3 dpo (evening):
While taking a shower this afternoon, the shampoo that I've been using for months suddenly smelled very funny to me. Also, I started to notice this evening that my bbs were fuller again, and a little more sore. I've also been VERY tired today.
I know they say you can't have symptoms until at least implantation, but I have a theory that your body knows it's pregnant at the very moment of conception. I base that theory on what I've read about what happens to the body at the moment of conception (a tiny amount of hcg is released right away, among other chemical changes.) I've also read about and talked to many women who had pg symptoms pretty early on.
Based on averages, though, I tend to think what I'm experiencing so far is NOT related to pg symptoms (if conception even happened in the first place), but it's fun to speculate that it could be by some slim chance. :)
ETA: When I came back to do a new post and read this again, I realized that I'm pretty sure I've said something like this before somewhere on this thread during a previous 2ww (without actually going back to look). To those who may have been following me for awhile (if there are any such people, lol), kindly forgive my repetitiveness. :roll:
6 dpo ~ I've been trying to get on here to post the past couple of days, but either I keep forgetting or just haven't had the time. Let's see what I can remember about the past few days:
4 dpo - Nausea hit that afternoon and continued until bedtime; sore bbs (felt more sore in the evening - really noticed it when I did my workout), funny (metallic?) taste in my mouth. Also had some of the same kind of CM that happens just prior to the spotting I get right before AF (thick, sticky, and discolored), which I found strange. Why would I have that at 4 dpo? I'm not due to start spotting for several more days. Not long after that, I had another kind of CM I always get a few days prior to AF (whitish-yellow, long, and drippy). Last month I think I got it early on in the 2ww, too, but it wasn't until around.... oh what dpo was it.... 7 or 8? Will have to go look. I think it was 3 & 4 dpo that I also had sharp, spastic, prickly type pain on the left side near where the ovary would be. It happened once or twice the evening/night of 3 dpo, and 3 or 4 times during the day on 4 dpo. It was pretty painful, but brief. What was so strange about it was how it was like a methodical type spasm, almost like it had a 'rhythm' to it. Makes me wonder if I could have O'd a 2nd time. I do have a 2nd temp shift. Hmmm.
5 dpo - Nausea continued, off and on - hardly noticed it, though; bbs a bit more sore.
6 dpo - Nausea off and on, less so than 5 dpo (except right after dinner), bbs more sore than 5 dpo, easily irritated, hungrier than usual (noticed that right upon waking), noticing smells more (I think?). CM has been more abundant.
In other news, my DD hit a ball with a bat the first time she tried tonight (plastic ball, plastic bat, of course :)), and for most of the times after that. We were amazed at how quickly she picked it up. She even planted her feet right and swung the bat correctly.
8 dpo ~ My temp shot up yesterday, but I didn't get excited about it because I think it's normal for your temp to 'peak' in the middle of the 2ww. Good thing I didn't get excited, because sure enough, this morning my temp was back down again.
Today I've been more nauseated, but also super hungry. What a combination. At least I don't get nauseated until after I eat. My bbs are definitely more sore today, and it's more constant, too. I've had a little bit of cramping off and on - that started yesterday. Today I also had some intense cervical cramping, but it didn't last very long. I'm still irritable, too, but it doesn't seem to be quite as bad as yesterday.
13 dpo (1:30 a.m.) ~ Well the past few days my temp has been on a roller coaster. It seems to be staying in the higher range, though. Still... I doubt it means that I'm pregnant.
My bbs stopped being sore on 9 dpo, then today they started to be tender only on the sides, and now they are starting to be sore 'all over' again. The nausea also seemed to stop for one day, but then came back, and gradually started to get worse. By this afternoon, it was in the pit of my stomach, and I almost couldn't eat dinner, but after adding some Ranch dressing to my burger, I was able to eat it. Don't ask me why. On 11 dpo I had very intense cramps all afternoon and into the night, but by morning they were gone (except for an occasional 'mild' cramp). I've been testing, and as of this morning, they have all been BFNs. I thought I saw a very faint line on 10 dpo - I took two tests, a FRER and a Dollar Store test, and I guess my eyes were playig tricks on me because I thought for sure there was a 2nd line on both of them. When I went back later to look at them, the line on both of them had disappeared into thin air.
I haven't had any spotting yet, though, and with my temp being up, I can't help but speculate that maybe my O day is off. My chart shows a +OPK on my chart for CD 16, but I never did get a really good positive that day, just a 'right before +' and a 'right after +'. And my temp on CD 19 shifted higher to what is a more 'normal' post-O temp for me, so I think it is at least possible I didn't O until CD 18. That would make me only 10 dpo today instead of 13 dpo.
Guess we will see.
CD 2 ~ Well apparently FF was right about my O day. AF showed up within the range of the two days she was due to show. It seems my LPs are now 14 days long now more often than 13 days, though. I wonder if it's because I'm O'ing a bit earlier now? Very well could be. Anywhoo, I'm just glad my cycles are more normal again.
