Waiting for our blessing.

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Waiting for our blessing.

Hi my name is Jodi i'm 21 and my hubby's name is Moses he is 39 yrs old we got married May 14 2004, anyways... in Aug i found out i had cyst on my avaries and i was really down i found out thats why i wasn't having my period, and the beginning of this month it came on its own and so it gives me hope. i have a dr appoitment on the 17 of this month we have been ttc since the end of May and still nothing but i have to have faith Moses and I agree that i'm going to talk to my dr about the fertility.. they already offered it to me they told me i could get pg on my own but Moses and I want a child soon as possible. anyways... i'm doing better.. and i feel good. as good as i could feel.. but i'll write more later. :?

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Feb i'm going to Idaho and maybe than i can relax and it will just happen, i don't care what it is a boy or a girl. or both as long as its healthy and its moses and mine, if we have a girl her name would be Abigail Ann (Abby for short) or Moses Livilton Moore IV if its a boy. I just so badly want to have a baby of my own with the man i love so much. I want to give him a child to be a mother and him to be a father... i don't know what will come and what
God will bring but i'm trying to just stay in a good mood thats all i can do you know.:pinksperm::bluesperm::lovebed:

well later..

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Well i had a dr appoitment yesterday it went well but i found out i wasn't O'ing and it really sucks. you know never in a millon years did i think that i couldn't concieve. :cry: i know that we've been trying for 7months know but its just a pain!!! but like my hubby says if put water in a pot and set i on the stove and stand there and watch it boil it never happens. so i need to stop watching to Concieve and let it happen but its just so hard you know. i just feel like :banghead: against the wall. All my family memebers it was easy for them to Concieve my real sister Sheila who is happily married and had 2 children. tori 3 and little morgan he is 10months old know, and my brother Jay... he got a girl pg and he married her because he felt thats what he had to do and than they got a divorce later, than like a few months after the divorce he got another girl pregnant and they got married so, why is it taking me so long... i've always felt like the ugly duckling the one that never can be happy and finally i get part of my dream a wonderful husband who would move the mountain for me and thats great! i just want to give him a child and his mother and grandchild because Moses is her only child left... 11yrs ago her other son passed. So ya... i'm so just so :digging: and :fallingbricks: well thats enough for today... write more later... hopefully better mood soon.

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just keeping at it

Well my DH and i are very happy with Trying to Concieve and i've been talking less and less about it so won't stress him about it, i think i'm about ready to O i thought i did so yesterday and than maybe today but i don't know life is like an Adventure and so is TTC i want a 2005 baby a one of my Girlfriends from high school told me if i couldn't concieve than maybe i should adopt but either way i'd be a great Mother, i just have to have Faith that i can get Pregnant i really want one either for Oct or November but i don't know.. i know its in God's hands and i've actually written letters to God just to make my mind cleared. But i've got to have Faith faith faith got to have Faith( song) :sex: and soon hopefully :lovestory:

Changing subject not last night but the night before my DH looks at me and us just start :cry: and he said you don't need any Hormonal Medication your already Very Hormanal and i just looked at him with this blank stare like shut up! but we made up he came and held me and kissed me and i was all better... I just get so upset because he just doesn't seem to understand what its like to be a female... i try to explain it to him but he looks like i lost him. but he is a Great DH... and i love him to Death.. and forever. well i'll keep you posted.. and tell next time peace out!

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just keeping at it

Well my DH and i are very happy with Trying to Concieve and i've been talking less and less about it so won't stress him about it, i think i'm about ready to O i thought i did so yesterday and than maybe today but i don't know life is like an Adventure and so is TTC i want a 2005 baby a one of my Girlfriends from high school told me if i couldn't concieve than maybe i should adopt but either way i'd be a great Mother, i just have to have Faith that i can get Pregnant i really want one either for Oct or November but i don't know.. i know its in God's hands and i've actually written letters to God just to make my mind cleared. But i've got to have Faith faith faith got to have Faith( song) :sex: and soon hopefully :lovestory:

Changing subject not last night but the night before my DH looks at me and us just start :cry: and he said you don't need any Hormonal Medication your already Very Hormanal and i just looked at him with this blank stare like shut up! but we made up he came and held me and kissed me and i was all better... I just get so upset because he just doesn't seem to understand what its like to be a female... i try to explain it to him but he looks like i lost him. but he is a Great DH... and i love him to Death.. and forever. well i'll keep you posted.. and tell next time peace out!

