Hello! DH and I have decided it's time to start trying to complete our family. My name is Holly and I'm 25 years old. DH and I have been together for 5 1/2 years, and have been married for 3 1/2. We met while I was in college and working at a fast food resturant in the mall...how romantic, right? He used to work in the mall too, and would come down and visit all the time. Right after Valentine's Day he asked me on a date, and we've been together ever since.
We were married on June 18, 2005 and shortly thereafter we were blessed with a daughter, Addison Lynn (6.1.2006). She was such a good baby, very mellow and easy going. When she turned 9 months old, we decided we wanted to try for another little baby and we were blessed with another daughter, Lauryn Rae (11.29.2007). Lauryn is very different from her sister. She was colicky from the beginning and is very clingy and fussy. However, when she's happy, she's so sweet!
Last month, DH and I decided we wanted to try one more time for a little boy. However, if we're blessed with another little girl, that will be just fine too! We didn't start trying until the middle of my cycle last month, so I'm not sure when I Od. I don't think we had big chance last month, but it still sucks to see a blazing negative We were so fortunate with Addison. We concieved her on our first cycle. With Lauryn it took 2 cycles, so I'm expecting this one to take three, but will be pleasantly surprised if we get pregnant this month
Since I know this is my last time TTC and being pregnant I want to remember all of it. I know when I'm older I'm going to miss not being pregnant, so this is where I will keep all of my thoughts/feelings/ramblings until I get that BFP!! Best of luck to any other women out there TTC!!
I think I'm nuts...I'm not even pregnant yet and I've already been looking at nursery themes and planning them out. We have names picked out, but no baby yet...I don't know what to do with myself. I forgot how long and stressful TTC can be and it's only been 1 month...ugh!
I'm still trying to get my body all figured out. Ever since AF has come back after having Lauryn it's been really strange. Some days my period will last for 8 days and then spot for 2 or 3 days after that. Last month, my period was 5 days and 1 day of spotting. My periods have also been a lot heavier too, so I'm anxiously awaiting the day I get a BFP and don't have to worry about it for a while Anyway, just needed to rant about how crazy I am for having nursery themes all picked out already. I'm nuts
Am I the only one who's baby fever disappears while AF is in town? I'm so tired of waiting for her to leave....the time just drags on and on! She should be gone today or tomorrow and then the fun can begin DH has no idea what he's in store for this month. I'm the type of person that when I want something, I want it yesterday...so to decide that we're ready for another baby is killing me. I want to be pregnant now!!!
My temps have been screwy the past few days, but last night I didn't get a lot of sleep. I tossed and turned quite a bit and then ended up with a fussy baby in our room. Lauryn has yet to sleep in her crib very well, and actually for the last three nights she's gone to bed on her own in her crib and stayed there until 6:30. I'm so proud of her!!
Anyway, just needed to complain about AF. I hope she's gone today!!
CD 10 today...I should O sometimes this week, so it's time to get to work It's been a long weekend. We started demolition on our kitchen so it's a huge mess in our house!! There is dust everywhere. We have no cabinets, no countertops, and no running water in our kitchen atm...but hopefully the new kitchen will be complete by the end of the month. Next weekend my dad and DH are going to finish up some wiring and start putting sheet rock back up. Then they can start putting back in countertops and cabinets. I'm so excited to see it when it's so finished. Even now w/the wall ripped out it looks so different...can't wait!!
Here's to hoping my body cooperates this week and I O on time. I'm actually nervous this month because I want this so badly....
It's been a week since I've last written. I have been stressing out all week long because FF marked me down as Oing on CD9 while AF was still around. I just couldn't believe it....and thankfully I invested in some OPKs this month. I've been taking them all week and got a + yesterday afternoon at 4 PM. I just took another one (Sunday at 9 PM) and it's still positive. We're doing what we can and putting it in the big man's hands....hopefully we'll be blessed.
DH and I did some more looking and talking about boy names today. I made a list and he chose two that he liked: Gavin and Lucas. His two that he likes are Cullen and Easton...so now the battle begins I'm thinking we'll each choose our favorite and then decide somehow. I still LOVE Kyler, but I know that will never be an option, so these are two of my other favorites. Anyway, off to BD!! Hope we catch that egg!
