5 dpo ~ Had a big temp drop this morning. It surprised me how low it was, especially since all my temps so far post-O have already been so much lower than usual as it is. Not sure why that would be, unless my better diet and exercise is causing me to have an overall lower temp? Drinking alcohol, which has a high sugar content, can cause your temps to be higher than normal, so I would think eating a lot of foods that were high in sugar could ALSO cause higher temps.
Anywhooo, I'm having sore bbs off and on today, and they are starting to feel slightly 'fuller' as well. Have had a few super light cramps, too. Doubt it means anything, but it's interesting to note.
Something else that's quite interesting is that I am already itching to test. NOT that I would consider testing today, but I am already wanting to test when 8 dpo gets here. :shock: WITW? Am I nuts? Maybe I just like torturing myself. I guess in the back of my mind I can't help but think, WHAT IF. What if I get a surprise? Like, a MIRACLE? (which is what it would take for me to have gotten pg this cycle).
Hopefully my more sane, reasonable self will win out when 8 dpo gets here and I won't actually test. Better to just wait and see if AF shows up.
I talked to my DH tonight about adoption (the first time we've ever talked about it), and boy did I ever get a surprise . Not only was he AGAINST it, he was rather rude about it at first. When I asked him why he didn't want to adopt, he said in a very stern voice, "I just don't want to." :eek: I fell silent for awhile, and then finally said, "There must be a reason." And the reason he gave surprised me. I just didn't think he would feel that way. You think you know someone...... anyway, I am still trying to process it. I was silent the rest of the way home, and then when we got home he finally asked if I was upset with him. I was honest and said Yes, that I wasn't expecting him to say he didn't want to adopt (especially for the reason he gave). Then I asked him if he was dead set against it, and he said he couldn't answer that question because he didn't want to get my hopes up only to tell me no later. He said he didn't know how he would feel in the future, but right now, he doesn't want to consider adoption. He also thinks we still have plenty of chance to have one of our own and doesn't think it's necessary to consider adoption right now.
I respect his decision, but it is hard to take. I know that I have to accept it, and leave it in God's hands. It's just hard.
6 dpo ~ my temp only went up slightly this morning. Been fighting sleepiness pretty much all day, then this evening I had a little brownish spotting. I doubt it means anything, but it's good to note. BBs have been a little more sore, too,which I'm sure is just a good ol' PMS symptom. Oh and when I first woke up this morning I was pretty nauseated, but then it got better for the rest of the day. Also had a pretty bad backache this evening when I got to the mall with my DD - it was hard taking the stroller out of the van and putting her in it - pretty painful in fact. It's the same kind of pain I get a few days before AF, only this was worse. That lasted for several minutes, but then got better after I walked for awhile.
I haven't gotten that, "I'm not feelin' it" feeling yet, but it's still early.
Forgot to say... I'm feeling better about things today regarding the 'adoption issue.' I've accepted it, and now I will just wait on the Lord to see what He will do.
9 dpo ~ My temp went way up this morning. Not sure how accurate it is, though. I took it at an earlier time and then calculated forward to what it would be if I had taken it at my normal time. I've tested the 'calculating forward theory' before to see if it held true, it was amazingly accurate, so who knows.
I'm not getting my hopes up very much, though. I've had temp jumps before. The only difference this month is that this morning's temp is much higher than all the other temps so far this cycle, making my chart look 'triphasic,' assuming the temp adjustment this morning was accurate.
As for 'possible' symptoms, I've been having much more abundant Creamy CM. So abundant that it was 'dripping down' one time yesterday when I ck'd the tp, and again one time today. I've been having to use a liner, too.
My bbs having been sore off and on, but to me that's not even worth mentioning unless they get REALLY sore. I haven't had any nausea today but tonight I started to have some. That's another PMS symptom for me, though. So again, won't mention that again unless it gets very bad.
Oh DUH. Forgot to say that I tested this morning with a Dollar Tree hpt and it was a definite BFN.
I have one more of the new FRER tests left (that says you can now test 6 days before your period instead of 5), so I 'might' use it in the morning since I'll be 10 dpo. We'll see. It may depend on what my temp does.
11 dpo ~ BFN again yest morning and this morning with dollar store tests. I only have one test left now, so I'm going to save it for Thursday which will be our wedding anniversary. I'll be 13 dpo, so if it's neg again then I'll know I'm out.
More likely I'll have spotting before then, though, and won't need to test. The spotting for the past 2 cycles has started 3 whole days prior to AF, so Cousin Spot should show up tomorrow.
