ttc: quit smoking and reverse vasectomy

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ttc: quit smoking and reverse vasectomy

My name is Michelle and I am 31. DH is 31. And we have 2 boys that are 3 and 5. DH got a vasectomy in march 2004. I had agreed at the time, because the 2 boys were such a handful, I really felt like I was finished. Well, my 5 year old is starting kindergarten and my 3 year old is starting preschool, and I want a baby and so does DH. So July 17, 2006, my DH did the most wonderful thing, he had a reversal. :jumpingbeans: He was laid up for 2 days and then back to work. Dr. said to wait 1 week to have sex and then we were free ttc. I started to take Zyban on July 20 as I do not want to be smoking while i am trying to get pregnant(smoker for 14 years :shock: ) So this is day number 2 no smokes. it is actually easier than I thought, I'm sure this has to do with the Zyban. I'm also on CD3.I dont plan on temping or charting unless it comes down to it. I am just a regular 28 day gal, so we will see how it goes. I am nervous because before we never had to try, we could just look at each other and get pregnant. Now though, we are older and we are still waiting for his spermies to come back. I am trying to not let myself become too excited, but it is so hard. I cannot wait to have another life growing inside me.

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well, today is cd7. i've been thinking about buying some opk's. they have them at the dollar tree for a buck. we went to the lake yesterday, it was so relaxing. only hard part was that there were people smoking which only bothered me for a few minutes. thank goodness for my zyban or i'd be a wreck :evil: well i get to start trying on friday :woohoo:

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not much to report here. yesterday i bought a decent microscope from ebay. i had bought a cheap $20 toy one, but it sux. cant wait to get it, hopefully i will see some swimmers. :bluesperm: I know it sounds really weird, but i like atleast knowing if the surgery was a little successful. when i first started reading about reversals i said i wont be one of those people looking in a microscope and now look at me, i just spent a $100 for a good one! I just need piece of mind that something is going on down there. I will be devastated if this didnt work. i shouldnt get so worried though its only been 3 weeks since surgery.I just cant help thinking what if it didnt work? we go for a sperm analysis in a few weeks so that will tell us something.

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today is cd11. i took an opk a couple of hours ago, i think it just confused me even more. it had half of the line darker than the other so i dnt really know what this means. i think i will test again today in a couple of hours and see what happens. i am still waiting for my microscope, i tried to look again last night, i knew i shouldnt but i couldnt help myself. an of course, what did i see, nothing, zip, nada. so discouraging, i could just cry. we spent so much money on this reversal and dont really have the money for a redo. i know it probably takes time, i guess i am just an impatient person especially when it comes to getting pregnant. i will recap later on the other opk.

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well i am on cd18, nothing new has really been happening. i used opk's the whole weekend, but they really didnt tell me much, either i ovulated on cd12 or i didnt ovulate at all according to those dumb ole sticks. oh well, dont think i will use them again. got my new microscope the other day. it rocks! i havent checked for swimmers, however, i did look under it and seen dead ones. woo hoo no cigarettes for 2 weeks. and now i have started a diet, actually dh is doing it with me, so that helps. we even walked a couple of miles last night while the boys were at bible school, it was very relaxing. i hate the 2ww.

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i have really been slacking on keeping this journal up to date. however, not alot happens when you are a stay at home mom. today is cd25, yesterday and today i have had some brown and pinkish spotting when wiping (sorry tmi) i hoping it is implatation bleeding. keeping my fingers crossed. i of course had to take a test which of course was a BFN. but then again it might just be too early. i hope it happens soon cuz i cant imagine doing this month after month, analyzing every little symptom. and thinking am i pg? well gotta finish supper, happy friday!

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well this cycle was a bust. i guess on to cycle 2, cd1. i have never, i mean never had a 25 day cycle, my body is doing some weird things. we have our first sa on the 30th. i am so nervous, i am so afraid of what the outcome is gonna be. and right now i just dont think that i could handle any bad news right now, i have been so emotional lately. i feel like i am the only one who cares if this works or not. i dont feel like dh even cares. he has been wanting to drink alot lately and not take the greatest care of his body. and here i am, i stopped smoking, i am trying to lose weight, and trying to get more active by walking. i havent even had a drink in almost 2 months and for what? so he can ruin our chances. i really dont think our sa is gonna be good, we have a scope and all i have ever seen are dead ones or ones that are stuck and flopping around. i wish he never ever had gotten clipped and we wouldnt be here right now. sorry i am having a feel sorry for myself day.

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okay i just need to vent a little about dh again. last night i was reading on which vitamins he should take according to drs who do only reversals and i told dh he should take these, he says i am not taking all those pills, are you trying to kill me? he also says he takes a multi vitamin and thats enough. the more and more i read i really wish that i would have known about icvr when we had this done, it weems like they have such excellent results. so i also brought up to dh that if we would need a redo would go to icvr and he said he would never ever get a redo. i had never heard of icvr before the reversal probably cuz we are from ohio and we already were spending 7500 and then to add money for flight and hotel. but after i seen it on a web site and i so wish i would have heard of it before oh well. our surgeon is suppose to be good, he has been doing these for over 20 years with a 96% rate, so i guess i just need to be patient, easier said than done. it is in gods hands now and if he chooses this to happen then it will. geez, i sure am turning into a whiner. i should start thinking of more positive things, sometimes it is hard to stay positive during this whole experience. oh well, done feeling sorry for myself. chin up!

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WELL TODAY IS CD4. I FOUND A PILL CALLED FERTILITY BLEND THAT DH HAS AGREED TO TAKE, WHICH ALL THE THINGS HE NEEDS TO TAKE TO HOPEFULLY INCREASE SPERM. NOT MUCH TO REPORT ON. SOMETIMES ITS REALLY BORING BEING A SAHM. DONT HAVE MUCH TO DO RIGHT NOW. ITS A RAINY, CRAPPY DAY TODAY.

