Feeling really icky today...and really hungry, but had toast and crisps...going to eat an apple.
My boobs aren't hurting, the just feel a little bit bruised from the the pain I had if that makes sense...but they feel almost normal again.
Feel like AF is going to appear today rather than tomorrow.
Really don't know if its my want to be pregnant thats making me feel so green or whether I'm sickening for something.
I feel so weird.
POAS this morning and still BFN.
Pretty convinced its not my month though..but then I don't believe myself either..confused.
DBF bought me a little positive voodoo doll for clumsiness yesterday to go on my keyring...no idea wherre he found it but its blue and looks like a skinny Mr Bump from the Mister men.
He seems to think I'm really really clumsy..I say forgetful..even over where the stairs are..hahaha
anyway...better do some work.
Don't know where I am as yet.
AF hasn't showed YET!
I normally find her first thing in the morning..besides last month.
Still think shes a coming as I have the tell tale ache in my side and top of my leg.
Keep going to the loo to check,,,a watched pot never boils!!!
just want her here so I can start again..or have today out of the way so I can let my imagination run wild. LOL
POAS again today and still A BFN...I am pretty sure that AF is marching up the garden path...its just taking her longer to get to the door as she has more suitcases than normal. LOL
Had a lovely evening at J's last night...ended up munching on chinese and having a good old catch up.
Tonight shes covering my grey and we're doing facepacks.
Really missed M though...I do not like being away from him thats for sure.
Am really excited too as on one of the boards I frequent here we are going to send a gnome travelling.
Its going to be such fun.
I've order two really cool gnomes...as I'm not sure what they will be like..but it has to light and cuddly...so hoping they are what they say on the box.
Plus I'll pop into town at the weekend and see if I can any others about..I'm going gnome crazy!!
I can't wait to start it off.
Is it silly to get so excited over something so little.
Well it is CD1 for...onwards and upwards!!!
Plus I'm going to put salt around me to keep the witch away next month....I've watched Supernatural!!! hahahahaha
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going to be a mare getting home tonight, but at least I get to leave at 1500 as the journey is going to take a while...got to go all round the houses..not looking forward to it..i can tell you..but got my tacky mags to read!! LOL
I am so tired today..but it is self inflicted..J and I had a girlie night last night..she helped me dye my hair and then we did facepacks....it was great..we snuck around the house and jumped out at the kids..who just though we were weird..hahaha...
then we lay in bed and watch big Brother and had girlie chats..so was a late one...it was so good seeing her..if the strikes are on next week I'll be staying there again..although Wednesday i may go out for dinner with my old work mate/good mate.
apparently M has booked a viewing on a house in the village..i'm excited to see it..but hes talking of putting an offer in..but I feel a little wary as we haven't got either of our properties on the market and I will make quite a loss on mine...especially after paying off my sisters debt (Grr) and sorted out the lease and the windows at the flat...so wouldn't have an awful lot to put in...but saying that...if we were to buy a new house..now is the time before i'm pregnant.
Also..even better..and I like this idea better..he spoke to his mum about us possibly building our own log cabin on his parents property..and he mum says it would be fine...i would so love that...we get to make our home to measure and the log cabins we have seen are gorgeous..we would want it all on one floor..and to top it all its soooo much cheaper than a house!!!.....I wonder what will happen.
I'm really excited.
guess we need to sit down and have a chat tonight.
I have to say as much as i love the house we are in..because I moved into Ms house..all the belongings besides my clothes and the odd items we bought together are in the attic..so it doesn't really feel like my home..I don't have my books or DVDs etc around me..its just my clothes and the rest is all Ms so it would be so nice to be somewhere that I can make home as well..does that make sense.
Whatever..I can't wait!!!!!
Just had a call from the managing agents of the flat I let through and apparently my tenants need to move as they can't find work in the area and their present work commitments have ended..they have found work in luton and a commute is just not feasible....ARGHHHH
Luckily they are signed to my flat til Oct..but I feel bad about that as they have a LO.
