'd on CD 18 because my temp went up for 2 days after that, but this morning it dropped again. So on a whim, I decided to go to the dollar store this afternoon and get some more OPKs. I tested when I got back home and... blazing positive! :shock: I wasn't really expecting it, because my CM today had been S, though I did wonder why it was whitish in color. But interestingly enough, and... as if right on cue... as I was waiting for the pee to soak up the stick, I checked my CM and there was a big glob of EWCM! Needless to say, I was happy. It meant I still had a chance for this cycle. We had to leave for Wed night church then, and when we returned, my DD had fallen asleep, so we had another 'opportunity,' which I was all too happy to take advantage of. So now I have a little hope again for this cycle.
2 dpo ~ Lately I seem to always come here when I'm too tired to type much of anything, lol. Gotta start coming here in the mornings. Anyway, my temp is rising nicely now, so i don't think there's any doubt I O'd for real this time.
My gums bled when I brushed my teeth this morning. At 2 dpo, I highly doubt it means a thing, but at least it gives me something to talk about.
I have made a tiny bit of progress on my closet, but it still sits unfinished.
I think in order to avoid total and complete frustration over it, I am going to start assigning myself mini-tasks for it each day, instead of trying to get it all done at once. Monday will be my next chance to work on it, so I will just say that I'm going to sort through all my shoes that day. If I get that done, I'll be happy. After that, I will work on one shelf of clothing per day, since I have five shelves not including the one above the hanging clothes.
Hannah is now 3 years old. Her birthday party was Sunday, and her actual b-day was Wednesday. The party was at a friend's house - it was small and mostly family, but fun, and went well. She got "just enough" gifts to not be too overwhelmed, so I'm happy with that.
One thing we've been dealing with lately with her is her "bossiness." She wants to tell us what to do, which is cute until she gets a real attitude about it, or stomps her foot and tells us, "No!" She is quite the strong-willed child, which will be a real asset later in life since she will probably have a strong backbone and know what she believes and why. It just makes life quite difficult for us as her parents right now, LOL.