Well ive finally decided to quit depressing myself with everything and finally just get it all out.
I have been TTC since 30th October 2007, so all of this is new to me. I had been on the pill for a year and previous to that i was on Depo. I have spent endless nights searching different topics, but i can never find the exact information i am looking for.
I think in these last 3 cycles i have had every pregnancy symptom ever known, yet still BFN. So i guess i have resigned myself to the face that maybe its just not ment to be. The first cycle after coming off the pill was horrendus. But all of the symptoms i had felt i put down to my body re adjusting to be 'normal' again.
After about 3 weeks my sore bb were gone the metallic taste was gone, and i was thankful that these pill hormones were finally being flushed out of my system.
My 2nd cycle was alot shorter than normal, heavy cramps and clots. Never ever experianced anything like this in my life. so of course the first thing i did was jump online to see if i was 'normal'. I read many things which included miscarriage, eptopic pregnancy, Endo and pcos. God help me.
Thankfully this last cycle seemed to be back to normal. that is everything but the symptoms. I normally get sore bb right after i O, but this time was much worse, and lasted right till now. I have the horrible metallic taste back since i O and ive had light cramps for the last 4 days. when finally Af decided to show her face. Not alot, but enough to know that it is not to be this time...
sorry for the vent... just need to get it all out.
Its doing my head in not knowing whats going on with my body, and to be so optomistic waiting for af to come, then when it does i go back to thinking why i started this whole thing in the first place....
Im now at day 10 of my cycle and wondering what else to do... i have started DH on zinc and multivitamins, now i guess im just waiting for O..
Im very distracted... DH thinks im going crazy, but i have relaxed my compulsion to search every symptom under the sun.. and just go with the flow... whoever thought this would be so hard *sigh*