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Yesterday i almost gave up all hope at ttc, you know i just thought i can't get pg on my own.. and i was throwing a pitty party... i'm trying to keep my head up! as much as i can, i know it will happen in due time i just so badly want it Know but i now i now that i have to be pacient ... i just want to tell my future child Mommy isn't going to give up never again... she may be sad at times but never giving up hope again...

well i feel a little bit better maybe when i go to idaho and thinking about it less maybe it will happen in my home town... i don't now i just have to have faith well till later take care God Bless.. with Love

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Everyday goes by that i'm thinking of the little one that God has instore for me. he/she's first words first walk first smile... i just really want to keep having faith. I have a gut feeling that this month maybe my month to concieve my little angel... but i'll just have to wait and see, i think of how great its going to be to have you growing inside of me and to feel you kick... or move around. just to know i brought someone into this world.. who could make a diffrence i've wanted u since i was 17yrs old but i didn't have your daddy so i was waiting till i found him or he found me, God brought us together and i love him very much.

on the 26 i get to find out how my pap smear came back and hopefully before we go to Idaho in Feb i will know if i'm caring my little angel and than tell all my family in person.. ahh that would be great but i don't know if its God's timing or not... i'll just have to wait and see.. i pray ever night that Moses and and I have made a baby.. but i don't know... I love you lots! and well this was a long nice letter i'm glad i wrote it... anways i better get going. :sleepygirl: :sleepyboy: i really hope so...

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oh little one
i wish i knew
when i will be caring you.
feeling your kick
hearing that heart beat.
knowing that you are mine.
oh little one.
How long do i have to wait
When will be our time
to be Mommy and Daddy
to love someone else so much
with all our love and care
oh little one
if you only knew
how much we want you
to concieve you
to make you
we love you so much
even if your only in our thoughts
Oh little one
I wanted to say.
Some day
someday soon,
i belive i will be caring you
until than..
I just want to say I love you!

Jodi Ann Moore

a poem that explains it all

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why can't i just O???? i really want a baby, and i guess i'm going to have to take Clomid, when i have my next period grrrrrrrrrr... anyways. I'm doing very well. i'm so excited about Sunday a friend i knew in High school is going to school in the same town as i live in and he wants to meet my DH its so exciting to know that i have a friend here that i knew from High school so after church he is coming over and having lunch isn't that awesome!!

Anyways. after Feb 24 i'm not temping till March 4 because i will be in Idaho and i relly don't want to mess with all that.. it will be good to be on Vaction and not worrying about that my Birth mother told me that she thinks she took Clomid when she became PG with me.. So thats exciting... i really hope it works... i just really dont' know what to think.

Is it a dream thats never going to come true... i'm going to keep my dream but there is this little doubt in the back of my mind and i don't know what to think or feel. its so hard. Everyone is keeping there fingures crossed for me but i just don't know.

i just want to know WHEN AM I GOING to OOOOOOOO that makes me so Sad and i just so badly want to... well i better let you go
until than... Later

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well not a lot has happened since Jan.. except i became a year older and thats good right? ya...well anyways.. i thought Feb 8 i thought i was going to have my AF but NNNNNNNNNNnooooooooooo she didn't want to come so i'm going to sit back and wait for her wanting to show her face. other than that Life is going great at least for the last 2 days counting today. I so badly want the :witch: to come.. but i know i have to wait... until this body decides to spit her out.. if you know what i mean.. i will get a BFP one way or another so i have to keep telling myself not to worry about it because worrying about it is not going to do anything... i'm excited about goin :homesign: for a week.. next week a week from today yepeeeeeeeeyyyy. i'm so excited to be going home everything is looking up for me ..

1. got my drivers liscences back :thumbsup:
2. got a new computer and i can actually read and write without it freezing or dying. :blob5:
3. there are great people on here that keep me going. :bwush:
4. also a great DH who has so much pacients for me.. :kissy:

well all.. i will talk more later... maybe after or before Idaho... if not Journal i'll write March 4 or 3 or ya...

love ya

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well its almost been a month since the last time i wrote no AF no BFP no Oing.. umm... lots of no's huh.. well yes i had a good trip and made it safely home..

whats new is i actually thought I o'ed and boy was i wrong.. that really bits.. why is it when you want your AF you don't get it but when you don't want her she comes... umm... never will understand that. Well anyways.. DH is taking Zinc we think that is good for him. and with both of us taking pills that will be good me taking prenatal and he is taking Zinc so i think that is good.

