Well...doctor called saturday afternoon.
michael answered and after a few confused noises and reassurance that it was fine to call on a Saturday he handed the phone to me saying he didn't understand what was being said...bless.
Our fantastic doctor told me that everything was hunky dory.
i had a great Progetorone level..one of the best she had seen..WHOOP!
and michael had loads of good little swimmers!!!...I mean like loads and loads.
Considering he split some when doing his deposit i was like WOW!!
apparently there are a few abnormal ones..(No surprise with my DBF..but being abnormal is what makes him )
But in ratio to all the numbers they aren't even worth talking about.
Tests are good for 3 months.
She asked what we wanted to do..gove it a bit more time or book in for a HSG...told her I'm scared of the pain...but said I would call her Friday if/when AF shows and book one in..if I can get it done fast then I might as well get it out of the way eh?
I can't believe how good all the tests were..I am over the moon.
I leapt on Michael after I got off the phone and smothered him in kisses.
That night he put his face to my tummy and put on a monster voice calling "Hello baby..hello hello are you in there!!!!"
it was amzingly cute.
I told him I would try and keep my pregnancy a secret from him for 12 weeks so he didn't blab to anyone...hes like...yeah..right..I'll know!!! LOL
Was so nice.
Sunday morning we dtd....it hurt!...was very tender...both my boobs hurt at the mo..its like my AF gland is up on the other side too..which has nevr happened.
I've even had heartburn.
But I could have eaten too fast.
I can obsess.
I have to say I don't believe it will be this month..but...
all I know is that so far everything is good with us so thats all we need to know.
that takes some stress off and hopefully will make us relax more so we can get there!!
Life is good!!!!!!
Puppy would not leave me alone at the weekend.
he kept sitting at my feet making the weirdest noises..I know you shouldn't laugh at a dog..but oh my I was crying laughing..in fact every time I've laughed recently I have started crying...not sobbing...just started getting tears in my eyes and feeling a little hysterical.
The noises he makes....
my alarm didn't go off this morning and I heard him whining a jumping...so I ran downstairs and and he had done a tiny wee...almost like he had to go a little but he saved a lot for outdoors..so thats good eh...I think.
Temp lowered a tad today.
Not sure if yesterdays was accurate...not sure if todays is accurate as I woke with a shake of a dog at dibby o clock so when I took my temp I hadn't slept for the 3 hours solid.
Hey...what happens happens eh?
Back is aching..but could be the sleeping thing again.
Been having digging pains in my tummy.
when I coughed earlier the middle of my tummy above my pubic area felt weird...not sure how to describe it...can't really remeber what it felt like...but it was odd.
Oh my I am obsessing...and I know it won't happen this cycle because I've talked too much about it. LOL
Feel a little warm too...
lots of Creamy CM this morning...trying to think whether I normally dry up around now or not.
Boobs hurt round the sides.
Occassional aches in the right.
Shut up brain!!!
It will happen when it happens...this month..please....soon so I don't have to have a HSG..please!!!!
Just waiting for the explosion...lalalala....limbo.....
Temp drop again today..so I know shes crawling up the garden path like the girl coming out of the tv in the Ring...
just wish she would get here so I can start the new cycle..book the HSG and play with my fertility monitor!!
And she shows....whoop!
Glad to begin another cycle.
Glad to get another shot at a July bubba.
Glad to get to use my fertility monitor.
Glad to try and book my HSG...roll on the doc calling me back.
Not glad to have cramps from hell!
not glad to have possibly moved up to a 29 day cycle...well kind of...doesn't that mean I have a longer luteal phase?
DBF is gutted...bless him..he was convinced that I was wrong and AF wasn't going to show...I tried to tell him but he just doesn't believe what i say.
He really does believe that it is easy to get pregnant...its not..especially as you get older..especially after being on the pill for years and years.
I believe we will get there..it will just take patience..I'm lucky I have ooodles of patience...i have always hoped my patience would rub off on him..but it doesn't.
He says hes not in a rush..its only for me..but I think he is for this.
Maybe just so he knows its all working.
Well we know it is all working...okay..you never know I may have a blockage..but I do in all honesty doubt I do..I think its just a matter of time and timing..
We start with good intentions each fertile period, but then in gets a bit samey...we never keep it going.
This month we will...this month I'll know exactly the best time...and I hope this month he'll be on board properly rather than getting frustrated...hes not so good on demand especially when its a few days in a row..and I have to say it gets a bit..erm...robotic.
At least I know that our best chance is probably CD 15 to 17...hopefully the monitor will confirm that too.
I feel pressure for him.
