Cd 19 3dpo
Well got cross hairs...not solid..but..I'm guessing thats about right.
We got all the BDing done..except on Wednesday and Friday M couldn't finish.
I have still noted it as you never know there may have been a little escape.
was a bit annoyed Friday though as he knew it was an important one and I asked him not to get too drunk.
We went to wet the babies head..I had a coke and then went up to J's and sat with Little L in my arms..wha a good little girl she is..so quiet and lovely.
She was so quiet I kept checking to see if she was breathing..started to get a bit panicy too as it seems she kept holding ehr breath...was very pleased that it was just the way she sleeps...couldn't belive how paranoid I was and shes not even mine.
Anyway..M came home after me and was 3 sheets to the wind...and then I cut my nose of to spite my face...when i woke up early and fed the dog M offered me a rematch in the morning...I had taken my temp and it had rocketed so I refused..but it was more of a up yours refusal..I could have done with Saturday morning...stupid me!
But then its over once your temps raised isn't it..but..
I'm so stubborn!
Anyway..we had a good weekend anyway and there has been no nookie since as he needs to conserve it all for tomorrow as we have our gyno appointment.
Can't wait...was hoping for a BFP for christmas so I didn't have to go through the HSG..but that look unlikely.
My chances without putting the two days we dtd on are good and high adding them..so..I think I'm being a totaly debbie downer..but I really don't believe I'm in with a chance this month at all.
If I am M is going to be punching the air and yelling told you so!! LOL
Weekend was fun had dinner at the in laws last night and met aunt G..what a character...she is so classy too.
She live in Italy and has come over to visit...shes amazing.
she goes home today but I am so pleased I have met her.
Housework, christmas cards and job hunting tonight while M is out.
I'll wait up for him as its our 2 year anniversary and I have him a card and some cycling sun glasses.
We'll do something tomorrow after the appointment. :)
Anyway...got lots to do.
Appointment went well yesterday.
Got to call and book a HSG on the first day of the next cycle..so hopefully I'll get the HSG done before the year is out. :)
Then I have to wait on another appointment with the consultant we saw yesterday.
She said if that appointment comes through before I have had my HSG I have to reschedule as she needs those results.
After all that it will be onto treatment...but we have to have stopped smoking 100%.
No cheeky ones at all.
I'm up for the challenge..just hard over the Christmas period..but whats hard when a LO could be the result. :)
We even have to give a signed letter saying we have both stopped.
Day was good yesterday..after the appointment we went and had lunch with M's mum and nan in the little pub in our village and that was yummy.
Then we watched Transformers 2 and Zombieland...good films.
Went to bed early..but puppy woke me at 2am..rand down and he was in the middle of a pooh..great...but prefer to clean up pooh rather than pee.
Let him out and he peed long!!! :)
So temp reading was sky high when I woke again at 520am.
Boobs feeling heavy and a little tender in places..not sure if my gland is up or whether its the tenderness in my boobs and I have a stitch in my left hand side.
Managed to have a number 2 this morning too and it was fabulous..feel so much lighter. :)
Anyway...start my hand overs today at work.
Got my Department lunch tomorrow..then Friday I'll stock take the stationery.
Then its 4 days to D day!
I'll try and sort my cv then, :)
Oh..Monday when I got home M had left a cuddly Boofle dog with a card on the sofa for me..all very slushy..not like him. :)
I let him open his present when he got back from his course..I had got him some Bloc sunglasses for cycling and he is very happy!!
Was really nice..can't believe its been 2 years!!
I feel like banging my head against a brick wall.
Finally got a response from the managing agents on my flat about the service charge bills.
I owe the £889.08
This is because there was a balance from the year before last that wasn't paid!! WTF..the bill was over paid, I have emails already stating they owe us monry.
Then two bills for this year withy double charges..and everything will be refunded next year if its wrong...on top of that I have to find probably about £3000 after Christmas for external works...I am livid..bawling my eyes out.
The girl said to me..don't worry I can do a payment plan for you!!..I like WTF!!!