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WELL TODAY IS CD6. DUE TO HAVING SUCH A SHORT CYCLE LAST MONTH, I AM GONNA START TESTING WITH MY OPKS ON CD8. HOPEFULLY I WILL GET A POSITIVE WITH THEM THIS MONTH. ACCORDING TO MY CALENDAR, I SHOULD BE OVULATING AROUND THE TIME THAT DH HAS TO HAVE HIS SA DONE SO NO BDING FOR 3 DAYS. WHAT A BUMMER! LAST NIGHT, I THINK I MIGHT HAVE SEEN SOME SPERM UNDER THE MICROSCOPE! I JUST CANT SEE THEIR TAILS (IF THATS WHAT THEY ARE) AND THEY DONT SEEM TO BE MOVING VERY FAST. I GUESS WE WILL SEE ON WEDNESDAY.

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WELL TODAY IS CD 11. NO POSITIVES ON THE OPKS YET, I HAVENT TESTED YET TODAY THOUGH. THIS MORNING WE HAD OUR SA, DONT HAVE THE RESULTS UNTIL TOMORROW. I AM SO NERVOUS, PRAYING THAT THE RESULTS WILL BE GREAT. DH HAS BEEN GREAT AT REMEMBERING TO TAKE HIS FERTILITY BLEND, I DONT EVEN HAVE TO REMIND HIM, HE JUST DOES IT. I ALSO HAD A LOOK UNDER THE MICROSCOPE AND I DO BELIVE I HAVE SEEN SOME SPERM. WHOO HOO!

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CD 13 WELL WE WENT TO THE DR YESTERDAY, THE DUMB OL HOSPITAL HADNT EVEN FAXED THEM THE SA RESULTS. SO THEY CALLED THEM ALL THEY REALLY SAID WAS IT WAS A LOW COUNT. BUT THERE ARE LIVE SWIMMERS, SO I GUESS THATS GOOD. THE DR SAID HE WAS HAPPY THAT THEY WERE GETTING THROUGH AND THAT IF WE ARE NOT PREGNANT IN 3 MONTHS THAN WE WILL DO ANOTHER SA AND SEE HOW THE NUMBERS ARE AND SEE IF DH NEEDS MEDS. HE SEEMED VERY OPTIMISTIC WHICH I GUESS I SHOULD BE TOO. I JUST WANT THIS TO HAPPEN SO BAD. HE ALSO SAID THAT HE WOULD CALL US IF HE GOT SPECIFIC NUMBERS FROM THE HOSPITAL. I WANT NUMBERS. I HAVE TO REMEMBER THAT WE ARE ONLY 7 WEEKS OUT AND IT TAKES 72 DAYS FOR NEW SPERMIES AND WE ARE ONLY AT DAY 52. SO HOPEFULLY THINGS WILL IMPROVE IN THE NEXT COUPLE WEEKS.

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CD14 WELL I TESTED POSITIVE ON MY OPKS, HOWEVER, I TESTED POSITIVE 2 DAYS AGO ALSO AND THATS WHEN I HAD EWCM AND I DONT HAVE THAT ANYMORE (TMI TURNED SORTA PASTEY) SO NOT SURE WHAT TO THINK. I TOOK ALITTLE PEAK UNDER THE SCOPE THIS MORNING AND I SWEAR I AM ABOUT READY JUST TO PUT THE DAMN THING AWAY. I WORRY TOO MUCH ABOUT IT. ATLEAST TODAY I SEEN A LOT MORE SPERM THAN USUAL, OF COURSE ALL DEAD OR STUCK, ALTHOUGH I AM NOT QUITE SURE IF I CAN SEE THE TAIL OR NOT, MAYBE I JUST HAVE TOO MUCH ON THE SLIDE. I ACTUALLY CRIED LOOKING AT ALL THE DEAD ONES, I KNOW HOW PATHETIC. I COULDNT HELP IT, I SEEN ALL THE ONES STUCK AND DEAD AND I DIDNT SEE ANY SWIMMING. GUESS I AM IN THE FEEL SORRY FOR MYSELF DAY.

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CD15 OKAY SO I HAD TO SCOPE AGAIN LAST NIGHT, I KNOW I AM OBSESSED, I CANT HELP IT. I AM SEEING SO MANY SPERM, MORE THAN I HAVE EVER SEEN, WHICH MAKES ME HAPPY AND THEN IT MAKES ME SAD CUZ (I KNOW I HAVE ALREADY SAID THIS) THEY ARE ALL DEAD OR STUCK. I AM WONDERING IF MAYBE DH IS INFLAMMED, SO I MADE HIM START TAKING MOTRIN JUST INCASE. PRETTY SURE THIS CYCLE IS A BUST DUE TO WHAT I HAVE SEEN UNDER THE SCOPE, JUST HAVE TO WAIT FOR THE WITCH TO SHOW UP SO I CAN START A NEW CYCLE HOPEFULLY WITH BETTER SPERM DUE TO FERTILITY BLEND AND MOTRIN.IT WILL BE CYCLE 3. NOT REALLY SURE WHEN TO EXPECT AF CUZ MY LAST CYCLE WAS 26 DAYS AND THE CYCLE BEFORE THAT WAS 28 DAYS. AH THE WAITING GAME.