Today while at the mall letting my DD play in the play area, it seemed like pregnant women and newborn babies were everywhere. Then I had a 'moment' where I was watching my DD interact with other children there and realizing just how big she is getting, and my eyes filled with tears. There is so little 'babyness' left in her now. I wondered to myself if she might be my last, and if I would ever get to experience the joys of being pregnant again and holding that itty bitty baby in my arms again. I had to stop thinking about it, and had a little talk with the Good Lord about it.
CD 13 ~ It's been awhile since I've posted. I just haven't really had anything to say until now I guess. I had the usual CM that I get about 3-4 days prior to O'ing about 3 days ago, so I expect to O soon. I haven't gotten a +OPK yet, but I did get one on Sunday that was fairly dark, then the OPKs got lighter again. I thought there might be a possibility I would have gotten a +OPK on Sunday morning, because I didn't test until later that afternoon and it was darker, then after that the OPKs got lighter again. I wondered if I might have missed the surge, but after thinking about it some more... nah. I'm pretty sure I'll still get a +OPK in the next day or so.
Speaking of Sunday, I got to hold my friend's newborn baby during Sunday School. Oh! It was such a special moment. I think she even smiled at me, even though they say newborns can't smile. :) And, of course, it was bittersweet...
CD 19 ~ Well surprise, surprise, I haven't O'd yet. Thought for sure I was gonna, but guess my body decided otherwise. I wonder if it's because I have slacked up on my diet and exercise the past couple of weeks?
Anyway, recently I had a very pivotal moment. We had yet another time of putting all our effort into BD, only to be disappointed again by no "success." It was the straw that broke the camel's back for me. I wound up in tears. I decided right then that I was done. Done with charting, done with opks, done with anything related to ttc. I don't want to know when I'm O'ing anymore. If I don't know, I won't worry about it. I don't care anymore about not knowing exactly when to expect AF. My longest cycle ever "would have been" 40 days long (if I had not gotten pregnant that cycle), so I can just go by that. I'll at least have a rough idea of when to expect her. So.. bye bye charting, bye bye opks, bye bye obessessing and analyzing over the lightness or darkness of a line or the high-medium-lowness-firmness of my cervix and the eggwhiteness of my CM. :rolleyes:
It will be a big change for me. I've been charting for two years now, except for the several weeks that I was pg before the mc. You know what's funny, though? After I had been away from it all for awhile and came back, it all suddenly seemed like madness to me... the constant wondering if the OPK was dark enough yet, if the CM was Eggwhite enough yet, if that sudden temp jump meant possibly O'ing early, all the analyzing of the temps to the nth degree, the analyzing of possible faint lines on hpts, and so on and so on.... I remember thinking, "Wow, can't they just WAIT and see what happens?" Hello? MIRROR, anyone? :lol: I was surely talking to myself because I knew I had been just like that. Funny what we are willing to do when we want something so badly, isn't it?
I look forward to finding something else to occupy that space and time now previously taken up by my ttc obsession. It's a big chunk of space and time, too....dipping sticks in pee, analyzing them and re-analyzing them, taking pics from time to time and loading them on the computer, taking temps, inputting info on the computer, staring at my chart on the computer screen, analyzing symptoms... the list is endless.
Hmmm I could think of a few things I could do:
*Finish those projects around the house I've been meaning to get to
*Do some landscaping and start a flower garden (that's deer-proof, of course)
*Spend more time doing fun things with Hannah
*Write a book
*Draw, paint, read more books
*Finish some scrapbooking projects
*Meet friends more often for lunch
The list is endless... :D
I finally O'd on CD 22. And just when I thought my cycles had been returning to normal...
1 dpo ~ nausea after dinner to the point of wanting to puke.
2 dpo ~ ditto, except it started later in the night.
3 dpo (Today) ~ A little nausea this morning.....
I'm glad I decided to finish this cycle out continuing to chart, because it's giving me some time to adjust to the idea of not charting anymore. Part of me is really looking forward to not charting, the other part of me wonders how much I will miss it, because I still look forward to putting my temp in on my chart most mornings. I also look forward to days like today when I am 3 dpo and I get to put in that 3rd temp, take of the override I had put on at 1 dpo, and let FF give me crosshairs to see if they agree with my previous assessment of when I O'd, and also see my coverline. I guess once I stop charting, I will have to come here to pg.org and stalk others' charts and analyze theirs to satisfy that analytical side of me. :)
Here are the projects I plan to do this upcoming week, starting on Monday:
1) Finish transferring Hannah's clothes from old dresser to new and purge any I find that she can no longer wear.
2) Finish purging/organizing my closet.
3 dpo (p.m.) ~ sore bbs off and on, from late afternoon on. Feeling even more sore tonight.
Not thinking anything of these 'symptoms' of course. Just noting them here.
4 dpo ~ Sore bbs continue, very tired today. No nausea. Increased CM from late afternoon on.