How it all started...
My husband and I met 10 years ago when I was a freshman and he was a senior in college and have been together ever since. We have lived together for 7 years and got married in 2003. We both love to travel and we used to spend all of our money on trips and having fun and even thought we both wanted to have kids at some point we never really gave it much thought until a year ago when a couple of our friends had the first baby in our group of friends and I we started helping them out by baby-sitting a few times a month. The little baby girl was so cute and sweet and innocent and we both loved playing with her so one day we just looked at each other and we knew we were ready.
I'm 28 and he's 34, we both don't smoke or drink and we lead healthy lifestyles, so figured we can get pregnant very easy. My work ionvolves a lot of travel and I had planned everything so that I will finish all of my travels before the summer, then get pregnant in the summer, have the baby in the spring and be ready to travel again in the summer of 2006.
Well, after so many of years of trying not to get pregnant and worrying about every day that my period was late, it turned out it's not that easy to get pregnant. Who would have thought that getting pregnant would be the hardest thing we've ever done! Both of us being Type A personalities, big on planning and on getting things done quickly, this whole process has been nerve-wrecking and full of anxiety.
We started trying to get pregnant in July'05 after we came back from a long vacation. I am very scared of flying and I take lots of anxiety pills every time I fly so that's why I wanted to come back from vacation before we started, just in case I got pregnant while there and then could not take my pills.
Everything was just so exciting for us! For the first time in our 10 year relationship (we got together when I was only 18) we could have sex without any protection so we tool advantage of this and had lots and lots of sex. I had not taken birth control pills for at least 3 years before that, I was young and healthy and I was convinced that I can get pregnant right away.
I got on the Internet and searched for clues of very early pregnancy. A week before my period was due I became very aware of my body checking myslef for sore breasts, nausea, cramps, etc. but did not really feel anything out of the ordinary.
Then I found out about implantation bleeding and began checking my underwear daily just to see whether I had any spotting. I even started wearing only bright clored underwear (no black) so I could check for blood.
As it got closer to the date my period was due I grew anxious with every day as I had no symptoms at all. One night, while watching TV I felt some moisture and ran to the bathroom and found a drop of blood on my underwear, which I thought was implantation bleeding so I jumped with joy.
I went to sleep happy only to wake up a few hours later and realize that I'd just gotten my period. I was so disappointed. I could not believe that after so much sex I was not pregnant. Little did I know...