I guess all i have to do is lie there in a lot of ways..he has to perform.
Then he feels he lets me down.
he doesn't, not at all.
If hes not in the mood then I just back off totally so he doesn't feel like he HAS to.
but i guess he does have to...can't make a baby on my own.
Now its getting colder we are getting more snuggly so hopefully that will help!!
we'll get there..I know we will...and I hope he knows this too.
Well Aunt flo has finally gone but cousin spot is hanging about today...thats fine..she can follow her mum tomorrow.
there isn't an awful lot to report really.
My chart seems neat for me.
I get to do my first test tomorrow morning with the Clear Blue fertility monitor..which is exciting...god I need to get a life. LOL
Its all so quiet at the mo.
M seems to have his grumpy pants on and I can't be bothered to lure him out of it at the moment..lets hope hes in a better mood when I get home tonight...he drains me sometimes.
I guess my patience is a little thin at the mo as I'm coming up to the 5 year ann of my mum passing away.
It doesn't get easier..you just learn to live with things.
miss her every day and wish she was here to share my journey.
but then I do wonder if she were here would I be where I am.
A weird thought thought but everything that happens puts you on another different path.
So next Tuesday will be either a hyper day for me or subdued.
wish I had the day off.
Last year I took M's nan to the cemetary to put flowers on her husbands grave and it was nice to spend time with her and take my mind of my thoughts.
This year it will be meetings and working...I guess at least I'll be busy.
How morbid is this post...hmmm..sorry about that.
Well did my first poas for the the monitor today...such fun...obviously in came back low but at least it has started.
Should be able to boink with reason next week..and by god I hope we catch the egg this month...would be amazing...be even better if I could convince DBF to keep it quiet til christmas day and let the in laws know as a Christmas present...hmm..won't happen he can't keep his mouth shut. LOL...plus I'm getting so ahead of myself..hey we can have dreams! LOL
I went to bed sooo early last night was exhausted..DBF stayed downstairs to watch CSI and I have to say i didn't even hear him come in.
He has now decided that maybe he should watch tv downstairs instead of in bed to let me sleep...its a good reason as for some reason at the moment whenever any music comes on the tv it wakes me up..its like chinese water torture and I end up moaning about it.
Can sleep through voices and such..but any music..its horrible.
Thing is I miss him..Blah!
Hes been sleep talking the last couple of nights too...he switches the light on and insists we have mice.
The night before last I asked him if he was sleep talking..he snapped a WHAT? at me..so i asked again and he obviously woke up and after a pause said yes.
Last night when the same thing happened I just ignored him and he went back to sleep.
Had great fun telling him about it this morning..hahaha.
He seems in a better mood now...probably because hes bought that silly bicycle....won't tell me how much though...ARGHH!!...something else to trip over..LOL
Have warned him cycling isn't good for his little men though....
hopefully he'll avoid it til this cycle is over anyway.
Men and their fads. LOL
Editted to add...how freaky is this...I just bumped into a friend who works in the same building as us but for another company...I asked how she was and she said...hmm..so so..I have mice in my bedroom.....thats what DBF...We have mice in the bedroom!! hahahah..freaky.
i just rang to tell him and he thinks I'm a freaky little midget...hahahaha
Last edited by Lizbet22; 10-28-2009 at 08:01 AM.
I think I'm having a weird cycle.
I am normally in the clear from AF and cousin spot on CD 5.
I thought I was yesterday...but I'm sorry for TMI..I was wearing black underwear so didn't see that it was spotting and wasn't just creamy CM.
anyway this morning I have pink CM...not brown which I would expect but pink!
My temps are gradually creeping up higher and higher and in all the months I've been temping I have NEVER got into the 98's at this part of my cycle.
I am exhausted too...properly exhausted.
My energy levels are still high but I could easily sleep for England..come midday I'm dying on my feet...and I get a huge headache.
I can't work out if I should maybe do a test as I know some women can have a period or what they think is a period.
But then I did have bright red blood....but it was light to medium flow...didn't fill a tampon at all this month...well i did one..but that was only because stupidly I forgot about it and didn't change it...gross...but...
I know I'm obsessing..and deep down I know that I'm not pregnant yet...but...what if?
I wonder if I'm sickening for something.
I keep waking up about 3 or 4 too which would effect my temp..but then when I have had a disturbed sleep in this part of the cycle it has still never hit the 98's...
maybe I'm just sickening for something.
But I took my temp last night and it was 97....so not high or anything.
we don't have heating on in the bedroom..or if it is it goes off at about 10pm as I can't sleep in a warm room.
I am having night sweats too.
what should I do?