if no AF comes by April i'm going to go to the dr and get proscribed for some meds to make her come. ... i want a baby so bad!! and i have to keep having a postive side. grrr... come AF come..

grrrrrr

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well... i took promtrium to make AF come and she came March 21 and know i'm in 2ww and its like how many more days till i can test... so i'm trying to keep busy... packing because at the end of this month we will be moving into the homeplace and i'm so excited its 3 bedrooms, 1 bathroom its a really old house no closets we are going to live there for a few years... not forever.... i can't paint that house or anything but its going to be good we will be able to save money and praying that we will be parents soon.... and have a little one to take care of....

DH is praying to that we are pg... well we won't know for a little while longer but thats o.k..... i can try to wait..... :roll:

my bbs are really soar and DH says they have swollen up and i get little twinges on my side.... the last week.. .so i don't know.....

2ww can make you go insane... also my temp dropped today i hope it rises agian above the cover line... i'm praying that it does.... well thats all thats new i may test on April 14,2005 that will be our 11months being married too... but i don't know.... probably will... Smile well i'll tell you more later...

Love

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Well some good news AF came by herself this time on April 22 she showed up the clomid is really helping :biglaugh:
i'm so glad that she came... right know i'm on a break of ttc but i'm still hoping for a BFP this month and if not well its all in God's timing...

Life is going well we are moving out of this apartment and moving into a house :pinkelephant: Life is going to get better.

I finally will be living in a house and won't know what to do Smile cause it will be so diffrent and we will be getting more finacally stable too so that will also be a plus.. Well. i just wanted to say what was new.

We will be in our new place by April 30,2005 yeppey!!!!

Also i can take a bubble bath when i want to cause its and old bath tub but huge one.

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another cycle gone

Well another cycle down AF showed up Fool so its on to next cycle, we are not going to use Clomid this month just a lot is going on and when i'm suppose to O will be close to my surgery :timer: also moses aunt is coming home and that makes me :boogie: Life is going well and its good to be on a break, I know how badly i want a baby but i've come to realize i have to be pacient and having this kitten Junior has also been great theropy for me i love my little kitty he is the best... well he is onrey but the best... he is my little baby for know.

i have some little vents to get off my back... Moses mom doesn't seem to understand what it feels like not to conceive so easly she had 2 sons and no problems getting them she doesn't understand and that reall makes me want to :chairha!: :annoyed: :blowup: and :laser:

i feel like she is constantily :poke: at me and i just want to tell her to shut up!! and tell her everything is not about her and its hard ttc and so much more..

I never really had a mother figure in my life and sometimes i wonder what a mother is i do have motherly instincts... so maybe some day when i do have children i will understand her better but until than i just want to .... Crazy but other than that life is good

DH and i aren't as stressed and we are doing better so thats all that matters right :wavehello:

i'll write more later.. until than tata for know.

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:wavehello: How are you all doing today well I'm doing great!!! i think.... Well this month i'm not taking Clomid... but DH belives that i'm going O on my own and i really don't know what to expect or think.. so right know i'm mellow as can be.

DH (Moses) is actually thinkin this is our months so i'm Yahoo about it... at least he is beliviing know and it makes me feel so much better and not feeling alone. if you know what i mean.

So on Friday June 3- June 8 we are going to be getting :sex: a lot of it and So Moses is thrilled we decided aftter Sunday its going to be days after that so our last day will be Wed.. so in a way i'm back in the game and i want the boys to swim swim swim and catch that egg :bluesperm:
:pinksperm: and when the timing is right well than its right..
May 15,2005 was our 1 year makr at trying and it seems like forever but i'm feeling great we have a baby furbaby and he is keeping me sane and loving me .

So in a few days i may not be on for awhile because i'll be busy :lovebed: lol but if i am on here thats great too... i love writting in this jornal it is the greatest thing ever.

until than later..:yahoo:

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Good Morning its 6:10am here i couldn't go back to sleep.. so here i am.... this morning is the first time we have had sex at 4:14 in the morning and it was great... i'm really tired but can't sleep also hungery so i think i'm going to go make a bowl of rasien Brand (sp) it was great this morning.

