ttc or not ttc that is the question????

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ttc or not ttc that is the question????

Hello all I guess I should start out by letting you all know about me, My name is Jennifer and I am 22yo. My fiance and I have been together for almost 5 years now and planning the wedding for next June, I can't wait. Well pretty much since we moved in together we haven't used bcp or any other type of protection against preganany, But no baby yet, We are not planning or ttc but then again we are not preventing it either. We have talked about and talked about it and still no deciding if we should start ttc or just let nature take it's course. So far we are letting God take care of it. I am just a little jealous that fiance's younger brother and wife are expecting in May. Why can't it be me? Only time will tell. Another thing is that I don't have regular periods, AF comes to visit every 3-6 months last AF visit was back in may. Everyone says that I should get on bcp but I am afraid that bcp's will prevent future pregnancies, I was on bcp from age of 15-17 and then switched to Depo vera shots for about 6 months and that is what I think caused my irregular visits from AF. I have went to my ob/gyn and asked her why I am not having regular AF visits and the only thing that she suggests is bcp and that is something that I want to stay away from, but now I am thinking that it will maybe be a good thing to start back on bcp if they are a low dosage pill. I guess I will wait till I visit gyn again. well I should close for now as fiance will be home soon, I will keep this journal going as this is the only way to get REAL feedback from people, I can ask friends and family but you know how that goes, Ha Ha Ha Lol

Joined: 08/19/04
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I have been very busy at work this week and haven't had time to write in my journal. I work in a small department store and they keep me very busy. I really like it , there are only girls that work there and its fun to bs with them all day long.

I was feeling very down last night when fiance's little brother was over here and he kept talking about their new bundle of joy arriving in may and what plans they had for it, I listened for a bit then went to bed. I am happy for them but they wern't even planning it, and she didn't even want to become pg for awhile. They haven't even been married a year. Well I guess I shouldn't say too much I have been living in sin for almost 5 years now, But thats what you have to do these days, no sense in living apart and wasting money, well thats what I think. We are thinking of moving the wedding date to a sooner one, but we haven't talked about it much yet. He says I can do what ever but just let him know when and where to be that day.

Well I should put this to a close I am tired after working all day.

Joined: 08/19/04
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I am feeling so BAD right now, I wish I could just crawl in a hole and hide forever. Here I was being jealous over the pregnancy of my soon to be sister in law, when I should of just kept quiet. Found out yesterday she had a m/c. I feel so bad now, I know what I said didn't have anything to do with her m/c but i'm sure it didn't help either. Well I am going to go crawl in a hole now.

Joined: 08/19/04
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Hello Sorry I haven't replied in a long time but things have been pretty hectic around here. I have been working my butt off theese past couple of weeks and haven't had time for anything else. Also I have been fighting a really bad uti so bad I could hardly walk. I went to the Dr. and he put me on some medication to help. It seems to be going away. Also with a uti that means no BDing at least for 2 weeks, unless DF (dear fiancee) want to get one too. Well I am going to end this one I'll find some time tomorrow to get back on here and write some more. Thanks for listening to me.