So I'm still waiting on AF to show up, or hopefully not. Usually I'm on time and lately she's come early so I should have started yesterday. I've had some cramping but it feels different, not as intense as my usual AF cramps. I've had very light spotting the last three days so maybe she's just taking her time. I usually don't spot though. I think my body is acting screwy from cutting out the meat and dairy. I wanted to test so bad yesterday but I know I should wait until I'm really late. If Af doesn't show up today maybe I'l test Sat or Sun morning.
So I went to the store on my lunch break. I was bored an decided to browse around walmart. Of course I go to the baby stuff first and I try to steer clear of the home pregnancy test aisle. I couldn't do it, so I tested and... I'm very happy and can't wait to rush home to tell DH. I called him when I got my double lines but didn't want to tell him over the phone. I'm soooo excited I could just burst. It couldn't have come at a better time. YEA YEA YEA! . Impatience finally pays off
Last edited by Vashti1014; 09-26-2007 at 04:07 PM.
So I told Dh as soon as I got home from work. It had to be the longest drive home ever. He was so excited he called his mom and brothers right away. It still feels like its not real like any second I'm gonna wake up. We're still planning to move into the new house no later than the end of july. DH drove me by it last night, its huge we're going to go by again today. I may start a pregnancy journal, but I'm not sure if I'll have the time, we'll see.
Best of luck to everyone, Baby Dust and Sticky Vibes..
Last edited by Vashti1014; 09-10-2007 at 07:51 AM.
I just realized I got my great news on Friday the thirteenth, I’ve never been the suspicious type. What a lucky day it turned out to be, thirteen used to be my favorite number. I'm going home to visit the end of this month. The only sad part is that we are so far apart I would be nice if we lived closer so she could share in the experience more but that’s ok its my first but hopefully not my last. Now Dh and I really can’t stop talking about baby stuff. I know it seems to be on my mind every second. I’ve had light nausea but nothing that doesn’t pass in a few minutes and the cramping is there but not nearly as bad as AF cramps. Right now I’m loving every little reminder that there is life forming inside of me. And of course I’m still doing great on not smoking and now I really don’t think it will be a problem. Well I guess this will be my last entry in the TTC section for a while, God willing. I hope I don’t have any complications. I know its crazy but I got so used to journaling I almost feel like if I don’t keep it up something will happen. I know it’s so silly. Any who, Good luck to everyone out there I hope everyone gets BFPs real soon, Baby Dust and Sticky Vibes all around!
Last edited by Vashti1014; 09-10-2007 at 07:52 AM.
Well I haven't kept in touch like I should have and a lot has happened...
The bad news first, about a week and a half after my bfp I had spotting with really bad cramps. I didn't want to go to the doctors because I didn't want to hear what I knew they were gonna tell me. After Dh reasoned with me we went, they had me take a test and it was negative. So after a week and a half of finding out we were no longer pregnant. Talk about a short lived celebration. It took me a while to get things together. I ended up quitting my job and taking a vacation to visit my mom for support.
Dh did get the house he wanted but because of everything it took longer than expected to get it all together. I did have fun painting and starting to decorate. In our bedroom we did an orange and then I got creative and sponged in some white for a cloud effect. So our bedroom looks like a sunset with some clouds for you to stare at and see shapes or whatever. We have a fireplace in the bedroom . I have lots of space to set things so I told her to keep them coming. I just finished setting up the bedroom and kitchen this past week. Dh painted the kitchen yellow while I was visiting my mom. I was worried at first because I’ve always been funny about yellow but I actually love it. My motivation to unpack right now is mainly for my preseed, I bought some on ebay and now I can't remember where we packed it!! If I don't find it tonight I'll probably just buy some more and hope it gets here in time for O, whenever that may be. As forewarned by the doc my body is a little out of wack Af came 6/4 and seemed to last forever. Usually she stays no longer than 5days. I'm heavy for about 3 days and the rest is cake. This time I was heavy for five days and she stayed for eight days!!! And I had the worst cramps I have ever felt, normally I may cramps slightly the day before and the day of this time it hurt to the point that I had to take something, which I never do I'm one of those people who are funny about taking meds, if I can't fix it with my diet then I try to just deal with it but this time there was no way, and it lasted the whole time I was heavy. So that was by far my worst Af experience ever. Dh has been very supportive, this is new for both of us at times we just don't know what to say to each other so we curl up in each others arms and leave it at that. I was also super moody but I'm not going to blame it all on Af, alot of it is probably stress from our situation.