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CD 17 I AM SO EXCITED YESTERDAY I HAD TO TAKE A LOOK UNDER THE OLE SCOPE (LIKE THATS ANYTHING NEW) AND WHAT DID I SEE? 3 SWIMMERS. OMG I WAS SO EXCITED. ITS NOT THAT MANY, BUT IT IS A START, HOPEFULLY BY THE NEXT TIME I AM OVULATING THERE WILL BE LOTS MORE. THIS MORNING WHEN WIPING (SORRY TMI) I HAD A LITTLE BIT OF PINK DISCHARGE, IMMPLANTATION? THAT WOULD BE NICE BUT I AM NOT GETTING MY HOPES UP. I AM PRETTY SURE I AM NOT PREGGO BUT I WOULD LOVE TO BE. JUST HAVE TO REMEMBER THAT IT ONLY TAKES ONE.

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CD 18 NOTHING NEW TO REALLY REPORT ON. I HAD ONE OTHER BOUT OF WIPING AND HAVING A REDDISH, PINK DISCHARGE YESTERDAY, SO FAR TODAY NOTHING. I HATE THIS 2 WEEK WAIT, IT SUCKS. TIME JUST DRAGS BY. I COUNT DOWN THE DAYS UNTIL I TEST. I AM SO HOPING THAT WHEN I GET PREGNANT THAT IT IS A GIRL, I ALREADY HAVE 2 BOYS, OF COURSE I WILL BE THRILLED EITHER WAY, IT WILL JUST BE AN ADDED BONUS IF IT WOULD BE A GIRL. LITTLE GIRLS CLOTHES ARE SO CUTE. I COULDNT SLEEP VERY WELL LAST NIGHT, I WOKE UP WITH HEARTBURN AT 4 AM. I AM NOT READING IN TO THIS THOUGH, AS I ATE PIZZA AT ABOUT 7:30 SO THIS COULD BE WHY. WELL HOUSEWORK IS CALLING MY NAME.

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CD 19 I JUST WANNA TEST SO BAD, EVEN THOUGH I KNOW IT WILL BE NEGATIVE. I JUST WANNA KNOW FOR SURE THAT THIS CYCLE WAS A BUST AND THEN IT DOESNT HAVE TO CONSUME MY THOUGHTS. AND I DONT HAVE TO THINK ABOUT EVERY LITTLE SYMPTOM, AM I PREGNANT OR IS IT JUST PMS, OR AM I OVER EXAGGERATING? I NEED TO LEARN SOME PATIENCE. I ONCE READ SOME WHERE, SLOW AND STEADY WINS THE RACE. I NEED TO REMEMBER THAT.

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CD 20 WELL I THINK I AM PMSING IT. I HAVE BEEN SO HUNGRY THESE LAST 2 DAYS. I HAVE PRACTICALLY ATE THE HOUSE OUT. AND THAT IS A NORMAL PMS SIGN FOR ME FOR SURE. I AM NOT EVEN SURE WHEN I COULD TEST IF I WANTED TO. NOT TOO SURE WHEN I OVULATED. OH WELL I GUESS I WILL JUST WAIT IT OUT, CUZ AF IS SURE TO SHOW HER FACE NEXT WEEK. CHECKED UNDER THE SCOPE LAST NIGHT DIDNT SEE SQUAT. I HAVE TALKED DH INTO TAKING PREDNISONE FOR THE INFLAMMATION JUST HAVE TO WAIT TO GET IT. HOPEFULLY THAT WILL IMPROVE SOME THINGS. I GUESS I NEED TO REMEMBER THAT I STILL HAVE BEEN BLESSED TWICE ALREADY AND SOME HAVE NEVER EXPERIENCED THIS. SO I SHOULD STOP FEELING SORRY FOR MYSELF AND BE THANKFUL FOR WHAT I ALREADY HAVE.

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CD 21 NOTHING REALLY NEW AROUND HERE. JUST CANT WAIT TO GET THIS CYCLE OVER, AND MOVE ON TO THE NEXT. HOPEFULLY BY THEN I WILL BE SEEING SOME IMPROVEMENT UNDER THE SCOPE. BUT I DOUBT IT CUZ WE WONT GET OUR MEDS FOR ABOUT 2 WEEKS, HOPEFULLY SOONER BUT THEY SAID 10 BUSINESS DAYS SO I FIGURED 2 WEEKS AND I DONT KNOW HOW FAST THEY WORK. BUT I AM MAKING HIM TAKE THEM NO MATTER WHAT. HE HAS AGREED, I HAVENT TOLD HIM THAT HE SHOULDNT DRINK WITH THEM. I WONT TELL HIM TILL HE STARTS TAKING THEM. I LOVE HIM SO MUCH, I AM SO GRATEFUL FOR ALL THAT HE HAS DONE FOR ME AND THE BOYS. HE DID A VERY SELFLESS THING BY GETTING THIS REVERSAL. I KNOW HE WANTS THIS TOO. VASECTOMIES SUCK.

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STILL CD 21 JUST HAD TO COMMENT THAT I JUST BOUGHT A CLEARBLUE EASY FERTILITY MONITOR OFF OF EBAY. IT SHOULD BE HERE IN TIME FOR MY NEXT CYCLE. I CANT WAIT. IT WILL MAKE KNOWING WHEN I OVULATE SO MUCH EASIER. THE REGULAR OPKS I HAVE A HARD TIME READING, AND I HAVE ALREADY WASTED SO MUCH MONEY ON THOSE THINGS. WISH I WOULD HAVE THOUGHT TO GET THIS BEFORE THE LAST TO MONTHS OF BUYING THEM. OH WELL, LIVE AND LEARN. I HOPE THIS WORKS ALOT BETTER. I BOUGHT THE MONITOR AND 30 TEST STRIPS FOR $138 THE MONITOR ALONE IS $200 AT RITE AID AND THE STRIPS ARE $50 SO I THINK I GOT A PRETTY GOOD DEAL. COME ON AF, SO I CAN START THIS AND SEE HOW IT WORKS.

