AF is a buggar this month.
I'm very lucky in the fact of not really suffering from PMT..but every now and again I get emotional..and last night was full of me taking things personally and bawling...was glad to get out to puppy class...then he played up there and tried to mouth off at a dog 4 times his size so I had to keep taking him out and excluding him from the class...all he wanted to do was bark..have cuddles from the trainers or play with the girl puppies..ARGHHHH...my head was throbbing by the time I got home..then I took things personally with DBF...but saying that..it was more of a case of him being able to give it and not take it..so when he went serious, rather than telling him to shhhh and diffusing the situation I just got upset...but then he was quite nice after that.
Feeling better today..although tired..and I am very grateful I don't suffer all the time and I have so much pity for the girls who have bad times every month...if pity is the right word.
Anyhow..back to the chirpy lass I am!!
I feel shattered.
AF is so heavy this month that I actually left work early as I had to wash my jeans.
Never have I had one like this...been on the pill since I was 16 so...I guess it means its totally normal now and there is no pill in my system..thats what DBF thinks and hopes..says maybe this would be the first realistic month of ttc so we will go for it.
Very happy that hes as excited as me over ttc.
Got home last night and he told me that he had heard on the radio that we should kiss for at least 3 mins a day...awwww....spent the evening snuggled up watching burn notice and smooching.
Although I am more tired thatn a tired thing on a tired day I feel very loved up.
Barcelona in 2 days!!!
WEll a good morning to all
I feel rather more alive today.
Had a glass of wine with a friend at the station before coming home last night.
Was absolutely shattered when I got home and my head was throbbing.
Curled up with DBF and watched Burn Notice before going to bed.
Dozed in my favourite place for a while which is lying between DBF legs with a cussion on his tummy.
Feet hang off the bed but its so comfortable...not so comfortable for DBF...but he was being so lovely...slept there til about 10pm, then I finally moved to my side of the bed while he watched Big Brother.
Kept waking up to hear the voices on Big Brother so quite surprised I feel as good as I do.
But reckon thats to do with AF being nearly gone...whoop!...that was a nasty one...but still only had 4 days of it...mind you the last couple of days where worth about 10..thought I'd need a blood trasfusion..tee hee.
Off to Barcelona tomorrow and I can't wait.
Weekend starts at 4 today!!
Badminton tonight..then a lie in tomorrow..a bit of housework, a bit of washing..packing...shower and make myself look lovely..then off to the airport at about 5pm...need to be at the gate for 530 pm....I think.
so excited....getting some sun and more seeing my best friend and her sister..going to be a riot.
Will feast on sea food.
I hope everyone else has a great weekend too.
I had a fab time in Barcelona.
Lots of tapas, lots of walking, lots of sight seeing, lots of catching up..and lots of watching the girls get totally hammered and avoiding being included in rounds so I didn't get hammered.
Managed to nurse my drinks long enough to not be offered drinks.
Was so good as everyone was ill in the mornings and I was full of the joys of spring!
The weather was wonderful an the hotel spectacular.
There was a tiny pool on the roof where we had breakfast so we lounged around there for a couple of hours on Saturday.
The girls said they had never seen anything like me before..as in..apparently I just went brown before their eyes...hey...I'm lucky I guess.
We saw Galdis house and shopped...my feet were killing me.
Worse just before I left home to go to the airport I moved weirdly and spasmed my back so spent the weekend limping a bit..but the bed was so nice it seemed to sort me out mostly..get home to our bed and my back is horrid again..we so need a new mattress!!
Not happy being back at work...nothing has been done and have had to call annoyed clients back as noone picked up the reception voicemails since Friday...disgusting.
I am not happy.
On a funny note..on sunday my best frind and another girl and myself were at the marina when an old man saunters by wearing what we thought on first glance were speedos...on second glance we saw it was actually a huge tattoo and he was stark Bollo naked..and his willy was massive..I mean proper to his knees.
We just sat there gawping..whereas noone else batted an eyelid..he even walked past a police car!!
Weird weird weird!!!
Shame to be back really.
But..I'm off to Lake Como Saturday week..so can't moan really!!!
Should geet my Positive o on Friday..so will be playing from Thursday..okay..we've been playing since I got home Sunday...whoop!
I'm giving my all this month.
Feeling positive too!!
Hope everyone had a lovely weekend!!!
Only 2 days to go til o..although I will terst tomorrow just in case...all very exciting!!!
Slept awfully last night.
That stupid mattress hurts!!!