So now I'm job hunting looking for something closer to our new home, my job was an hour away and between gas prices and traffic it was getting a little out of hand.
Through it all I must admit I did slip up and take two puffs of my cousins cigarette when telling her the story : - ( I know I had been drinking and felt horrible about it the next day. I confessed to Dh when I cam home, Dh and the journal are the only ones who know. My mom was so proud of me for quitting I couldn't bring myself to tell her, and it won't happen again! The doctor said it was ok to TTC again but I don't know. Dh says he is ready to go he bought me one of those clear blue easy fertility monitors because the doctor had suggested I start temping to get to know my body better even if we decide not to try right away but I'm not a morning person and I coudn't see myself trying to get up at the same time and fumbling with a thermometer. We found one un-used for a hundred bucks on Ebay that came with a pack of sticks. Oh yeah that's our latest thing buying and selling on Ebay. Well Dh does some selling I do a lot of buying. I had been thinking about getting the monitor and Fertil Aid before we were pregnant. I think I may play with the monitor but for now I'm going to steer clear of TTC. I still want a baby more than anything, but I don't want to have another mc. Especially when I think about people having them over and over just getting a little further along each time, I don't think I could go through that. We'll see maybe my feelings will change but I don’t think Dh will mind holding off this cycle too much. I think its easier for Dh to get over because it wasn't in his body. I feel like I try very hard to be healthy and treat my body good so its good back to me but I failed this time. I quit smoking, watched what I ate no eating meat or dairy , I have always done my yoga and tried to keep things simple and natural.
I don't know writing about it puts me in a sad mood all over again which is why I had avoided my journal....
Dh is walking in... I think I could use some cuddle time.
Peace and Blessings
Last edited by Vashti1014; 04-14-2008 at 03:45 PM.
Just woke up from a nap with Dh I feel so much better wrapped up in his arms. I played a game with myself that if I found it we would try and if we had to buy more we wouldn't try. While I was having some tea I found the preseed in yet another box of stuff I didn't know I had. I never knew how much stuff we had until we moved. Our next mission is to tackle the living room. I'm thinking of painting in there tonight. Dh painted it this cool green color its a green blue color but has way more green than blue, I love it, it makes the room feel cozy. This room has a bigger fireplace than the one in our bedroom and a huge mantel with wood cabinets and shelvesbuilt into the wall as well. I've decided to be creative again and paint the section that is cut off from the rest of the wall by the mantel and cabinets blue. In the can it looks like a blue green with more blue than green, so I'm hoping the colors play well off each other and this area should make a nice back drop for more of my grandmoms art and other things we have collected.
I bought a fuji digital camera off ebay I can't wait for it to get here so I can send my family pictures of the house and how its coming along. I"m thinking of setting up a myspace so both of our families can be more involved in our lives. This will actually be my first time owning a digital camera, normally I just buy disposable cameras I always forget about taking pictures but hopefully that will change and I pray it is user friendly because Dh isn't much better when it comes to electronics.
I think I'm going to join Dh in the garden well not a garden yet right now Inguess its still just a yard. We have so much land now we've got to get as much in the ground as we can before its to late in the season. We have a rose bush that was here when we moved in I've been trying to nurse back to health and there are lots of flower bulbs (I'm not sure what they are yet) that Dh was able to pull up and we can plant them elsewhere in the yard. We decided to give our brocolli plant away it was just to big for us to worry about moving. I'm going to miss picking fresh brocolli for dinner. Hopefully we'll have lots veggies, fruits, and flowers soon!