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STILL CD 21 JUST HAD TO COMMENT THAT I JUST BOUGHT A CLEARBLUE EASY FERTILITY MONITOR OFF OF EBAY. IT SHOULD BE HERE IN TIME FOR MY NEXT CYCLE. I CANT WAIT. IT WILL MAKE KNOWING WHEN I OVULATE SO MUCH EASIER. THE REGULAR OPKS I HAVE A HARD TIME READING, AND I HAVE ALREADY WASTED SO MUCH MONEY ON THOSE THINGS. WISH I WOULD HAVE THOUGHT TO GET THIS BEFORE THE LAST TO MONTHS OF BUYING THEM. OH WELL, LIVE AND LEARN. I HOPE THIS WORKS ALOT BETTER. I BOUGHT THE MONITOR AND 30 TEST STRIPS FOR $138 THE MONITOR ALONE IS $200 AT RITE AID AND THE STRIPS ARE $50 SO I THINK I GOT A PRETTY GOOD DEAL. COME ON AF, SO I CAN START THIS AND SEE HOW IT WORKS.

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CD 22 WELL I WAS STUPID THIS MORNING AND TOOK A HPT, OF COURSE IT WAS A BFN. I KNEW IT WOULD BE, I AM SURE IT IS WAY TOO EARLY ESPECIALLY IF THIS MONTH IS GONNA BE A 28 DAY CYCLE INSTEAD OF A 26 DAY LIKE LAST MONTH. I WILL WAIT TO TEST AGAIN ATLEAST 4 DAYS (OR ATLEAST I WILL TRY) I AM NOT EXPECTING A BFP THIS MONTH ANYWAYS DUE TO THE LACK OF SWIMMERS, BUT I CAN BE HOPEFUL RIGHT. I HOPE THE NEXT WEEK GOES BY FAST. I FEEL LIKE TIME IS DRAGGING BY.

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CD 24 YEAH THIS CYCLE IS ALMOST OVER. I CANT WAIT. NOT EXACTLY SURE WHEN TO EXPECT THE WITCH. MY BBS ARE A LITTLE TENDER BUT THAT IS NORMAL PRE AF. SO NO BIGGY. I RECEIVED MY FERTILITY MONTITOR TODAY. SO I WILL GET TO USE IT AS SOON AS AF ARRIVES.NOW ALL I NEED IS DH ANTI INFLAMMATORIES AND WE WILL BE SET. I WISH HIS MEDS WOULD GET HERE SOON, THE QUICKER THEY GET HERE THE FASTER I SHOULD START SEEING SWIMMERS (I HOPE). ONE OF GOOD FRIENDS ARE ALSO TRYING TO CONCEIVE, THEY JUST STARTED THIS MONTH. IT WOULD BE COOL TO BE PREGNANT TOGETHER, BUT I AM SURE SHE WILL BE PREGNANT WAY BEFORE ME. WELL LOTS OF HOUSEWORK IS CALLING MY NAME.

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CD 25 WELL THE OLE WITCH SHOULD BE HERE SATURDAY, IF I AM GONNA BE REGULAR THIS CYCLE. BUT WHO KNOWS. NOTHING NEW ON THE TTC. THE NEXT FEW DAYS SHOULD BE PRETTY UNEVENTFUL AND NOT MUCH TO REPORT ON UNLESS I GET A BFP, WHICH I DONT EXPECT THAT TO HAPPEN. WELL I WILL KEEP POSTED WHEN THE WITCH SHOWS UP.

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STILL CD 25 WELL I AM HAVING SOME LITE, LITE SPOTTING AND I FEEL CRAMPING. SO I GUESS THE WITCH IS ON THE WAY. I GUESS I SHOULD KNOW FOR SURE BY TOMORROW. KINDA BUMMED BUT ON TO NEXT CYCLE WITH MY MONITOR.

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CD 27 WELL THE SPOTTING HAS STOPPED. BUT I TOOK A FRER AND IT WAS A BFN. SO I AM PRETTY SURE THAT I AM NOT PREGGO CUZ AF SHOULD BE HERE IN 2 DAYS AND I THINK IT WOULD HAVE BEEN POSITIVE IF I WAS. I HAD A LITTLE PEAK UNDER THE SCOPE LAST NIGHT SEEN A TON OF DEAD ONES. ANXIOUSLY WAITING FOR AF TO SHOW UP. HOPING DH MEDS WILL BE HERE SOON

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CD 28 WELL AF IS DEFINATELY ON HER WAY, I AM SPOTTING SO BY TOMORROW MORNING IT WILL FULL FORCE. YEAH TOMORROW WILL BE CD 1. AND I GET TO START USING MY FERTILITY MONITOR. I WISH DH MEDS WOULD GET HERE. I WOULD LIKE THINGS TO BE IMPROVING ON HIM BEFORE O TIME. HOPEFULLY THE MEDS KICK IN PRETTY FAST. ME, DH, AND BOYS ARE GOING TO MY SISTERS TO PLAY GAMES TONIGHT, SO THAT SHOULD BE PRETTY FUN. I FEEL SO MUCH MORE RELAXED KNOWING AF IS GONNA BE HERE, AND NOT ANALYZING EVERY STUPID LITTLE SIGN. WELL AROUND 14 MORE DAYS AND WE GET ANOTHER SHOT AT IT.

