I don't know what to do!!!
This weekend we are going to sit down with the in laws and discuss my offer.
We will have to tell them we are ttc so they can have all the facts before they can give their advice.
FIL is very business minded..so hopefully he can help.
Guy said no to buying the dflat at what I suggested...but is looking into it more at a lower price..I just want rid.
So much for everything happening to try and lower stress levels...I'm going through the roof here.
Don't know what to do.
Will be searching and seeing what jobs are available near my home and see if this whole thing is viable.
Wish me luck.
Another week begins.
Today I have told my CEO I would like to accept their offer.
Was going to sit down with my boss and him and work out figures properly and find out if I have to pay my season ticket..and if the figure I've been told is what I take home next month..if its any lower then I think I'll have to say no..but..
My last day would be the 18th I think of December...nope 17th unless I decide to go to the Christmas party after all.
Need to start looking for work now really.
M and I were talking and if I didn't have my mortgage then I could work for him..but its hard to pay two wages up there so once the flat goes and that massive outgoing goes then we can probably work me into it...but will also need some ideas to get business even busier.
saying all that though I will be looking for other work too and there may be a temp office manager job at a small business in the village...covering maternity..which would be perfect as I would hope that once the lady returns I might be pregnant myself.
M isn't too keen on me having that job as its with his friend..and they have only just made up after a couple of years of a fall out and if anything went wrong it would mean bad feelings again...I told him not to worry..it would only be temp..and it could be good.
Other than that I'll look at all local businesses..I'm not fussy ..as long as I pay my bills and have less travelling time.
It was suggested that with my hours and commuting that it could be having an effect on our chances of concieving...could well be right.
so...looks like as 18th of December I'llb e unemployed....hope to find a job to start in the new year..even if its in tesco.
Exciting time but very scary.
Need the flat rented out and then get it on the market...as long as I make a little on it it will be fine.
Just want rid really.
Want to start my new life, new year a fresh.
Concentrate on having a little bundle.
So getting home last night could have been a night mare if it hadn't been for L and L.
bless them both...they are wonderful.
Got the train from the station easily but once I hit the main village it turned out I had just missed the bus and they come every hour..there are 2 that go from there but the other for some reason the other bus didn't go at that time so rather than every hour there was a break of two hours...i donj't get it..its rush hour..people are leaving work so why..I guess living in the sticks is not good for public transport..anyway..I called L and asked if she would be wonderful and pick me up and take me home..shes works in my village but lives near to where I was...she was on her way home.
she said she would call me back and when she did she said her partner would come and get me.
I was so grateful...;he said that since his accident and getting out of hospital hes been sitting around doing almost nothing so was quite happy for a change of scenery.
Was so nice of him.
He goes back to cyprus..(I think) next week to continue on base...but is back for Christmas.
so glad hes finally almost all better.
it was a long scary road for him.
anyway..got in called the RAC and caught up with my friend J..who has started a new job so don't get to chat to her every day...RAC came..started my car in like seconds and then I waited for M to get home from his course...of course now I'm shattered again!!...
Roll on my last day when I don't have to get up at dibby o clock!
Also have someone viewing my flat today...so fingers crossed they want to rent it..that would take so much pressure off me even if its just a 6 month contract!!
Had my first pee on a stick morning with the monitor..I'm surprised it asked me so early this month..but hey...not going to miss that surge and I'm going to start going for it tonight..really want this month to be it...be so good to be able to give the in laws great news for Christmas.
Nothing to report really..all quiet on the western front.
Settled down to watch Drag me to Hell last night with DBF...was brilliant...was thrilled DBF watched it and really enjoyed it too.
Great film...very funny in places and DBF thought it was scary..but as he knew it wasn't real he could cope..hahaha
It was pretty gross out in places...lots of gunk going in peoples mouths.
loved the ending!
Just how I hoped.
In a good mood today...very tired though..didn't sleep well..but...hey ho.
Looks like DBF is going to get a THIRD bike!!!
WHY????..he now has a racer and an off roaad..and he wants one to do both...hellooooooo
The house is like a blooming bike shop!!!