I didn't realize how much I missed writing in here until I saw how much I've written.
Oh, Dh is calling I'm going out in the yard to do some work and enjoy the sun. I hope the bugs don't run me in!
Dh and I fell asleep around 6pm last night. I guess it was all that work in the sun. I woke up with so much energy at 10pm. He was still knocked out so I got to play my Sims for the first time since moving into the new house. When Dh finally woke he realized he was supposed to perform a few songs at this college spot so we headed over there. It was nice since I'm not working I could relax and not worry about how late we were out. And since I decided against actively TTC this cycle I got to enjoy some of the perks of being with the musician, FREE BEER! I had so much fun it was so relaxing I didn't have to worry about the time or what I was drinking or what Dh was drinking. My tolerance is really low usually I'll have a glass of wine every now and then but not even that lately since quitting cigarettes. I had two beers and had the giggles for the rest of the night. I think Dh was more relaxed to this was the best I've seen him perform, or maybe I was able to allow myself to enjoy it more either way I had a blast and it was a great crowd I've never seen so many people try to talk to him at the end of a set. Someone from a local magazine wants to do a review on his song and some freestyle he did that night, I'm very excited for him!
As far as the house goes finding the preseed is the only unpacking I did yesterday. I know I'm such a slacker. We're supposed to pick up Dh's son this evening he just turned five, he is the cutest little thing. My goal is to try not to be emotional around him, he's a hugger and I'm scared he'll surprise me with a hug (like he always does randomly through out the day) and I bust into tears. He is also good for asking me when I'm going to have a baby for him to play with; he's doing that before we were even TTC. I think having him around will be a much needed distraction. Between that, job hunting, and finishing the house I think I can stay pretty busy. The house alone has kept me plenty distracted. Needless to say I didn't get to paint in the living room hopefully I can get that done today or tomorrow. So much to do and so little motivation to do it.
My digital camera didn't come yesterday hopefully I'll get it before the week is over.
We were up til 3 or 4 in the morning; I think I'm going to take a nap before I try to accomplish anything.
Last edited by Vashti1014; 04-14-2008 at 03:43 PM.
Well I was semi productive yesterday. We weren't able to pick up Dh's son , his mother never called us back we've been calling for like two days! I was still able to distract myself since I had been so lazy the other days yesterday I finally finished painting in the living room and even got to decorate and set up my ceramics. So that room is done except for some things that were too heavy for me to move, Dh will handle that. I love to paint its so relaxing and I was able to pass some hours. I can't wait to get the apartments set up so I can have my creative room and buy an easel and some paints. I have not painted a picture in a long time. The rest of the day Dh and I basically hung out in the bedroom. I'm not checking for when I O, I haven't even opened the monitor yet. But I figure for this month if it happens it happens, I'm not going to avoid being intimate with Dh because I'm a little scared. So yesterday was great, very relaxing my phone was ringing off the hook. I interviewed a lot last week and they're starting to call me back so I'm excited and thankful for that. Dh treated me to Thai food, it was my first time having it and I love it. He brought home some tofu pasta dish, Yummy!
Oh and my camera came yesterday too!! So I've been snapping none stop, really just pictures of the house and Dh of course, he's so handsome. I haven't figured everything out yet, but hopefully I'll have a myspace with lots of pics to share soon!
I'm getting hungry, I'm gonna see what Dh is in the mood for.
Last edited by Vashti1014; 09-09-2007 at 03:31 AM.
Reason: for some reason i couldn't spell that day
I went ahead and got a Cheri and a JennyRenny Prediction according to them I should get my BFP in November and I will get to hold my baby in July, they say she comes early....we'll see...
I don't have much time but I wanted to post the predictions in my journal:
Cheri says, "I am seeing GIRL and JULY so this is either birth month, concieve month or the montyh you find out in."
JennyRenny says, "Your reading reveals that your BFP news comes the month of November 2007, from a cycle that starts towards the end of October 2007. The baby shows as a girl and her EDD is indicated the first few days of August 2008; though her birthdate looks to be in July - so she's early."