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OK SO TODAY IS CD 29. AND NO AF. I DONT KNOW WHY MY CYCLES HAVE GOTTEN SO OUT OF WHACK. BEFORE DH REVERSAL I WAS EVERY 28 DAYS LIKE CLOCKWORK AND NOW THEY ARE ALL MESSED UP. IN AUGUST I HAD A 25 DAY CYCLE AND NOW THIS MONTH I AM ON A 29 DAY CYCLE AND COUNTING. I KNOW I AM NOT PREGNANT I TOOK A TEST A COUPLE OF DAYS AGO AND IT WAS A BFN. ANOTHER WEIRD THING SINCE THE SURGERY IS I NOW SPOT A COUPLE OF DAYS BEFORE AF COMES. I WAS NEVER A SPOTTER BEFORE. SOMETIMES MOTHER NATURE DRIVES ME NUTS. THE ONLY GOOD THING ABOUT AF BEING LATE IS DH DOESNT HAVE HIS MEDS YET. ALTHOUGH THINGS ARE LOOKING BETTER UNDER THE SCOPE SO MAYBE I SHOULD HOLD OFF ON HAVING HIM TAKE THEM. TONIGHT I MIGHT DO SOME SCOPING AND SEE. BUT THEN AGAIN MAYBE NOT, ME AND DH HAVE A DATE TONIGHT, GONNA GO OUT TO EAT AND SEE A MOVIE, SO SCOPING MIGHT NOT SEEM THAT ROMANTIC AFTER A NICE NIGHT OUT TOGETHER WITH NO KIDS. HAPPY WEEKEND.

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CD 1 YUP, AF FINALLY SHOWED HER FACE. ONTO CYCLE 3. WELL BABY DUST TO ALL.

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CD 2 WELL HERES TO A NEW BETTER CYCLE, AS WE WILL HAVE MEDS AND MY NEW FERTILITY MONITOR. I AM NOT SURE TO SURE THAT WE NEED THE MEDS ANYMORE CUZ LAST NIGHT I SEEN SWIMMERS!!!! I WAS SO HAPPY. I PROBABLY SEEN ABOUT 7 OR 8 TOTAL AND TONS OF STUCK ONES, BUT IT IS BETTER THAN THE NONE I HAVE SEEN. I AM FEELING SO MUCH MORE CONFIDENT. WE ARE AT DAY 70 POST OP SO I GUESS ITS TRUE ABOUT NEW SPERM TAKING 70 SOME DAYS, CUZ I AM SEEING SO MANY MORE NOW OR MAYBE HE WAS IMMFLAMMED AND ITS NOW GOING AWAY. I DONT KNOW, IM NO DR. BUT WHATEVER IT IS I AM SO GALD ITS WORKING. OH I FORGOT MAYBE ITS THE FERTILITY BLEND DH IS ON OR BECUZ MY MOM IS PRAYING LIKE CRAZY. SHE KEEPS JOKING AROUND SAYING THAT SHE IS PRAYING SO HARD THAT WE ARE GONNA HAVE TWINS. AND I TOLD HER WELL IF I DO THEN ITS YOUR FAULT AND YOU ARE GONNA MOVE IN WITH US AND HELP TAKE CARE OF THEM. TWINS IS NOT SOMETHING TO JOKE ABOUT IN MY FAMILY. FIRST OF ALL, MY MOMS MOM(MY GRANDMA) IS A TWIN, MY GRANDMA THEN HAD TWINS WHICH IS MY MOM, AND MY MOMS SISTER (MY AUNT) HAD TWINS. THEY WERE ALL FRATERNAL. ATLEAST IF I WOULD BE PREGGO WITH TWINS I WOULD HAVE A HIGHER CHANCE OF HAVING A GIRL. I HAVE NOTICED THAT ALOT OF VR BABIES SEEM TO BE BOYS. I AM SURE I WONT HAVE TWINS THOUGH, ALL MY SISTERS HAVE POPPED OUT WAY MORE KIDS THAN ME AND NEVER HAD THEM. WELL I AM GONNA GO HANG SOME SPONGEBOB BORDER IN MY KIDS BATHROOM. ITS GONNA LOOK SO CUTE THEY LOVE SPONGEBOB. I WISH I WOULD HAVE INVENTED SPONGEBOB, ID BE ONE RICH PERSON OF THAT GOOFY CHARACTER. PEACE.

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I AM QUITE BORED RIGHT NOW, MY DH IS STILL WORKING. AND I SURE DONT FEEL LIKE CLEANING. I KEEP READING ABOUT OTHER REVERSAL COUPLES THAT CONCEIVE THEIR FIRST OR SECOND MONTH AND I WONDER HOW. I MEAN DH VASECTOMY WAS ONLY 2 AND A HALF YEARS OLD AND I AM JUST NOW STARTING TO SEE SWIMMERS AFTER 2 AND A HALF MONTHS. I KNOW EVERYONE IS DIFFERENT, BUT ITS LIKE THEY GOT HOOKED BACK TOGETHER AND NEVER HAD A VASECTOMY. DONT GET ME WRONG, I AM VERY HAPPY FOR THOSE PEOPLE I JUST WISH IT COULD HAPPEN THAT WAY FOR EVERYBODY. I LOVE HEARING BFP STORIES, IT BRINGS A SMILE TO MY FACE.

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CD3 WELL DH GOT HIS MEDS TODAY SO HE WILL BE STARTING THEM TOMORROW MORNING! AND HE WILL BE DONE WITH THEM BEFORE O DAY. I REALLY HOPE THIS HELPS. WE JUST NEED BETTER SWIMMERS. I HAVENT GOT TO USE MY FERTILITY MONITOR YET, I THINK I READ IT STARTS TESTING ON CD6 UNTIL IT GETS TO KNOW YOUR CYCLES. WELL NOTHING ELSE REALLY TO REPORT ON.