So all the money I have spare..or most of it is going on that hell hole!
The work we paid for to be done 18 months ago hasn't even been done!
And to top it all I have a pain in my tummy that feels like a bad stitch or someone digging their fingers in...I feel horrid!
Well after my total meltdown yesterday regarding my flat and bills I finally hopefully have a light at the end of the tunnel.
I rang the actual main freeholders in regards to whether they want to buy my flat..i mean with the rep of all the agents involved in the flats I think I would have a hard time selling to joe blogs.
I have said the minimum I want to sell the flat for is £100,000 still a lot less then I paid but would still come out with something and hopefully I wouldn't have to pay for the external works we haven't been billed for yet.
I still have to pay the other invoice..although I am expecting money back at one point...if not I'll chain myself to the offices..hmm..maybe not..its cold. :)
The guy from the freeholders is going to look at it on Wednesday so fingers crossed.
Also when i spoke to thw agents I use to rent it out to tell them that he is going down there to check out the state of the communal area they said there is a potential tenant..but might not be able to move in until the 27th of Jan..well its better than a kick in the teeth.
I have emailed the freeholder to tell them and that I have said okay because if they decide they don't want my flat I can't afford to keep paying out and not getting anything back..but it could work for them also as they would have an income from the flat already.
So anyway..I so hope that this can be sorted...either the tenant or the sale..I just want rid of it..I want to start again.
Still having slight cramps on the left hand side of my stomach..nothing like yesterday though..more of a stretching from the ribs down to the ovary...not sure what it is...maybe stress..maybe pmt..I very much doubt its a little bean..I can hope..but its unlikely.
I thought I saw a very faint brown in my CM..but again..it could have just been that the material had darkened due to being damp..sorry thats gross.
I'm trying not to obsess this month as I feel I would be lying to myself..but I reckon even if I had abstained all month I would still find symptoms. LOL
Anyway..work lunch today..well my departmetn anyway..oh and one other girl...can't wait..PIZZA!!!!!
CD 23 7 Dpo
M has gone to Italy...I reckon he'll be at the villa by now or close enough...typical no text but he turned stroppy because I got a bit annoyed at his mum for ringing 3 times from 420 til 445 and then then door knocking and dog going off.
I had already got up to get M up and let the dog out twice..and what with M turning lights on talking to me about tidying the bedroom before my friend comes over tonight as shes staying and the spare room is too messy for her to sleep in, I was not terribly amused.
I tried to explain nicely that I have a full days work ahead and the first phonecall from his mum was fine as we expected it..but to keep calling when the phone is next to me is kind of not on...he doesn't need to be chivvied along..hes a 30 year old man!
He did say on the second call to hias mum that the phone was by my head and I was trying to get the last half an hour or so of sleep before work..yet he was aLSO BY MY HEAD HAVING THIS CONVERSATION..WHY COULDN'T HE HAVE TASKEN THE PHONE OUT OF THE ROOM??
Then his mobile rings...at that point I tutted and he was told me I was annoying him as I knew that he had to go this morning..my response was yes but your mum doesn't need to keep calling you.
When I get up in the mornings I make sure that all my clothes are in the bathroom the night before.
I get up..I close the bedroom door so no light disturbs him..I feed the dog and cat..get ready for work..quietly!!..then I go in kiss him goodbye and leave...all done with with minimal fuss..him however..he even said "well if I have to get up so do you"..my response was "thats not even a joke is it?"
He finally left in a mood..hence not hearing that hes landed..and because I had set my alarm for him it over rode my alarm and it didn't go off and I was late getting up..which meant I didn't get to say goodbye to one of my train buddies as hes now on lates all next week.
But of course I'm the one in the wrong for snapping about being disturbed and for him not going to the dog when he was up and dressed..I had to go and let him out the second time!!
I don't know...give and take would be good sometimes.
Found out two of my frinds have Foot and Mouth...looks like it was picked up at the nursery their son goes to.
Poor guys especially as V is pregnant.
I so hope they are okay.