Thing is i can't afford to pay the mortgage without the rent....the managing company are putting it straight on the market to find a new tenant..so hopefully we will be able to get a new person and then let the present tenant break the contract.
Its not fair if they have to pay rent twice...I don't know what to do?..I don't want them to suffer..but I did the cash...
Have asked if I can get my property valued...maybe just sell it..its more hassle than its worth..but I'm not going to get what I paid for it..and even if I did I still at a loss...aRGHHHH...just when I think stresses are getting less.....
Last edited by Lizbet22; 07-31-2009 at 07:15 AM. Reason: To Add
We didn't end up looking at the hose in the end...after a bit of a chat we decided that we were shooting way above ourselves...i have to say I am relieved because when I do finally get with child poor old DBF will be footing all bills..so we need to be realisitic.
I want the log cabin..but his mum and dad can't sell us the land..so although we could build there..we couldn't sell it seperately if we ever wanted..so guess thats out too..maybe...I don't know!
Saw the doctor and I do not have a UTI..he wiggled me around a bit and said it looked like it was actually my back.
thank god I have an appointment about my back and joints on the 17th...slept sooo badly last night.
But pleased there is no UTI.
He also said that i should get DBF in for tests in autumn...he said as my cycle was regular that he didn't think I needed tests for Oing as he was 100% sure I o every month..but if her were to do a test it would day 19 as I have short cycle.
He said it was best to get m in first for tests and then they would check for blockages on me..although he said that from my scan a few months ago i looked very nice and healthy..he said to try and keep every thing fun and that it wasn't overly ness to do it every fertile day..he said once or twice would be enough.
I mentioned my cm or lack off and again he wasn't overly concerned..just saud that the sprem will getr where they need to be.
Also said if charting and temping stress me too stop..and with opks as they can make your body stress and prevent concieving.
I told him it didn't really stress me..it was fun and that I had a fantastic support network with all the ladies here and we even made it all fun for each other.
He was cool..he made me relaxed and positive...and made me want to share everything with all you ladies ttc.
hoping that his laid back attitude will help me and others in our journey..if its just briefly.
hugs to you.
hope those ttc get their bundles asap.
Well...it looks like the idea of the log cabin may be a little more feasible than we thought.
M's mum brought it up again yesterday and said a;though we couldn't buy the land from them, if we built it and decided after x amount of years that we wanted to move then they would buy it from us so we didn't lose out.
M was saying if we did this there would be a chance that we wouldn't need to sell his house and could fund it through getting a mortgage on his and then tenants paying rent to pay the mortgage and obviously me and him chipping in here and there.
I would sell my flat and put what I earnt straight into the cabin.
We have looked at some 3 and 4 bed cabins and they are gorgeous.
some come with fitted kitchens and bathrooms..others are just kits that the company will build for us or we can build.
I'm so excited..it would be so wonderful if this could be pulled off.
Obviously subject to planning permission....but its so much cheaper than a house..we get to chose what we want.
Plus we would be closer to his parents..not like we are far from them now...but..instead of 5 mins walk up the road it would be a skip across the field.
I'm happy with the idea of having the in laws near by..I do look on them like my own parents.
Especially as my mum isn't with us and my dad is miles away.
I know they would love for Michael to be that close..means that we have no intention of moving and he and his mum are dad are very close.
I'm so excited.
A new home for a new life and new family.
Fingers crossed we can get this.
6 days til we can start thinking about babies again too....I'm so hoping that we catch the egg this month...would be fab to have a May baby.
I want to start planning my family. The waiting game can be so frustrating.
Life is good..and I so hope and pray everything falls in place.
Its so exciting.
spent yesterday afternoon and this morning looking at timber houses and log cabins.
the company i spoke to today seem a lot more professional then athe others.
Plus it seems cheaper for everything..although the delivery charge and base will knock it up a bit.
Plus they can make to our own spec..
Also although they can make the homes permanant they also do residential mobile homes..which if we chose this would make getting planning permission easier.
this last one we have looked at is absolutely beautiful..even get kitchens and bathroms which look amazing!!!