I like this every other day.... I have this Ovulation thing on my computer and it tells when you are fertial or not and it says i'm suppose to O on Une 7 but today i'm fertile... so lets see if my hubby's boys or girls get to that egg this cycle lol :pinksperm: swim swin swim.. :bluesperm:

well i'm doing better about writtning on here and we are back in the game of TTC but i'm just not temping it makes me and DH fustrarted... lol

I think this is the first time in a long time we are haviing fun and enjoy BDing... and ttc at the same time and this month we are doing well at i think we finally have it down... but i don't know .. we may not but i belive we do.:lovebed:

well i'm going to go eat... i'm hungry...:eating:

i may write more later today i don't know ....
but until than later.

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well i wrote this morning when i was half awake and half asleep... :shock:

but know i'm doing better... Today has been a great day... i'm so relaxed and at eaze with everything.. i told DH that i know soon we will be parents one way or another but i'm not giving up on being a birth parent..

This cycle i haven't taken Clomid... but my body is gearing up to O i feel like... maybe it just needed a jump start... vroom vroom vroom... lol.. i don't sorry for being so goofy.

on a serious note i hope soon i have a :sleepyboy: or :sleepygirl: or both i just don't know...

i guess in a few days i'm going to be o ing i've been extremely Gassey... and my boobs' are super soar so that can only mean one thing right??

well ttyl
Maybe tommorow or what ever day i will write.. probably Monday or maybe Sunday i know Defnally not Thursday day i might in the moring casue i have surgery... probably Sunday... and will talk about that more..

well here i am just blah blah blah.. well later :guitar:

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Heeelllllllllloooooooooooo!!!:wink:

Well this weekened has been very fun.. and interesting DH andI helped out with a major Church things with surronding church's on Sat and we were out in the sun and Humitty it was like 91 degrees plus humity we got there at 11:00am and left like 5:30 pm.. so we were there for a long time.... but it was fun... i got to carry around my DH's God child she is like 2 yrs old and I have fallen in love with her she is also Moses 3rd cousin.. but she is so cute..

and well we are getting busy the next few days.... praying for a BFP.. .but if not thats o.k.... its not ment to be right know.
A women that came to our church today her husband was a guest speaker and he told us that his wife had 5 mc and told they would never have kids and know the have 2 one girl and a little boy i would guess not even 2 he was so cute... but that gives me a lot of Faith and Hope and I know When its in God's time but we also have to do our part :grin:

and so thats what we have been doing you know well the next 3 days are busy busy busy if you know what i jmean.. lol.. sorry TMI.... :getiton: :lovebed: :boff:

hehe... well next thing i can say is swim boys/girls swim :bluesperm: :pinksperm: :bluesperm: :pinksperm:

well write more maybe tommrow...

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well i think i'm Oi'ng by myself i think i just needed a jump star the last few days have been TMI eggy, creamy and thats great.. it use to be like that when i was younger so that makes me Yahoo i think for the longest time... since i had the cycst on my Ovaries that was stoping me from Oi'ing and Having AF but know I now i'm back to normal i feel it... at least i pray that I am Moses belives that I am... lol so thats a plus right??:lovebed: well 2 more days at making Love Smile well i'll write more latter...

oh by the way.. My Boobs are super soar.. ouch ouch ouch.. well write more later... Smile

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Hello...

well today has been a great day... except yesterday while i was making the bed i hit the end of the bed with my leg and know i got a bruise a hug bruise.. well... Love making has been great 1 more day of doing it well we can keep doing all the time.. but i mean with me trying lol....

well not a whole lot new all i can say is go spern go... :bluesperm: :bluesperm::bluesperm: :pinksperm: :pinksperm:
:pinksperm: well write more tommrow... i probably won't test until its like the day of my AF the 22 of June.. and will have to wait and see.. Smile

well write more later

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One more thing.... i just started writting in a notebook letters to my future child it started off how old we are and how we met and all that... it turned out to be 2 pages long... but who knows when i'll be PG mabye this month.. next when ever God wants it to happen but i'll keep writting in it even after i concieve but its a great thought... you know..... writting letters to them letting them know they are in my thoughts....

Well later... thought i'd add that.... Smile

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3 DPO[/b}

and i'm already going crazy..

Well the oral surgery went well... know i'm just waiting for it to heal they proscribed some Pain meds but i'm not taking any cause well i'm doing well and also last night i took one and instead of putting me to sleep it kept me a wake... um... well my mom and dad and my aunts are going on a cruse today they leave tommrow out of Settle Washington so i'm happy for them they will be gone a week i 'm going to reall miss my aunt i'm use to talking to her every night or every other night.. well anyways... i'm going to go just saying im in 2 ww and i'm having thick stuff come out of me i wonder if its because implantion??? well also today is my mom's birthday i think i'm going to call her up.. Well ttyl.