Then he said yesterday that he was only getting small things for christmas as we had a lot of money to spend out and added he had also spent a lot on himself....I couldn't help but laugh...
Mind you hes saying I'm not to buy him anything at all and to save my money in case work is hard to come by...he is thoughtful.
But thats not going to happen..I may not be getting things for everyone..but I can at least get him something for his stupid bikes and something for his birthday.
Just won't go over board like I did last year.
Cor..can't believe this time next month it will be christmas day!
we'll probably be getting ready to go to his folks if we're not there already.
I love christmas.
Another day closer to O.
Think i'll get my first high tomorrow..at least I think I did on CD 9 last month.
Nothing to report here but I did want to say HAPPY THANKSGIVING ladies.
And my first high of the month...whoop!
I'll be in the 2ww before I know it...yay!!
Got home last night and saw that M's ex had some post...he had also opened it..DOH!!
It was from a loan company offering to help with a County court judgement..ARGHHH!
Now we have had some officail looking letters through which I have returned to sender..but now we need to contact her because there is a chance the judgement is on our house.
Luckily though she hangs out in our group and we actually get on really well..so I emailed another mutual friend to get her to contact us.
Otherwise I'll grab her on Facebook.
Had a nice evening last night...stopped at Tesco to pick up some dinner and we had a lovely chicken dish...M loved it so much he licked the plate..dirty dog.
then we watched Flash forward and the new series of Gaving and Stacy started...whoop!!
Then I slept really well...didn't wake up with any back pain either...wish I could remember how I slept!!!!
Its the weekend now...whoop!!!
Think we are going to my flat to see if it needs any dusting and such..not that we can do much as there are no utitilties...but its an excuse to get out and take the dog to the beach!
that I can't wait for!!
First off I am so happy.
J and G finally had their LO last night..she was nearly two weeks late.
She was born at nearly 2200 by C section.
A name will be forthcoming today.
I am so excited for them..so happy!!!
Secondly...I thought I would get my peak today...pah!!!...probably be tomorrow..the line is getting darker.
Poor M..looks like last night won't be Friday...but saturday...maybe I'll keep that quiet for now...hahahaha
He agrees that we need to go for it this month...just so we don't have to jump on demand..I really hope we do it..what a fantastic Christmas present it would be for all of the family and for me!! LOL
It was funny...on Saturday we had some Afternoon delight in the front room...M had set up a little cushion comfy zone on the sofa while I was in the shower so I had my hips raised through the whole thing.
He filled the dogs kong with biscuits and put him in the kitchen so he didn't disturb us and off we went.
Was great..postition was fab...didn't loose any of the little suckers or anything..we were very impressed..(We'll use that position tonight too..LOL)
Anyway...we played for quite a while and when we were finally done we couldn't understand why the dog was still so quiet..after he has finished his kong normally hes battering at the kitchen door.
M went in and realised he hadn't told puppy he could have it and he had been sitting there for half an hour waiting to be told okay. LOL
Bless him..if only he was that well behaved in general and not just around his food. LOL
Anyway...I the company have now been told I'm leaving...a lot of shocked people..and a few sulking..LOL..its nice to know how missed I'll be.
Still no peak!!!!
If I don't get it tomorrow then I'm going to loose out on the insurance day Boink...as it is we're going to have go til Sunday now whatever..and will have to be early morning Sunday too as M has to abstain for at least 48 hours before our appointment Tuesday...aRGHH...
Guess its about right..last month I seem to have o'd earlier than before so guessing tomorrow is probably right..but omg!! its getting tedious now!! LOL
If I had known I wouldn't get a peak today I would have let him have the night off...but I really don't want to miss the night before the peak as thats the one we seem to miss all the time and it might be an important one.
so fingers crossed the peak comes tomorrow!!
Hes off ona bicycle ride with his friends tonight and I was hoping to get some house work done...but if we end up playing before he goes I'll have to lie on the sofa and not get the stuff done I want to...I guess I can start the housework at about 2000...we'll see what happens..I know he won't be up for it after the ride..he'll be shattered.
I guess if we miss tonight we miss it...would give him time to build up a bit..but I really don't want to risk it.