Got a friend over tonight who I haven't seen in a while so that will be nice..M reckons I need to tidy the bed room because its embarressing....I said..what..all your clothes you just step out of or don't put away when you can't decide what to wear. LOL
I will however tidy it as I don't want her to see his dirt pants that he can't put in the laundry basket.
Cor..I thought I was in a good mood..but obviously hes annoyed me more than I thought..good thing his not home really. :)
Cd 26 10 dpo
Well...whats been going on...
Well was very happy on Friday to recieve a text from a friend I made on here to say she had finally got a blazing + after 2 years...was so happy I dialed her number and we spoke for the first time..I must have blown her eardrums squealing my congrats at her.
So over the moon..made my day, week, month, year!!!!
By the time I got to Hammersmith to meet my friend after texting and texting after the call..i was crying tears of sheer happiness...so so happy...don't think I would be any happier if it were my own.
Would be so cool if I got a positive in a couple of days...but I really doubt it.
Anyway..Congrats Christie Sha!!! xxx
When I finally got home Friday..there was a letter from the Courts re the guy who didn't finish the work and hadn't given me the money he had agreed to..giving me a court date for March...his statement actually denies ever saying he would do the job except in the way of if he had time...I just hope all my evidence is enough.
I do feel more confident as he is blatantly lying and although hes added a couple of facts, I'm happy that I have a lot of evidence.
I trust in the legal system..and if by any horrid chance I don't win..I know that he and I know the truth and karma will occur one day.
But I'm pretty confident the court wil tell he is lying.
Also and more importantly got info through about HSG and a letter saying when to call and make an appointment..haven't read through it yet..but let J read it..and she turned a deathly shade of white when she read about the procedure..so I'm scared to read it. LOL
Had awful UTI like pains on Friday..like a marble was stuck and moving down my tubes..it hurt a lot and when I peed it felt like it blew up and bit then the pressure was released.
Its not hurting any more..but do have mild cramps on and off and a cramp in my bum cheek again.
Boobs are sore round the sides and I think nipples feel bruised..but all of this is common...feels the same as other months.
Not holding out anything for this cycle...not feeling it at all.
Erm..what else is there to report...[probably loads but can't think...needa pee..so..
OH...only 4 working days left of work...whoop!!!!!
CD 28 12 dpo
Second temp drop today...come on aunt flo..get it over with so I can book my HSG!!
I haven't really got a lot to say..last day at work tomorrow...scary but cool!
The freeholder is seeing the flat tomorrow now and not today..so hoping I get some positive feed back there.
Erm....I'm tired..dog has had me up twice every day this week!!.LOL
Meeting my bro for dinner tonight..depending on the snow...yay!!!..its snowing!...well not yay really until Friday..I'm not all that keen on snow..but I have to say I would love a white Christmas..and the village looks so beautiful when it snows..and the dog loved it last year..this year hes bigger so it will be even more fun to watch him bound around...last year I couldn't let him off the lead..I would have lost him..this year well..!!
Plus what with the roaring fire and steaming mugs of tea..I can't wait.
Oh and my boobs are still killing me and I feel like someones punched me in the nipple....so AF better hurry up so the pressure is released on my plumptons too!!!
Cd 29 13dpo
Af hasn't shown yet..but I'm pretty sure she will today...so I'll update when she does.
Well...its my last day at work...its only 0815 and tears hacve been shed already.
Came in to find a present and a card on my desk from George who covers me from 4 and does the maintenance here.
His card was a sorry you are leaving card and thanked me for being his best mate here.
Oh the water works.
Then my CEO came round to offer me a special cup of tea..but I had already put one on his desk and done me a coffee...we shared a massive hug and tears got heavier..today is going to be highly emotional.
Please everyone who reads this keep your fingers crossed that I get my flat sold today..would make life so much better without it hanging over my head.
right not going to write much..although it may be my last entry for a while...well I don't know whether it will..but..depends on how brave I am posting from home. LOL
So if by any chance I don't come back til after Christmas..I would like to wish you all a fantastic Christmas and New year.