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CD 5 WELL THE GOOD OL WITCH IS ON HER WAY OUT SO SOON ME AND DH CAN GET DOWN TO BUSINESS. I JUST GOT STOCKED UP ON SOME PREGNANCY TESTS, I CANT PASS UP A GOOD DEAL WHEN I SEE ONE, HAVE MY FERTILITY MONITOR, AND DH STARTED TAKING HIS MEDS YESTERDAY, SO I AM ALL SET FOR THIS MONTH SO HERE IS TO A BFP. MY NEIGHBOR CALLED ME LAST NIGHT AND TOLD ME THAT HER DAUGHTERS IVF DID NOT WORK AND SHE WAS CRYING. I FELT SO BAD FOR HER. I GUESS THIS WAS THE FOURTH TIME HER DAUGHTER HAS WENT THRU IVF AND THIS WAS HER LAST TIME SHE WAS TRYING. MY HEART ACHES FOR THEM. I WENT AND BOUGHT THEM SOME FLOWERS JUST TO LET THEM KNOW THAT I AM THINKING OF THEM AND THAT THEY ARE IN MY PRAYERS. HOPE EVERYONE HAS A GREAT DAY.

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CD 6 WELL NOT A WHOLE LOT ON THE TTC FRONT. I USED MY FERTILITY MONITOR TODAY AND IT GAVE ME A HIGH READING, BUT I GUESS IT CAN DO THAT THIS EARLY THE FIRST TIME THAT YOU USE IT AS IT WILL ADJUST AS IT LEARNS YOUR CYCLE. DH HAS NOW TAKEN 2 DAYS OF HIS MEDS AND HE SWEARS HIS BOYS DONT FEEL AS SWOLLEN AND NOT ONE BIT OF PAIN. SURE HOPE THIS WORKS. IT FEELS GOOD THAT THE WEEKEND IS FINALLY HERE. WE ARE GOING TO CEDAR POINT WITH SOME FRIENDS THIS WEEKEND, THEY ARE ALSO TTC SO WE HAVE ALOT IN COMMON, ALSO OUR NAMES ARE BOTH MICHELLE LYNN AND OUR LAST NAMES EVEN START WITH THE SAME LETTER C. HOW COOL IS THAT, ONE THING WE WONT HAVE IN COMMON IS THE MONTH THAT WE GET PREGNANT, SHE WILL GET PREGNANT WAY BEFORE ME CUZ HER DH HAS NEVER HAD A STUPID VASECTOMY. I HATE VASECTOMIES!!!

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TODAY IS CD7. I GOT ANOTHER HIGH READING ON MY FERTILITY MONITOR. I AM PUTTING AWAY THE SCOPE FOR ATLEAST A COUPLE OF WEEKS, IT MAKES ME DEPRESSED. I HONESTLY BELIEVE WE ARE GONNA BE ONE OF THOSE PEOPLE THAT IT TAKES MONTHS TO GET PREGNANT. IT JUST DOESNT LOOK GOOD. I JUST DONT FEEL IN MY HEART THAT IT IS GONNA HAPPEN ANYTIME SOON. I KNOW THAT THIS ISNT THE ATTITUDE TO HAVE BUT I AM NOT GONNA LIE TO MYSELF EITHER. I GUESS I WILL JUST LEAVE IT TO THE MAN ABOVE AND WHEN HE DECIDES IT IS TIME THEN IT WILL HAPPEN. I GUESS I JUST WANT THIS SO BAD THAT IT HURTS. I SEE PREGNANT WOMEN AND I LONG FOR THAT TO BE ME, I LONG TO RUB MY BELLY AND CRADLE MY BABY. I LOVE BEING PREGNANT. I LOVE FEELING THE BABY MOVE IN MY BELLY AND MY PREGNANCIES ARE PRETTY UNEVENTFUL (THANK GOD) BUT I NEVER EVEN GET MORNING SICKNESS. RIGHT NOW I WOULD LOVE TO HAVE MORNING SICKNESS. WELL ENOUGH FEELING SORRY FOR MYSELF. HOPE EVERYONE HAS A GREAT WEEKEND AND HERES TO SOME BFP!!!

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CD 9 WELL WE HAD A GREAT TIME AT CEDAR POINT YESTERDAY. IT WAS A PERFECT DAY TO GO. I CANT BELIEVE ITS OCTOBER ALREADY. I FIGURED OUT THAT IF WAS TO GET PREGNANT THIS CYCLE, THEN I WOULD BE DUE ON OUR 7TH ANNIVERSAY, JULY 1. HOW COOL IS THAT. STILL WAITING TO GET A PEAK ON MY MONITORBUT PROBABLY NOT FOR A COUPLE MORE DAYS.

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CD10 WELL I HAVE A HUGE HEADACHE RIGHT NOW AND MY LITTLE GUY IS SICK WITH A FEVER AND THROWING UP SO I HOPE THAT I WONT CATCH IT SO CLOSE TO O ING, CUZ THEN I DEFINATELY WONT BE IN THE MOOD. I HAVE DECIDED THAT WE SHOULD WAIT 2 DAYS IN BETWEEN BDING THIS CLOSE TO O TO BUILD MORE OF A SPERM COUNT. I DONT HAVE MUCH SENSE OF HOPE FOR THIS CYCLE THOUGH, WE JUST NEED SOME MORE SWIMMERS. I THINK WE MIGHT HAVE SOME ANTIBODIES THAT WE ARE DEALING WITH. WHAT ELSE CAN GO WRONG? WELL I FEEL LIKE I REALLY NEED TO GO LAY DOWN SO I CAN FEEL BETTER.

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CD 12 WELL I AM GETTING CLOSER TO O. FERTILITY MONITOR STILL SAYS HIGH, BUT I AM GETTING CHANGES IN MY CM. SO I THINK BY TOMORROW I MAY HAVE A PEAK ON MY MONITOR. WE BD LAST NIGHT AND I AM NOT GONNA DO IT AGAIN TILL TOMORROW, GOTTA LET HIS COUNT REBUILD. WELL, I'LL KEEP YALL POSTED.