Ended up in the spare room for the last couple of hours so got some sleep...roll on when we get that new mattress.
Michaels says to wait until we are back from Lake Como. We go in a week and a half so I can just about last it out I think...but I'm getting more and more tired through lack of sleep.
I even very nearly fell asleep on the train coming home and I never do that!!
Thank God I haven't O'd yet or I would be reading all sorts into it.LOL
Need a new firm nice lovely mattress.
The only way I'm comfortable in bed is if I lie between DBF legs with a cushion on his tummy.
I guess its because the mattress hasn't sunk there...sadly he can only have me there for an hour or so as its gets uncomfortable on his man bits.
But at least he lets me.
Anyway....not a lot to report today...just the waiting game at the mo.
Had a faint + on my opk yesterday...guessing it will be faint today too and get my blazing tomorrow on day 12 as per normal..although started with the games yesterday to firstly try the instead cup and secondly because I was getting cramps similar to O pains and wondered if I may o early...don't want to miss it so thought..lets get it on.
The cup is okay actually...goes in easily and settles easily.
Caught everything..plus the bit that came out got caught in the cup as I inserted it so I got it all...very pleased.
Left it in over night.
This morning freaked a bit thinking I couldn't get it out...couldn't hook my finger under it..so sat on the loo and strained and it moved down a bit...and I managed to get it...a bit messy coming out...but it seems to do what it needs too.
I would never use them for AF though...that would be totally gross if it split.
It was bad enough like this.
But glad I got it.
DBF just helped me keep my legs in the air..like an upside down sitting position as I slotted it in...was easy.
Lets hope it works...really want to know that mine and Michaels child is growing inside me.
Can't wait to have a little one that is made from both of us.
So pleased I'm off to Italy in 9 days as it means that I won't be obsessing so much as I'll be doing things.
Just have to remeber to avoid seafood and alchohal just in case.
Want to give the potential bean the best start ever!!
Feeling even more tired today as I didn't go to the spare room last night..I just don't want to not sleep next to DBF....he has no problems with the mattress..so I think maybe we should just get a topper.
Maybe I am really a princess and there is a pea on my side of the bed...LOL
Onto search the net for decent cheap toppers or mattresses.
If I don't fall asleep.
Well if the last few months rae anything to go by I should get my + today!! Whoop!!
Will test in abit but I'm taking it as read really.
Still feeling tired..but sleep was a little easier last night.
I got home and Michael and I went to examine our bed...the middle leg wasn't even touching the florr which meant that was the reason the middle frame had snapped and even though it was held up by books the bed would sag when it had our weight on it...so we fixed the middle leg and Michael sorted the break properly.
I was so excited to go to bed as I felt I was finally sleeping flat again.
Did have some back pain during the night..but nowhere near as bad as it has been..so hopefully it will be even better tonight..if not then I guess it is a new mattress...not something either of us want to spend out on but..its either that..or we move bedrooms or we sleep seperately..and when i finally get pregnant I am not sleeping somewhere that hurts me.
Got a house warming do tonight..so I'll nip to Tescos tonight and pick up some bits and bobs then we'll go across the road to our friends.
M has suggested doing a bit of clothes shopping tomorrow for the hol..I asked if we could go to Primark as its cheap and cheerful and I love it..but he doesn't like the area its in..so we may go to Cambridge..I asked if I could get the monsoon dress he had seen and wanted to buy me and he said yes!!..so I'm looking forward to being spoilt..Monsoon have such beautiful dresses.
Plus I need a new bikini as I have put on weight and mine barely cover my nipples..so need a new one..some vests and a pair of shorts too..Primark would be great for that...could get loads for £30..but I guess I'll find another cheapy shop...I'm not proud!..and if I'm getting a Monsoon dress..well thats the extragance.!
Going to an all you can eat buffet tomorrow night too...can't wait..love chinses..haven't had it in ages!!
Then off out with the 'in laws' for Fathers day for lunch I think...that will be nice too.
Then its 4 days at work, Friday will be packing and getting the house nice and then Sat its off to Lake Como...Whoop!!
Can't wait for the good food, good weather, good company and fantastic views!
Good morning to you all!!!
What a top weekend, we had it filled to the brim.
Friday we went to a house warming..their new house is lovely..so airy and fresh...was so nice..the garden is lovely!
We only stayed an hour as I couldn't keep my eyes open...then we just went home and DBF insisted on watching Big Brother and was happy that the guy he voted to go went...hahaha..hes obsessed.