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well i'm on 6 dpo so i have 88 more days till i can test... 8 yes 8 and i'm going crazy... i really don't know what to expect.. We didn't use Clomid this month so who knows what will happen if you know what i mean... I'm praying for a blessing... but ya... i had the weirest dream last night that i was PG but than my babies where magical. I know Weird dream huh?? well i'll have to count down till i can test or until AF shows up... :sleepyboy: or :sleepygirl: will be fine with me... I'll just have to wait and see i'll probably write more tommrow afternon since in the evening i'm going to be at a concert..

well later..

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wll today i'm on 8 dpo and well yesterday and today my boobs have been super soar... i so i wonder what is going on :roll: i don't want to get my hopes up but i also do... lol.. alright that didn't sound right... I don't know what to expect but this time i'm waiting to see if AF shows up on the 21 i'll test than or the 22 and pray for a BFP i don't know though.... i'm jus praying... i so badly want to have a little one in my arms to hold to teach right from wrong to hear it talk and laugh... aww that just puts me on :cloud9:

you know but this time i'm going to do it smart i'm not going to tell moses that i'm testing i'm gong to let it be a suprise if it comes back Potive and i'l wait till he comes home to tell him.. also i'd call and make a dr appoitment asap after i found out... i know i know way ahead of myself but thats ok right... i'm in la la land but thats safe right... ya i think it is.. alright well thats all i have today... maybe write more tommrow or Friday.. or who knowsi it may be on Tuesday or close too.. Well later :eekout:

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oh ya one more thing i forgot to say.. today i'm having horrible mood swings one min i'm like aww how cutie next i'm like dang this and crap that and why doesn't anyone wanna talk to me and than all over again ... um.. stupid mood swings grr..

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:guitar: oh i hope this is it i pray to God that i'm pregnant.

well i got up at 11:00am this morning first i got up at 5:30 am pee'd than went back to bed than 11:00am rolled around and i got up and pee'd again i normal do not have to get up at 5:30 to pee and than pee at 11:00am so i wonder what thats about hopefully a good sign.. and i've been so hungry today ... hmm :dontknow: also my bb's have been extremely soar.. i really pray that God has given us a a little Angel but we will have to wait and see.. also i've been very tired today so who knows... you know...

Well life is going well... i'm going to start looking for work possible so if we do get BFP you know i can work some at least i hope i can maybe go to walmart and be a greeter Smile well have to see... Well going to go eat a soft taco yum yum.. .write more later... :thewave:

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ugg another day goes by.. very nauceious and i got sick.:puke2: i hope its a good sign of :preggo: also i'm :constipated: sorry for TMI so i don't know i wonder test in 4 more days... come on BFP!!

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Well hello its Monday.. and life is going well....

yeterday i got a car!!! yes a car moses dad and Step mom is giving it to us we get to pick it up on Saturday How cool is that? well Moses Decided he want the money instead but he is going to ask his dad if we can buy the car from them each month a payment he thinks they will let us do that but i don't know.. he said no matter what we will get you a car... but i want that one!!! well anyways today i just couldn't stop crying emotions running wild and rightk now i'm having the worst Neacuea ever!!! well its weird i normially do * 2 twice to 3 times a day and well Friday couldn't go, Saturday i went 1 time, sunday couldn't go and today 2 times.. so i wonder whats up with that... also i'm really tired

I'm really nervouse about Tommorow testing ihope it comes up BFP!! wouldn't that Rock! So i don't know what will happen... but i'm praying to God that he gives us a blessing if you know what i mean.

I so badly want a little one to hold ... our little Angel and everyone would be so happy expecially MIL she so badly wants a Grandchild and Moses andI are the only ones that can give it to her.. so I don't know guess will have to wait and see what happen's come on BFP!

well write more tomomrow.

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well moses called his dad.. and he told us not to worry about it and to relax so i stlll get my car how excitting is that yeppey!!!!!! i'm so happy!!!! come on BFP!!!