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WELL TODAY IS CD 13. I WAS REALLY HOPING FOR A PEAK ON MY FERTILITY MONITOR THIS MORNING BUT IT WAS ANOTHER HIGH. CM IS DEFINATELY CHANGING SO HERES TO TOMORROW. MY SISTER JUST TOLD ME THAT MY NIECE IS PREGNANT. IT SORTA MADE ME SAD. ONLY BECAUSE SHE DOESNT EVEN WANT TO BE PREGNANT. SHES ONLY 21 AND THIS WILL BE HER 3RD BABY. SHE TOLD HER MOM THAT IT SHOULD ME AND DH THAT SHOULD BE HAVING A BABY CUZ WE WANT ONE. I AM HAPPY FOR HER IF THIS IS WHAT SHE WANTS. I KNOW SHE CRIED WHEN THEY TOLD HER SHE WAS PREGNANT BUT THEY WERE NOT TEARS OF JOY. MINE WOULD BE PURE TEARS OF JOY. GEEZ THAT ME MAKE ME A GREAT AUNT 5 TIMES AND I AM ONLY 31. THE GIRLS IN MY FAMILY ARE DEFINATELY FERTILE MYRTLES. I CANT BELIEVE ITS OCTOBER ALREADY IT WILL BE CHRISTMAS BEFORE YOU KNOW IT.

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CD 14 I GOT MY PEAK ON MY FERTILITY MONITOR THIS MORNING. WE ALREADY DTD 2 TIMES THIS MORNING, THAT WAS EVEN BEFORE I GOT MY PEAK. I SURE DO HOPE WE CATCH THE EGGIE THIS TIME. I FEEL LIKE CRAP TODAY. BOYS ARE GONNA STAY OVERNIGHT WITH MY MOM TONIGHT, PERFECT TIMING FOR O.

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CD 16 WELL I AM OFFICIALLY IN THE DREADED 2WW. I AM 1DPO. THIS IS THE PART OF MY CYCLE THAT I HATE THE MOST. I DONT REALLY HAVE ALOT OF CONFIDENCE FOR THIS CYCLE, BUT I STILL GET MY HOPES UP. OUR FRIENDS THAT WERE TRYING TO GET PREGNANT, FOUND OUT THAT SHE IS EXPECTING AND THIS WAS THEIR FIRST MONTH TRYING. SHE DIDNT EVEN CALL AND TELL ME, HER DH TOLD MY DH. MAYBE SHE THOUGHT SHE WOULD HURT MY FEELINGS. SHE WOULDNT HAVE, I AM EXCITED FOR THEM. GOD HAS A PLAN FOR US, I AM SURE I JUST DONT KNOW WHAT IT IS YET.

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CD17 WELL NOW 2DPO. NOTHING REALLY TO REPORT ON. ME AND MY SON WENT HAD LUNCH WITH DH AND IT WAS NICE. I ALSO STOPPED AT THE DOLLAR TREE TO PICK UP SOME PREGNANCY TESTS. GOOD THAT THEY ARE ONLY $1. TOMORROW WE ARE GOING TO PICK OUT THE BOYS HALLOWEEN COSTUMES. THEN WE ARE GOING TO GET OUR YOUNGEST A BIRTHDAY PRESENT, HE WILL BE 4 SATURDAY.

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CD 18 OMG, I TOOK A LOOK UNDER THE SCOPE TODAY, HAVENT DONE IT IN A WHILE, AND THERE WAS A BUNCH OF SPERMIES. I AM SO EXCIED, ITS LIKE THEY SHOWED UP OVERNITE. I HOPE THEY SHOULD UP A FEW NIGHTS AGO IN TIME FOR MY EGGIE. HIS MEDS HAVE HELPED GREATLY. THE ONLY SAD THING IS ALOT OF THEM WERE STUCK, BUT I DID SEE QUITE A FEW SWIMMERS TOO!!! I AM SO HAPPY!!!

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CD19 WELL I AM 4 DPO. THIS 2WW IS GOING SO SLOW. I AM NOT REALLY SURE WHY, I DIDNT HAVE A LOT OF HOPE FOR THIS CYCLE, BUT SINCE SEEING ALL THOSE SPERMIES IT GAVE ME A LITTLE BOOST OF CONFINDENCE, ALTHOUGH I DONT KNOW IF THEY WERE THERE WHEN I WAS OVULATING. I FELT A LITTLE CRAMPY YESTERDAY, BUT I AM NOT GONNA READ INTO IT AND THEN GET MY HOPES CRUSHED WHEN THE WITCH SHOWS HER UGLY FACE.

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WELL CD 20! GETTING CLOSER AND CLOSER TO TESTING. WHOHOO! MY NIECE HAS TO HAVE AN ULTRASOUND BECUZ HER UTERUS IS ENLARGED. MY SONS BDAY IS TOMORROW SO TONIGHT WE ARE GOING TO CHUCKE CHEESE, TOMORROW MY COUSIN IS GETTING MARRIED AND THEN SUNDAY WE ARE HAVING BRUNCH AT MY MOMS FOR ALL THE OCTOBER BIRTHDAYS. GEEZ, I HAVE A BUSY WEEKEND. WELL HAPPY FRIDAY TO ALL.

