9 dpo ~ I woke up to some pretty bad nausea this morning. I wasn't planning to test, but the nausea made me, LOL. It was BFN, of course. Exactly what I was expecting. The nausea got better after breakfast, but still continues. My temp is down some from yesterday, but still up there.
Ok - nice looking chart and nausea, can you go away now? Because I doubt you mean anything, so quit making me 'wonder.'
10dpo ~ No nausea today, but my boobs have been pretty tender, which I actually didn't realize until I was holding my one-yr old niece in my lap and she was pushing on them, lol.
I tested this morning when I saw my temp had gone up higher, and it was.... well I'm not sure. There was a faint line that started to appear after something like 4-5 minutes (dollar store test). I was just about to give up on it and think nothing was there when I saw the line starting to appear. It was early so I went back to bed, then when I went back to check it again later, the line had faded significantly. It was barely there I'm pretty sure it's a negative. I just don't see how I could be pg this cycle.
I started having bad cramps late this afternoon. The kind that precede AF by only a few hours. Not sure why I'd be having cramps like this at 10 dpo. I haven't even started spotting yet. Maybe I'm just starting to cramp earlier than usual this cycle before AF arrives. Though I really hope I won't be cramping like this for 4 days.
In other news, I've had some behavioral issues with my DD and decided to start spending more time with her. I forgot how exhausting that can be, LOL. But she is slowly starting to improve. I've been working with her to get her to the point where she will listen better, and she is making some progress, albeit very slow.
11 dpo ~ My boobs are much more sore today, but I'm sure it's just PMS. I got what I thought 'might' be a super faint line on a $ store test this morning (blinking my eyes at 3 a.m., no less) but when I went back to look at it later it was faded, then this afternoon I used a FRER and it was clearly a BFN. My CM is starting to look like it does a couple of days before AF shows, too, so.... no more testing for me. Now I just wait for AF to arrive, and I will have some very choice words for her. LOL.
13 dpo ~ My temp went down further yesterday, but this morning it shot up again. I didn't get too excited, though. My temp has been known to go up before on 13 dpo, only to drop the following day and AF show up. I tested anyway, just for fun. BFN of course. I didn't bother to buy any more tests while out today - no point. I started the classic pre-AF spotting anyway, as well as the pre-AF type cramps I usually get. She should be here by tomorrow morning. Onward to next month.
I have been debating in my mind whether or not I want to bother charting next month. It is starting to seem pointless to me, especially with the BD issues we've been having. It would be nice to take a month off and relax and not worry about it. But would I not worry about it? Or would I worry about it even more--have I O'd yet, have I not O'd, etc.? And what if I O'd later again? I'd be expecting AF and think she was late and get my hopes up. *Siiiigh.*
Guess there's still a little time to decide.
In other news, my DD is at the age right now (3 yrs) where she can be so sweet and precious one moment, and yet so beyond frustrating the next. It's like having a teenager inside a tiny little incapable body. If she had the physical and mental capacity to do so, she would literally take my keys, sneak out of the house, and drive our mini-van down to the mall . Today while we were in the restroom at Walmart, I was being playful and leaned over and got close to her face, and she hauled off and slapped me on the cheek. Not super hard - it didn't even hurt really, but the look on her face told me everything I needed to know. Previous to that, I had been dealing with her not listening to me and getting an attitude with me on several occasions. That was the last straw. First, I got firm with her and told her that was wrong to slap mama in the face. Second, I calmly said, "Okay that's it. When we get home, you will be in time out for 10 minutes." She despises time out. For her, it's worse than any form of discipline you would possibly think of. From that moment, until she fell asleep on the way home, she was an 'angel.' Of course, that's not going to stop me from following through on my promise. She has to learn that being disrespectful has consequences.
She actually had been doing a little better behavior-wise until today. I've been spending more time with her, thinking maybe that was part of the problem, and also to work with her more closely to teach her about the importance of listening the first time, and about respecting her parents. We should not have to call her 10 times for her to come to us - she won't even turn her head if she is doing something she prefers and doesn't want to stop (and it's not because she doesn't hear us - I've tested that theory). I've even done some reading on the subject, and have gotten some good pointers of things to try.