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well i tested early this moring at 3:15 am :shock: i thought it was 5:30 Am so when i came out i looked at the clock and was i shock i went back to see how the test went and well i think i saw a faint 2 line i don't really know so everyone has talked me into test on Thursday if NO AF and I"m praying to God that it stays away... and that i get a dark BFP.. so i don't know will have to wait and see i suppose... I'm really praying and I belive i'm pregnant but don't want to get my hopes up...

I'm so happy for the ladies on TTC for the 1st time that's getting there BFP's and it touchs my heart... alright hear comes some tears...

I just so badly want it . aww.. well almost 1 more day and it will be 16 DPO so thats good right?? well ttyl

I"ll keep you posted...
Lots of Love

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well last night i got sick..at12:00 am thats considered morning sickness right and than this morning i almost got sick again... i'll just have ti wait and see whats happeneing. well last night also i got a dizzy and a really bad headache so i had to go lay down.. i really belive i'm Pregnant.. so all i'm waiting for a is for that BFP!!!!

I'm praying to Godi he gives me a blessing...

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well AF showed up so on to the next month April 4 would be my EDD so lets see what it brings... Smile on for another journey... ( marching off into the sun set)

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hello.. wel i'm on CD 5 and just started on our journey.. every other day i hope this brings a BFP in July Smile i'm taking 50mg of Clomid... also... .so i don't know will have to wait it out... Waiting to O>. so yep thats where i am ...

ttyl

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well.. before i go to bed i just watned to say... today was a very weird day... i checked my mucas and it was dry and than like around 11:00am it was bloody ever time i whipped and there was a lot so i considered it spotting but dry and than off and on it went liket that normally my period doesn't last for more the 5 days so i was a little freaking out... but know its back to normal so i wonder what was going on.... well i'm glad its back to normal no spotting or nothing.... so yep

also we got our car yeppey... well we have to change the title over and the insurance over to our name which DH and FIL are going to do on Friday... so till then can't drive her but when i drove her today she purred... yeppey.... next week looking for a job.. come on job.... Smile and BFP!!

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well life is going well tongiht is our second night Bding (warning TMI) amd we are going to try doggie style tonight and if we like we are going to stick with it lol .... i really pray this is our month... come on BFP!!! well i guess i'll write more later.. dH is also excited hoping this is our month.... Smile

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Doggie Style Rocked!!! :sex:

where i have i been this last year Moses and I.... OMG!!!! it rocked... hopeful i think we are going to stick to that way this cycle... and see what it brings.. hopefully a BFP... alright sorry.. for TMI i'm just happy as can be....

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well its been a few days on July 1 our phone was turned off stupid phone company... and it wasn't our fault.. we payied the bill... well anyways... we missed Friday night in Bding and Saturday so we made up for it and did it Sunday Monday and Tuesday so that means tommrow agian... well i just looked at my edd date and i realize it could be March 30 so i don't know.... I can' t stress about it it won't help the matters you know..

well monday night Moses Dad gave him some herbal things to take to help with sex... and i wonder how it will do last night when we BDed i think DH came more... just by his body reaction so that was a good thing.. well some women my age are startinga group.. and asked me to join in singing i was totally in shock but happy about it.. so tommrow night i'll be off singing la la la la... well i think i o'ed on Monday and I'll have to wait and see what tommrow's temps will be.. Life is going good... and I hope i get a BFP this month i'm praying for a blessing and a mircle.. so all i can say is

GO BOYS GO OR GO GIRLS GO.. LOL
:pinksperm: :pinksperm: :bluesperm:
:bluesperm:
:babydustpink: :babydustblue:

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you are never going to guess what... well i'll tell you for starters yesterday DH wanted to BD and i said for the first time ever its not the time i said everyother day to him and it made him want it even more.. .well i caved in and well ya.... Smile that was yesterday and dh i can say has been really active this cycle... than he told me is 100% ready for a baby and he wants one really bad he said i'm going to be sure that one of my boys meet that egg or grab onto that egg... lol. ..... so for 2 night knows we have been praying that God blesses us with a child... i think its so cute.. well i'm going to bed early tonight to see how it effects my temps...
ttyl

7 more days till i can test 2ww... is crazy.. lol

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well i'm 7 days past o and early this morning i almost got sick and luckly ate some brakefast with mIL and i've been fatigued all day.. also than when i got home for about 2 hours i wanted sourcream so i went to taco bell... and got taco salad.. well i ate it and all and than a few hours ago i feel nasuces not throwing up good... and i seem to be conctepated... i feel like i have to go but can't so i wonder umm... well write more later.. also my bb's are really soar... so um...