I dozed on the sofa until bed time then had to wake up to Boink....yay!!
Saturday I did housework while M went and did some work and then I finished housework when he went to see a friend. Then we went to an all you can eat Chinese and it was lovely.
We picked up some friends on the way and while waiting for 2 of them we saw a siamese cat on the pavement.
We were discussing how unfriendly these cats can be when it jumped on the bonnet of the car and tried to get in DBFs window..then it walked across the roof and sat on the back window.
We got out of the car and the cat jumped down to get as much love as possible..couldn't believe it...my door was open and it kept jumping in and out...the strangest thing I've ever seen..but also had the awww factor.
Sunday we went to Cambridge and M bought me a gorgeous dress from Monsoon...its gorgeous, its green with thin straps and a floaty skirt. I love him sooo much.
I also picked up a new bikini as mine don't cover my nips any more and some shorts and tops for Italy...very productive.
Then we had lunch/dinner at the in laws for fathers day...was prawn pasta..I love prawns but was very conscious of "What if" so didn't eat too much.
When we got home I got into my pjs ready to just chill in front of come dine with me when our friends called asking us to last minute babysit as they were going out with her dad for Father day..I jumped at the chance although LO was asleep so didn't get to do anything with him other than give him his dummy when he lost it and was crying...was very cute though as he grabbed my hands and wouldn't let go...was worried once I got away he would cry again but was as good as gold and it made my weekend.
Been keeping up with the boinking which is good. Just tonight and tomorrow to go before the Compulsory boinks are out of the way....so then its just for fun although DBF is put off a bit by all of it...bless him...hes not good on demand...but hes as excited as me..so fingers crossed.
Anyway..on with work and see if the managing agents actually return my call over the invoice they sent me...taking money thats not theirs and being very elusive..the sooner I sell that flat the better.
I love it..but can't be dealing with thickos. LOL
I just had a call from my oldest and dearest friend.
He was my puppy love, my first, and has remained close to my heart.
I have known him since I was 6 weeks old..in fact he was the first neighbour I met when Mum and ddad brought me home from the hospital 6 weeks after I was born..I was a premmie weighing 3 pounds....awww.
Anyway..haven't heard from him since last summer when he was drumming at a gig at a horse farm near my home with M.
He just rang me for a catch up..."Lizard" he said "How are you?"
We wibbled on about the trial of working life and what had been happening over the past few months...I told him we were ttc..his response was.." Thats why I rang..I just had a feeling you were pregnant and wanted to find out...but didn't want to just come out and ask"...
What with the two predictions for this month and now his call..my sixth sense believer is ringing...Along with another friend saying I had a dream you were preggers in the summer....well...I really hope that the bond me and Ralphus have...stretches to him being right....how cool would that be....tee heee...
I'm so sad!! LOL......hahahaha
Oh..I feel guilty as anything...poor DBF just couldn't finish last night...had no problem with maintaining if you get what I mean but the goal just wasn't reached..he was really upset..I mean he was joking about it but I know he felt like he let me down.
I said to him that he hasn't..and that if I had my surge on Friday then I would asume I o'd Sat or Sunday as my cycle is only 26 days and it was fine.
He said well wake me before you go to work and we can try again or if I stayed awake while he watched Big Brother he maybe could try again then..but I said to leave it.
I don't want him feeling pressured and I don't want to be so obsessed about it it puts him off.
I know he wants a baby with me as much as I want one with him and if this month isn't our month..well it just means it wasn't meant to be.
Anyway...when i first spoke to a doctor about it he did say that every other day would suffice..so...I'm not too worried..I know that we'll probably play tonight before he goes to the cinema...and one night off isn't going to stop play.
Hes so lovely my DBF...he has his moments..but I'm very happy we are on the same page.
Had my last puppy class last night...again he was a mare to keep attention, but better than last time.
M and I are in discussions about getting him snipped..I think that will solve the problems with attention, but M feels bad about it...but its probably all quite big in his head as we are TTC and he may be thinking about the puppy having his manhood taken away..but does understand its healthier for the little mite.
I will go back to classes once the op has been done and then maybe Rocco will stop just wanting to be with the girls..hes such a tart.
Last day at work thursday..so getting my fix here while I can...its weird I'm not looking forward to not being able to catch up on the girls here and find out whats happening...All I know is that I'll be sending baby dust and sticky vibes to all..and I hope I'll come back to loads of good news for all the ladies and for myself....we shall see.
Over all...life is good!!