Next on the list is an 'awards' system. This is an alternate method of discipline where you give a certain number of points or whatever you decide to use based on their age and what they seem to like (I've decided that I will try 'stickers on a chart' with my DD--it works well for potty training so it might work well for this as well). For say, 5 stickers she will earn a balloon from the dollar store (she LOVES balloons) -- for 10 stickers, she'll be allowed to pick out 2 toys from the dollar store. If she goes much beyond 10, I'll have to think of something else, probably a DVD or something (they have $5 ones at Walmart). From time to time I will also use this rewards system as a form of discipline by giving her a 'fine' and peeling off a certain number of stickers from her chart depending on the level of severity of her offense. It will be geared more towards reward than discipline, though. When we are out running errands, I'll take along a notebook to keep track of stickers earned (or sometimes deducted) and I will let her put the stickers on her chart when we return home.
We'll see how it goes.
Last edited by FLSunshineMom; 04-24-2010 at 04:56 PM.
CD 7 ~ I decided to continue temping this cycle, but every other day instead of every day. I originally thought I wouldn't bother with OPKs this month, but changed my mind and decided to do them after all. I think it would be less stressful to have that extra confirmation just in case my temps do weird things - last cycle FF thought I O'd on CD 10, and if I had started the OPKs on CD 9, I could have easily ignored it and not think I was in the 2ww, only to really enter the 2ww after CD 16. So I will start OPKs either tomorrow or CD 9.
I am much more relaxed about ttc this cycle so far, and haven't been thinking about it much at all. I'm so over being obsessed about it. I can truly say I am JLIH this cycle. Yes, I am still charting, but only for purposes of knowing when to expect AF. The last thing I would need is to think AF is late and get my hopes up when it would simply be because I O'd later.
The sticker chart has been working fairly well with my DD so far, but what really helped is when I started "upping the ante" for not listening and/or running off from me, and explaining it to her before entering any kind of public place. The consequence now is that we will leave and go home and she will be in time out when we get there. That really gets her attention, especially when we are going somewhere she really likes, such as, "McDonald Farm" (McDonald's ). My DH and I also decided to "up the ante" with her on potty training in a positive way, to give her more motivation. She is fully capable of using the potty exclusively, but tends to be lazy about it. So we told her that if she goes a whole day, she gets a special surprise, and if when she goes an entire week, we will throw her a big party. She is very excited about that, and mentions it often. She did great yesterday and earned her surprise, but today she pooped in her diaper at the church nursery (despite them asking her if she needed to go). I didn't dare put her in underwear at the nursery - just couldn't do that to the workers there, but she is capable of going in the potty even when wearing a diaper. At home, she is in underwear except for naps and overnight.
In other news, I was pleasantly surprised when I stepped on the scale this morning and had lost 4 lbs. this past week! I started the Jillian Michael's 30-day Shred workout video this week, so I'm really thinking that is making the difference, because I really haven't been trying that hard with the food this week. My weight ticker only shows a 2-lb. loss, but that's because I adjusted my beginning weight on the ticker since I found out recently that my home scale reads 2 lbs. heavier than it should (I compared it to a good digital scale in a doctor's office). The "loss" is the same on my home scale, but the actual weight is different. In other words, my home scale said I weighed 175 last week and this morning showed 171. But my actual weight should have been 173 last week and 169 today.
CD 10 ~ My temp shot up today, which might normally make one think they had O'd, but because I've been doing OPKs, and because I was up until after 1:00, for a very good reason, I might add (hint: ), then I'm not thinking much of it. Of course, I would love for it to be true since BD timing would be perfect, but well... that's up to the Almighty.
That being said, my OPK this morning was significantly darker than the two previous ones--it went from nearly white to a nice obvious line--and since I do normally get a fade-in pattern, maybe I will at least O a little earlier this month.