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well i'm on 10 DPO... and i can't wait to test on Tuesday... Also today i have a Job interview wouldn't it be awesome if i got a BFP and working but i wouldn't tell my job till later on.... it was so cutie of Moses last night i was talking about the Job and i said i think this is it... and he said the baby... and yes that to but with this interview. I can tell he wants a baby too.. .so i hope this is it.. we have been very busy this month lol.... Well i'll kup about the Job.. thing tonight... or i may write tommrow i'm going out with a girlfriend... well hopefully soon she is just a friend through church... so we'll see... i' think i'll have time to post ... Smile we aren't getting together till 7:00

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well my temps went back up this morning yeppey!!! come on BFP!i'm so excited about tuesday.. i hope tommrow and the next day they get higher and Higher... Smile

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well i got a 1.oo test today at US Dollar and i'm going to take it first thing in the morning i'm really nervous and excited at the same time i really hope its postive and than i'm going to take another test on Tuesdya.. i guess i'll just have to wait and see... i'm really hoping so....

well DH had a nervous attack today... i was so worried about him but he is sleeping also he told me he felt naucose this morning... so i wonder maybe he is for me... lol

well if both are neg than i'm going to test on the 25 also.. we will just have to wait and see what happens... please God let me get a Postive A BFP

kup tommrow... and the next day.. aaaaaaaahhhhh

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well it it was - i'll have to wait and test tommrow and Moses is going to test with me... so i'm really nervous... but excited.. i really really really hope this is it.

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sorry i didn't update yesterday well as you can tell its a BFN but i realized that i O'ed later than what i thought i did at first and so know i'm on 9 dpo... anyways today my bb's have been killing me and for a few moments i thought AF was here this morning i went to the bathroom and nothing and all day i've been tired soar and mouth constantly DRY i can't explain it and i've been drinking tons of water and milk... and Diet Coke even tasted Strange to me also pink lemonade..(sp) than we were in Walmart and i HATE Fish and i could smell it when we got close by i almost got sick and DH was laughing at me i told him that wasn't funny he apoligized... but doing better... well write more later...

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Back to CD 1 well bring on the next cycle... (YAWN) i'm starting to get a little fustrated but shh you didn't hear that from me.

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wow where have i been well i'm on CD 9 and Moses and I are jsut enjoying each other and well thats about it for know. i'm still going to be taking my temps but not worried about get pregnant it will happen at the right time.

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well right know moses and I are just enjoying each other and i'm still temping to see how i do without taking Clomid the next two cycles. :sex: and it feels so good instead of doing it every other day we are doing it everyday and enjoying it i've been extra wanting it i'll just say... and mosees has been enjoying it also...

I have to keep beliving that someday i will have either a :sleepygirl: or a :sleepyboy: thats all i can say also i'm enjoying moses and thats all that matters for know so i'm not even going to test unless i'm like 2 week no AF but other than that not going there.. Smile well talk to you all later.

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well i'm in 2ww 4dpo.. and i really dont' think this is our month... i really don't know what to expect i'm so fired up about sept 13 i can't wait for my dr appt... ahhhhhh...

well talk to you later.

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well i'm 11dpo and if AF doesn't show up in 2-3 days im going to test on Saturday... but i jsut don't know what my body is going to bring... the last week before i go to bed and at night and sometimes durning the day i've been feeling Naucious and on my bb's the veins you can see very clear.. it really weird so i don't know i have hope but not going to be mad if AF shows up cause we are having a DR appt on the 13 of Sept..

later.

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well i tested early than what i said i would and it was neg i hope soon AF shows up but if she doesn't than i'm going to test on Saturday... stilll waiting to see. what will happen.

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alright here is my vent...

I'm so happy for everyone who is getting BFP's but than i start to feel alone.... like something is wrong with me why can't i get a BFP i've been trying for a year 3 months and a few days. i'm getting so aggrivated i try to show everyone that i'm happy for them and I am cause they deserve it but than i get a little green eye... its not there fault i know but i so badly want a baby one baby if thats all God will give me... But anyways sorry for my vernti hope AF stays far far away and i get a BFP and if on Sat its neg well have to keep taking each day to the max well sorry for venting had to get it out..

also today is the day the found my sister its been 3 yrs today... and also its my little bro's b-day.. which he isn't celebrating.. .but so i'm having a bad bad bad day.

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