Just get this stupidness in mind under control...or test...I just don't know.
Maybe see what my temp does tomorrow..I'm sure there is a normal reason for this.
Some numpty has driven into M's mums car at 35 miles per hour.
He had stopped to turn into the car park...she wasn't looking where she was going...shes written her car off...damaged MILs car badly and has damaged my DBF too...his neck is killing him and he has a banging headache and bad back now...want to go home to him.
Doctor has said to go back if it gets worse..but expect some nasy stiffness....
I want to go home and see if hes okay but he insists hes fine.
Last edited by Lizbet22; 10-29-2009 at 10:20 AM.
My monitor has been saying high for the past 3 days...guessing there will be a couple more of them and then onto peak.
Its an interesting device thats for sure.
Weekend was great.
DBF and I sat down over dinner and discussed his fears..and after he freaked me out so much...it seems its just because hes so scared.
I'm not going to go into it here again.
all I know is that I'm happy he has opened up to me.
Its a shame he versed it so wrong on thursday..but I get where he is coming from.
weekend was great after the discussion and I felt closer to him.
We filled the weekend with lots of laughing and silliness, which is something that we missed last week.
We rough house a lot and we both find it very funny...the dog always comes to my rescue too...hahahahaha....poor old DBF gets it from both sides.LOL
I feel so much happier today and less scared of ttc.
I was so seriously considering going back on the pill....but now I know that we will get through whatever life throws at us.
I know that I will have to be strong for him, maybe more so then him for me..but then I guess mentally I am the stronger one in the relationship.
And I'm happy with that.
I know I can help him conquer his fears..and I know I can conquer my fears while helping him.
Got into a stupid bicker about a chocolate bar last night.
He was eating it at 2200 at night...I confiscated it when he had eaten nearly half...huge chocolate bar...we both do this to each other when playing...sadly he turned..I got upset..hes in one of his moods.
I cried a lot of the night...he sulked and humped around.
tried to resolve it as today I could really do without the stress..I'm overly sensitive as its the 5th year..i think..keep thinking its 6..but I think its 5 years of my mum passing away so suddenly...feeling so sad today and tired.
Text him 3 kisses this morning...hoping to get some form of positive response..but have got nothing at all.
Another week of sulks from him I guess....how can a man be so grumpy?
hopefully he'll chill out during the day....otherwise it will be a fab evening...not...
mind you I have to expect him going like this..always happens on a full moon...I swaer men have pms too.
anyway..heres to you mum.
miss you every day.
love you to bits and always will.
Hope you're enjoying a nice gin in heaven.
Last edited by Lizbet22; 11-03-2009 at 05:07 AM. Reason: time
Well I got my first peak today on my monitor...exciting...I have o pains too...are you actually oing when you have the pains...?
any hooo...we will get busy tonight...wanted to last night but SBF wasn't up to it as he was tird as he didn't sleep much the night before because of our row and I was tired too so wasn't going to push it..although I wish I had now...would have been perfect..but at least we get to go tonight and I assume I will get a peak tomorrow too..as its supposed to go twice on a peak.
Weird though as my OPKs just recently have been a couple of days later...seems this cycle is different this month..my temps are higher and it loooks like I'm oing in the text book way...possibly a 28 day cycle again oing day 14..that sort of thing..means my LP will be longer.
I hope this cycle being a little different means something.
glad that DBF and I have chilled out now.
Hate rowing with him...just wish he would own up to his responsibility in these things rather than me taking the blame...but hey ho.
Had my performance review yesterday and it went really well..so pleased.
Was in there for nearly 2 hours....couldn't believe it.
but saying that we were having a natter too.
he tells me all about his kids and when they concieved and gives me tips...LOL
He also let me sound off about things that were bugging me..here and at home...he really is a great boss.
I'm very happy.
Told him I was skint at the mo with not having a tenant for my flat..said i was avoiding eating at work..this morning he comes in with a crossiant for me...that was so nice.
Its not like I can't afford to eat..its just I would prefer not to spend oodles on lunch up here.
I have a decent meal when I get home..so...but the thought counts and that means a lot.
anyway...busy day ahead...we have stationery to do and then we have chair interviews and a British Copyright Council meeting that will have me running around...at least the day will go fast..although I may have to stay late depending on whether the intrviews over run...I hope not...but if it happens it happens..can't moan as my boss is letting me go early on Friday for the dentist and is also letting me have a day in Lieu in December for this Gyno appoinment..if i need it.
I am feeling very happy today...
Got past yesterday and the sadness over mum and the row...today is a fresh start...a new day..and with the peak its possibley the creation of life too.