CD 13 ~ Well it looks like I won't O any earlier than last month. Today I had the kind of CM that I get about 3-4 days before O. The OPKs have continued to get darker, but very gradually. Who knows, maybe I'll get a +OPK tomorrow on Mother's Day - won't O that day more than likely (unless I have a really short surge), but it would be kind of cool to get a +OPK that day I guess. Not that it would necessarily mean I'd catch the egg, being that we are still having BD issues more times than not, and with a "new" issue that has come up recently. *Siiiiigh* Ah well, this too shall pass.
More and more lately I've been rolling around the idea in my head of not charting anymore. I'm starting to really get to know my body and the signs of O, so if I didn't chart I bet I could guess within a couple of days when I will O. If I have another 'regular' cycle this month, I might seriously consider it. My cycle length is now averaging 29-30 days, so I could always test if AF didn't show by CD 31. Then if it was negative, I could just wait a few days and if AF still didn't show, test again.
I dunnow, though. I kind of like charting because it feeds the analytical side of me. On the other hand, the "mystery" of not knowing exactly when I O'd would be kind of fun, too. I'll have to think on it some more.
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Good news - we were able to get in some successful BD this morning, and I think I O'd either yesterday or am O'ing today (pretty sure it was yesterday)! Supposedly the egg hangs out for "up to" 48 hours, so at least I have some hope now that the egg may have been caught
I'm not super hopeful, though. Gone are the days of that giddy hopefulness every month.
This morning when I woke up, my abdomen felt pretty tender, down low. I felt it during BD, too, but it wasn't too bad. It could be trapped gas or something. Strange that I haven't been gassy today at all, though. I've been feeling a bit of 'pressure' on the right side, too, near the ovary. Maybe I just have a bigger follie this month and it's letting me know it's there. Who knows. I'm sure it's related to ovulation in some way. I also had a major twinge of nausea mid-morning, but by lunch it was gone.
2 dpo (or so I tend to think) ~ My temp went up a little more today, so I'm pretty sure O happened 2 days ago. I did an override on FF for now to put in my O day, and when I put my temp in tomorrow, I'll take off the manual override to see where FF puts my crosshairs.
No tenderness in the abdomen today, so it must have been O-related. Last night I laid down with my DD to help her get to sleep, and fell asleep myself! LOL I was impossibly tired yesterday afternoon/evening. Then when I woke up and went to my bed, I noticed that my bbs felt swollen and sore. Thought that was so strange. Today they've been a little swollen and sore, too. Guess it's related to O'ing.
In other news, I went to my family doctor today for a check-up. Seems I will live at least a little longer. Tomorrow I go to the blood suckers so they can take a sample and test for any abnormalities.
After the doctor, I took my DD to the park. We had fun, but it was hot. When I wanted to leave, it was like pulling teeth to get her to leave. Can't blame her, I guess. What kid wants to leave the park where there's a playground and lots of open space to run around?
3 dpo ~ My temp went up a lot more this morning, and when I put my temp in and took off the override, FF gave me CH's. Apparently they agreed with the day I thought I O'd
Yesterday at 2 dpo, I had a moment of doubt when I had lots of EWCM-like CM. But it wasn't stretchy enough to be true EWCM. It was clear and abundant like EWCM, but broke too easily. So I counted it as Creamy CM. After that it was gone and my CM was very scant or sticky the rest of the day, so I was breathing a sigh of relief that I had indeed O'd. I felt even better when I saw my temp this morning.
This 2ww, I'm going to list possible symptoms, since I seem to at least have a chance this cycle.
2dpo - Full and sore bbs, then last night when I did my workout, it seemed a bit more difficult than usual. I didn't seem to have quite as much stamina.
3 dpo - Nothing so far, really, except my bbs do feel a little sore now and then. Can't tell yet if they're 'fuller' or not. Oh - and I did have trouble getting up this morning and slept later than usual. CM has been dry so far.
Different subject: I started a new diet plan on Mon of this week and it has gone great so far - I've lost 4 lbs. already. I hope to lose at least 1 more lb. by Sunday.
Last edited by FLSunshineMom; 05-14-2010 at 02:09 PM.