May all your wishes and dreams be fulfilled in the most wonderful way.
Cd 16 3 DPO
Happy new year one and all.
Christmas was quiet but nice..still feel so bloated from it!
Got lots of new clothes and smellies and such...was very nice. :)
Had dinner at the in laws...his mum is an amazing cook..got la senza vouchers from her and bought loads of new undies!..happy me.
His nan gave me £50 of monsoon vouchers...my dad didn't even spend that much on me and it really touched me.
Michael got a new computer and just loads of cash..com is arriving on Tuesday..reckon I'll be banned from using it..hahah.
Hung out quite a bit with m's sister..we went shopping in cambridge and then Christmas eve she and I watched a couple of films..stuffed our faces while the boys went out and got drunk.LOL
She has started to call me sis now..its all light hearted..but I love it..feel really accepted by her.
She went up north to see her partners son and his family for ny so she couldn't come out..which was a shame
New years we went to the local wine bar..as it was Michaels birthday he had cards and presents to lug around..or rather I did..lol..luckily I only had a couple of drinks...but it was so cold to be carrying things.
We went up to some friends just before midnight to see it in with them it wa lovely. )
on the 29th I had my hsg..ow ow ow...but all is good with me..I had a high on the monitor that day so we boinked that night.
Thr next morning I got my peak,,and had a little lump of blood..yuk!
So we got 3 boinks in on a high and both peaks.
I o'd on the first peak so didn't need an insurance one when I got the high again.
Its weird but my boobs gett sore almost straight after o now days...so I have 2 weeks of uncomfortableness
and my right boob is very painful!
Michaels out tonight so at least he won't be wanting boobie cuddles...saying that his favorite is the left...so why am I sying that...hahah
Going to stop writing as I have puppy on my knee so typing something long is a bit difficult.
Again...happy new year!!
Its been a while since I wrote here and I'm sorry.
so I left work on the 17th of December and had a lovely christmas.
I had my HSG between christmnas and new year..and wow..didn't like that..had a trainee nurse i think..who couldn't get suction..so it was uncomfortable as it was..but I have to admit to thinking it wasn't so bad..until the suction took..wow..it wasn't as bad as I made it out to be though..such a big baby..but all was clear.
So the last couple of months i saw Af come and go and then this cycle well she didn't come.
I noticed I had earache about a week before she was due and tiny little thread veins on my breasts.
Then the day i was due i had an interview and after the interview I went for lunch with a friend and when i went to the loo i saw some spotting and just assumed that af was coming..by evening there was nothing..did a finger test and there was a pinhead speck of brown.
The next morning my temp was up again but I noticed what I thought was spotting and thought well I won't test..new thermometer is obvioulsy wrong..but again there was only a little bit of discolouration..and thinking about it..it was yellow not brown or pink.
AF stayed away so I managed to wait until Valentines and tested and wayhey a blazing positive..so so happy..although it hasn't sunk in yet...not having any symptoms other than being tired.
Have an awful sinus infection...my teeth hurt...on tablets now as i saw the doc today..seeing him Friday too to do a urine test and whatever else I have to do...so excited for that.
We have told family..but we are keeping quiet as i start a new job in march...really hope they still want me to work there..I'll have to show them that I am a good bet even pregnant.
We have had to get a behavioural expert in for the puppy..he has a very bad case of hyperness..which could be due to lack of boundaries, diet or genes.
We are on a srict regime with him and although he has calmed a bit..I'm not confident it will work and if thats the case we will have t rehome him...we are crate training him and limiting affection to break a bit of the bond as he has overbonded with us..me in particular.
So we have 2 and a half months to straighten him out or..bye bye to our gorgeous pup..he'll probably be more suited to being a working dog and not a pet..and with a bubba on the way...its too dodgy..but fingers crossed we'll be able to get him happy and calm so out lo has a best friend dog and protector. :)
Its all go at the mo...my face hurts though and I'm soo swollen!!!
But omg..i'm having a baby!!!
We areso happy!!!!!