What a roller coaster of emotions TTC can be...seriously! This month I am temping and I used OPKs. I know I hit O time because of the positive OPKs, but now I just have to sit back and wait, and I hate that!! I'm 6dpo and my temps are driving me batty. I had a huge dip yesterday, below the coverline by almost one whole degree and it makes me think I've missed it this month. I will say that my temps have gone back up this morning, so that gives me some hope...but it's just a waiting game I've had some sore, tender boobs and also occassional cramps or twinges in my abdomen. They don't feel like AF type cramps. I'm trying not to obsess over symptoms so much this cycle because sometimes I think they're all in my head.
I am debating whether or not I should give my OB a call. I'm 99% sure I either have a UTI or a YI. I've been so uncomfortable the last few days and I can't tell which I might have. If I have a YI, I'm hesitant to use OTC meds because I'm not sure if I'm pregnant or not...and if it's a UTI, they'll need to give me meds. I think I'll call the office tomorrow and talk to them. We'll see what they have to say.
I've been pestering DH to look at boy names, and he just will not sit down and do it. To me, I feel that is partly why we have never had a boy....because we can't compromise on a name. I know that's silly and has nothing do to with, but I still think that way. Before each of our last two pregnancies, we knew the girl's name, but we just could not settle on a boy's name. I'm hoping he'll sit down today and at least take a look. I'm not wanting it set in stone, but some ideas to get started would be great. Guess we'll see.
I'm feeling a little down....AF arrived today It's only our 2nd cycle TTC so I know it may take a while, but it happened so quickly last time. Guess I just thought it would happen quickly this time too!
Last month I used OPKs and temped, and this month I think I'm going to go just take it easy. I may temp some days, and other days I may not. I am not buying OPKs (1. We don't have the money and 2. I'm just too bummed...), so we'll see what happens with the temping. I know we hit O day last month, and I think that's why I'm taking this so hard. It doesn't help either that DH thinks I'm "trying too hard." Thanks hunny I love you too! Maybe I'm meant to have 2 November babies...guess we'll have to wait and see.
One good thing that has happened is that we finally have a name chosen for a little boy: Landon Keith. I love it and it fits in with the girls' names. Each name ends with an 'n' and they both have a grandma's middle name. Keith is FIL's name, so it works. Hopefully this month goes quickly and I have things to keep me and my mind busy!
I'm seriously upset...I just don't get it. I have never had a tough time getting pregnant. When we decided to start TTC #1, we conceived on our first try. Nine months later, Addison was born. We decided when she was 9 months old to try for another one, and poof! Pregnant again right away. My cycles used to be like clockwork...28 days, Oing on CD14. Now that we're trying for #3, I'm having trouble getting pregnant. This is only our 3rd cycle, so I know I shouldn't really complain, but I've been temping, and my cycles are really screwy!! I'm on CD20, and I STILL have not Od yet...WTHeck?!? If I do O this month, I'll only have a 7-9 day LP, and that's not long enough for an egg to stick.
My LP has been really screwy too...last month it was 12 days, the month before it was 7 days, and the month before that was 10. Ugh...
I just don't understand how I got pregnant so easily before, and now I'm having trouble. I keep thinking that I'm being punished, or that I'm not meant to have another one I just feel frustrated...if you made it this far, thanks for reading.
CD21 and still no O...I just don't get it. Someone told me today that regardless of when I O, I should still have an 11 day LP...that didn't happen last time, so it makes me wonder if FF is marking my O days accurately. I guess I need to either buckle down and invest in OPKs or stop temping and worrying about it....I just don't know. Guess we'll wait and see. I just hate the waiting game.
Some days I feel like I'm being punished...like maybe I'm not a good enough mommy to my girls and that God is telling me no more children. I try my hardest, I really do. I didn't realize just how hard it can be to have a 2 yr. old. I love her to pieces, but she definately tries my patience. She's going through a *phase* right now where she spits at us if she doesn't get what she wants. I now see Lauryn doing the same thing, and I really need to get ahold of the situation and get it under control before they take it and run. I know that God has a plan for each and every one of us, and if I'm meant to have another baby, I will. It's just so hard to wait and not know for sure when it's something that you want so badly...