On the other hand, I said in my previous post that I wouldn't mention sore bbs again unless they got really sore - well they've been just that today. Really sore. I've also been ravenously hungry tonight and I can't seem to satisfy it and it's driving me crazy because it's not exactly conducive to weight loss! But as we all know, those can easily be part of PMS.
Sigh. Why do BFNs have to exist? Instead of there being no line there, it should have the word MAYBE because that's what it really means! Grrr. LOL. Why can't there be tests that either give us 2 lines, or 1 line and AF is on the way! :rolleyes:
15 dpo (around 12:30 a.m.) ~ I can't believe it - as of today, I have had NO spotting. None. I've had pretty abundant CM at times, but not a hint of brown or red anywhere.
Yesterday morning (14 dpo - Friday) my temp shot up, which also surprised me. I had no plans whatsoever to test. I was fully expecting that when I took my temp it would be down significantly, and instead it was up. I was baffled by this and wondered if my thermometer was working correctly. Reluctantly, I tested. I waited for a line to appear. Nothing. Nada. I titled it, held it up to the light, practically stood on my head - still white. It didn't make sense.
So all day today I have been thinking about it off and on, wondering if my O day is wrong. The OPK I took on CD 15 wasn't 100% positive, but it was 99%! Very very close. And it only got lighter after that, so I figured I caught the tail end of the surge (and FF seemed to agree since it gave me Crosshair's for that same day, meaning that I O'd that day). I did have O pain that day (CD 15), but I also had worse O pain on CD 17. Siiigh. My brain hurts if I try to think about it too much.
I have been tempted to change my O day to CD 17, since it would make more sense for me to only be 12 dpo right now, being that I haven't started spotting yet (or if by some miracle I am pregnant, haven't gotten a BFP yet). But for now, I've decided just to leave it where it's at.
I guess when AF finally shows, it will give me a better idea of when I really O'd. She's 'supposed' to show sometime today (Saturday), but it doesn't look like she will since I've had no spotting whatsoever yet. It will be interesting to see what my temp looks like later this morning. Better get to bed now....
CD 3 ~ Well apparently FF was right. I'm glad I decided not to change the O day. When I took my temp Saturday morning it had dropped, and not long after that I began spotting - first it was only on the tp, then it quickly progressed and by afternoon AF had started, though it was a very light flow at first, then Sunday morning it became heavy. I was surprised to only have half a day of spotting this time before AF started. A nice surprise, I might add. I would much rather AF not waste any time arriving.
I do have to wonder if my better diet and regular exercise has had a positive affect on my cycles. Since I started charting, if I remember correctly, I don't think I ever had only a half day of spotting before AF started. It was always at least one whole day, as in 24 hours, but more often than not it was 2 days, and more recently 3 whole days of spotting (before I started to really change my diet and exercise regimen). So not only did I wind up O'ing sooner this cycle, I only had the half day of spotting. I guess we'll see if this was just one fluke cycle or if it's a trend. I really hope it's the latter.
CD 10 ~ I've had a lot of post AF spotting this cycle. I had brownish spotting from the day AF ended all the way up to yesterday. A friend on pg.org said she has a lot of spotting, too, and thinks it's an "over 40" thing. Her doctor told her not to worry about it, so maybe I shouldn't either. It's just that there was a lot of it, that's why I was concerned. Anyhow, it's gone now, so now it's time to obsess over OPKs until I get that +, LOL.
My OPKs & HPTs arrived in the mail today. I was surprised because in the past it took about a week to get them - this time it only took 3 business days! :D I ordered them online from Babywishes.org. Got a nice deal on a combo pack. I've used them before and they were the only one I got a nice, dark positive OPK with. All other brands have either given me a weak positive or none at all. If I remember correctly their HPTs do give evap lines after the time limit, though, so I will have to watch that.
I started testing with the OPKs today, of course. It's a nice light line right now. My temp dipped way down this morning, so I almost thought I might be O'ing early (had lots of CM yesterday, too, but don't think it was EWCM). Today it seems I have been pretty dry so far.
I am not feeling too hopeful in the human sense of the term right now. BD has not been going well. I'd rather not go into details here, but I will say what it's not. It's not ED. Let's just say my chances will be much lower if something doesn't change. To my human mind, it looks pretty impossible right now. But... "With God all things are possible." -Mat. 19:26. So that's what I'm believing, and that's where I'm placing my hope.