Ok, very creative title, I know...I'm not creative with words!
I've been on Preg.org for awhile now and thought about starting a journal before but never did. I guess now I have extra time on my hands, what the heck?
Here's our story...
Dh and I got married August 2006. We knew we wanted children right away so we started ttc on our wedding night. I was having really crazy cycles. AF was so unpredictable. I would have AF for 3 days, she'd go away, 2 days later AF for 13 days. 5 days later AF again for another 7 days. Pretty much never knew when she was coming, so be prepared. I have always had problems with ovarian cysts, and had a tumor surgically removed from my right ovary when I was 16. I made an appt. with a new OB since I never really had a regular doctor. She looked at my charts and told me I wasn't ovulating which I basically already knew, that's why I was there. I had an u/s done to check for the recurrence of a tumor and the u/s showed a few cysts.
I did 3 cycles of BCP to "regulate" me followed by 3 cycles Clomid. Our timing was perfect every time. Dh went in for a SA which revealed he has poor motility. He changed a few habits (no biking, no working w/radiation, no drinking) and has to go back for another SA. I'm back on BCP to keep me having a period until then.
A few weeks ago I quit my job working at a childcare center in the infant room. I loved my job working with babies but it was hard going there everyday when all you want is your own. I'm sick of taking care of other people's kids. Unfortunately now that I left there I have to get insurance on my own. Not a big deal, but, you have to wait 12 months after signing up for your labor/delivery/hospital stay to be covered. So this puts us at waiting a few more months to be safe-- having a delivery date anytime after November of 2008. So I guess for right now we're not really trying, not really preventing. I have 3 more weeks left of the BCP and then I don't know what's going to happen. I guess we'll have to wait and see and hope my body is in the habit of having a regular AF.
I feel like we've been trying to have a baby so long, yet in that time we've only had a few good cycles where we've actually had a chance. It's so unfair.
I guess that's our story. I've been really depressed about it lately, you know, everybody around is pregnant and having babies except for me. I *try not to think about it, but it just happens. And now I'm having dreams about it. It just never goes away.
I know when we finally do get our BFP it will be so special. I also know I won't be able to keep it a secret for long because I'll be so happy.