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CD23 WELL A COUPLE OF DAYS, AND I GUESS I WILL FIND OUT IF I AM PREGGO OR NOT. I SORT OF HAVE A FEELING I AM, CANT REALLY SAY WHY. THEN I AM GONNA FEEL LIKE SUCH A FOOL WHEN AF SHOWS UP. MAYBE ITS JUST WISHFUL THINKING, I GUESS I JUST THINK IT WOULD BE PERFECT IF I WAS CUZ I WOULD BE DUE ON OUR ANNIVERSARY AND WOULDNT THAT BE A WONDERFUL GIFT. BOOBS ARE A LITTLE TENDER, BUT THAT IS VERY NORMAL PRE AF. ALSO MY GUMS STARTED BLEEDING WHEN I WAS BRUSHING WHICH I HEARD CAN BE A SIGN AND I THINK I HAD THAT WITH MY OTHER KIDS JUST CANT REMEMBER IF IT WAS IN THE BEGINNING OR NOT. OH PLEASE GOD LET THIS BE IT. WELL TIME TO GET THE KIDS READY FOR BED.

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CD24 WELL I FEEL LIKE CRAP TODAY, I THINK I AM GETTING SICK. I AM AWFULLY TIRED TODAY AND I HAVE A SORE THROAT. I HOPE THIS DOESNT LAST VERY LONG. I MIGHT TEST TOMORROW OR THURSDAY DEPENDS ON HOW MUCH WILL POWER I HAVE, IF I TEST TOMORROW I WILL BE 10 DPO, STILL VERY EARLY SO I DONT KNOW I MIGHT HOLD OFF, I HATE SEEING BFN.

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CD 25 OF COURSE, I COULDNT WAIT TO TEST, AND OF COURSE, BFN. I THOUGHT FOR A COUPLE OF DAYS THAT I MIGHT BE PREGNANT, BUT THE FEELING IS GONE. I AM SURE THE OLD WITCH WILL BE SHOWING THIS WEEKEND. I FEEL SO HOPELESS RIGHT NOW. I AM TIRED OF OBSESSING OVER THIS TTC SHIT. DH NEVER WANTS TO BE VERY HELPFUL EXCEPT WHEN IT COMES TIME TO BDING. I SO FEEL LIKE I AM GOING AT THIS ALONE. I LOOKED UNDER THE SCOPE A FEW TIMES THIS LAST WEEK AND NOTHING. I THINK I AM JUST GONNA GIVE UP. HIS DR DOESNT WANT TO SEE US TILL DECEMBER AND THAT JUST SEEMS WAY TOO LONG FOR ME. I AM GONNA PUT AWAY THE SCOPE, I CANT STAND THE DIAPPOINTMENT I FEEL WHEN I LOOK IN IT AND SEE NOTHING. I WOULD RATHER GIVE UP NOW THEN A YEAR FROM NOW AND LOOK BACK AT ALL THE TIME I WASTED. I HAVE TWO BEAUTIFUL BOYS ALREADY, AND I SHOULD WORRY MORE ABOUT THEM THEN ABOUT TTC. IT WOULD BE ALOT EASIER IF DH DIDNT BITCH ABOUT THE MEDS I WANT HIM TO TAKE, AND HE LIKES TO SOCIALLY DRINK ON THE WEEKENDS EXCEPT HE DOESNT KNOW WHEN TO STOP, AND HE KNOWS ITS NOT GOOD FOR HIS SPERM AND I AM TIRED OF BITCHING AT HIM ABOUT THIS. AND THEN HALF THE TIME HE WALKS AROUND BITCHING ABOUT HOW HIS RIGHT BALL IS KILLING HIM AND HE WOULD NEVER RECOMMEND ANY GUY TO EVER GET A REVERSAL. AND IT MAKES ME FEEL LIKE SHIT. I AM JUST TIRED OF BEING THE ONLY ACTIVE PARTICIPANT. I KNOW HE WANTS TO HAVE A BABY, HE IS JUST NOT DOING ANYTHING TO HELP IT ALONG. SORRY FOR RAMBLING, I AM JUST BEING A CRYBABY, STUPID WITCH HAS ME IN TEARS. DUMMO PMS!!!

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CD 26 NOW HAVING SOME SPOTTING SO AF WILL BE HERE PROBABLY SATURDAY. ANOTHER BUM CYCLE. I FEEL SO SAD, PROBABLY FOR THE BEST THOUGH AS ME AND DH HAVE SOME PROBLEMS TO WORK OUT.

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CD 27 I AM SURE I AM NOT PREGNANT. I AM OK WITH IT. FOR SOME REASON TODAY I FEEL VERY CALM AND AT EASE WITH NOT BEING PREGNANT. DONT GET ME WRONG I WISH I WAS, BUT I CANNOT CHANGE IT. I JUST HOPE SOMEDAY IT WILL HAPPEN. AS LONG AS I KNOW THAT THIS REVERSAL WORKED AND IT WILL HAPPEN SOMEDAY, I AM OK. BUT RIGHT NOW WITH NOT SEEING ALOT OF SPERM, THAT IS WHAT SCARES ME. I WOULD FEEL MORE AT EASE IF I ATLEAST SEEN LOTS OF SWIMMERS. SO I GUESS IN A FEW MORE DAYS I WILL BE ON TO CYCLE 4. HAVE A GREAT WEEKEND.

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CD 1 DUMMO AF SHOWED LAST NIGHT. OH WELL, ON TO A NEW AND HOPEFULLY BETTER CYCLE. DH GOT HIT IN THE HEAD AND IT WAS SWOLLEN SO THEY GAVE HIM SOME MEDS THAT WILL HELP WITH THE SWELLING, WELL HOPEFULLY THEY WILL WORK IF HE HAS SWELLING DOWN THERE. SO IT WOULD KILL TWO BIRDS WITH ONE STONE. I AM SO EXCITED THAT THIS MIGHT HELP. HAD A PRETTY UNEVENTFUL WEEKEND, BUT I GOT TO CARVE PUMPKINS WITH THE BOYS, AND THEY LOOK PRETTY GOOD. WELL LOTS OF CLEANING TO DO TODAY. OH AND I ORDERED SOME PRESEED FOR THIS MONTH. HOPE IT HELPS.

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