Anyway...on with the day.
Well I have finally had my peak.
M and I fooled around for ages last night but everytime he got close he couldn't quite finish.
I have still marked that we dtd because you never know..a bit of pre may have come out.
But its so weird..I get my peak yet my temps on the rise...maybe I'll have a dip tomorrow or maybe it will rise again...its so strange as the monitor never gets in tune with the temps.
Just glad we have done it loads and besides the bip last night we are still on track.
When I used my monitor today I realised that it was the last stick..panic stations I can tell you.
Went to Boots to get some more and there weren't any...always when i go there what I want is sold out...but a lovely man went and looked in the stock cupboard and there were some...phew!!!!
Poor old M keeps apologising saying he hopes he hasn't ruined our chance this month...told him not to be silly..Dr said every other day is fine and I'm sure his little men last more than 24 hours and after last night what was left from the night before probably got squidged through.
And it means tonight there will be more as he has had a chance to rebuild his stash. LOL
If its meant to be this month it will be.
I do wish that I hadn't been so full on in the earlier highs though..would have been great to get last night preoperly as thats the night we seem to miss out on most of the the time...but it will be cool.
Will take an opk today today and see what that says.
Don't have any o pains yets..thought I had them a couple of days ago though..weird. LOL
Time will tell if we have a Christmas surprise.
Saw J and G's gorgeous little girl last night.
Oh gosh she is adorable.
J's mum was visiting and J told her she would have to give up the baby for a bit...then proceeded to take her from her mum and plonk her in my arms...oh god I melted...kept thinking I was going to cry..was so choked up.
I was glad that we only stayed about 10 monutes as all I could think was can I sneak her out under my coat.
J said that thats how she felt about G and C and V had him but now they don't have to ask whether they can take their friends baby home because they have their very own.
G said he can't get past just staring at her..the pair of them are in total awe.
I offered little L to M and he shyed away saying not yet not yet..he was so scared he would break her.
I couldn't believe how confident J was with her..when she past her to me it was just so decisive..and no "Hold her head" or anything else..it was lovely..it made me feel so trusted and very proud of her for being such a natural.
Shes had a C section so we were surprised to see her walking around..considering L was only born on Monday..but she said it was actually more uncomfortable to sit for long periods of time.
M was surprised that she stil looked pregnant..he thought once the baby was in the real world the tummy deflated...bless him.
Anyway..I think I've fallen in love.
Out on Friday to wet the babies head...although I'm considering going up to see J and staying in with her and L..maybe V will be there with G and her bump...let the boys get sloshed and we can all sit around cooing.
Well the monitor didn't ask me to insert a stick into it today yet still gave me a peak.
As I had already peed on it i waited to have a look and the lines were dark..yesterday it was quite faint...so looks like my surge is today.
Will do a opk later too and see if thats +, I reckon it will be..so I hope M can manage tonight and tomorrow..and maybe Sunday..although hes starting to hurt now...and even after him not finishing on Wed there was so little..the bonus was it stayed in and didn't come out until I peed this morning..TMI I am sorry..but...
He asked me last night if last night was the last night and was devastated when I said no..I think I have traumatised...my god if we haven't done it this month I think hes going to refuse any more!! LOL
He keeps asking if we can please adopt
He was jesting, but I have to say that is something I would like to do, whether we have one of our own or not.
I would love to have a LO with me who maybe didn't have the best start in life.
Maybe one day we will look into that.
The weekend is upon us...I think we're having a treat of fish and chips tonight..we thought we were having that on Sunday..well I thought Saturday..but have been duly corrected...as M's Aunt Gilda wanted fish and chips and hasn't had it in years as she lives in Italy.
But it turns out MIL is cooking now so we will have the scrummy delights tonight before we go to wet baby L's head...oh thats a point I think I'll text J and ask her if I can hang out with her and L rather than going to the pub..let the boys do all that.
M can then have a rant about me stealing his sperm...LOL
Anyhow...on with the day and I hope everyone has a fantastic weekend.
Not long til Christmas...I want the tree up..M doesn't. LOL