I mean over all I reckon we're looking at £120,000 all in all...but...for a 3/4 bedroom place new build with veranda and fitting...I think thats pretty amazing...particularly in the area we live when house prices are rocketing.
Away from home tonight nad tomorrow..hate that..but glad to spend time with my friend.
Shame I'm not seeing the girl i was hoping to..but hopefully next week.
Best crack on.
didn't sleep well last night.
Was so so so hot..plus my friends youngest slept in with us too.
Was n't complaining as my friend had a really bad time of it the night before and wanted her kids close.
won't go into dettails as its private..but..lets just say i'm vey glad i'm there tonight as well to keep the wolf from the door.
I ended up sleeping in her eldest bed from about 2am as he had gone over to friends so there was a spare bed....my friend had spread out so far that I was hanging off the edge of the bed...and she had a Queen size bed..haha
My back hurts lots and i feel like I have a trapped nerve on the lefy now too..roll on hodpital week after next!!
Missing M lots and can't wait to see him tomorrow.
Not sure whether to let him know whats been happening or whether it will worrt him.
But don't like keeping things from him.
Anyway...to work to work!!
At least there is a gnome who is having fun round the office..LOL
My IT guy isn't in though..so wondering if my memory card will go in a memory stick...hmmm
I am so tired.
My back played up so badly last night..
I'm fine when I go to bed and then after a couple of hours of sleeping I awake to a severe ache on my lower right back..I just can't get comfortable..I turn over and it throbs more...after dropping off and waking at least a dozen times I finally sat up in bed and that helped me get a bit of sleep..but this happens almost every night..sometimes its less severe..sometimes i get to sleep through but still have to peel myslef out of bed and walk around until it subsides.
Its doing my head in...I can't deal with the amount of broken nights sleep I'm having.
I'm scred its something to do with my kidneys...but if it were it would go on all day wouldn't it?
Not wear off once i have been mobile for 10 minutes.?
I hurt..i'm tired.
I'm also worried that having pains like this could affect TTC....when i wake up my belly is always hard and bloated almost like I've been lying rigidly..plus i feel like my belly is tretching constantly and i have pains like Ovulating pains on and off all the time.
sorry to moan but I'm just fed up with it...guess I need to ride it out til I see the consultant..but...I need my sleep!!!!
Well I am in in a far better mood today.
Sleeping half sitting seems to be working for me..and after reading some of the ladies responses I am going to try sleeping with a pillow between my legs too.
Weekend was great.
Got home Friday and Michael told me to hurry up and shower or we'd be late for the restaurant!..what a nice surprise..he had missed me and decided to spoil me.
Saturday was housework and chilling and he went out with his friend so I was home alone and loving it.
sunday I did us a fry up and out house guest Jada Lada Ida Happybottom joined in..much to Michaels disgust...he is not amused at having agnome in his bed..ahahahaha....
will upload the pics later...not in bed though.
anyway..its CD 12 today..should have +opk tonight and tomorrow!!..so we need to get to it..plus i need to sort my alrm for early early Wednesday morning as its the last time we get to baby male as I'mmstaying london again due to train striles..so really hope that all we have done and all we will be doing over the next couple of days will be enough.
DBF drew a baby and a bean on my tummy yesterday..so looking on that as good luck and trying to avoid washing it off...
Oh...just had it pointed out to me that my hospital appoinment is next Monday...thank God my boss is on the ball!!
Missed out yesterday..had the dentist and got to work late.
not a lot to report really..expect pretty sure I'm out this month.
Ended up getting my + yesterday and not Monday as expected..so may have a even better + today too..although I hope I don't as it would mean I have more chance of catching the egg if i'm not still waiting to O...if I o today then there is a chance of getting the egg i guess.. and I am having o like pains.
My reasons for all this is that although I woke at 4am to play with DBF..he wasn't that responsive..or rather was but couldn't finish...
We did get it in yesterday morning though...but now I won't see him til Friday and by that point the egg will be gone..or fertilised if we are very very lucky!
I don't know...feel really fed up today...no sense of humour..he just rang me due to a totally unrelated thing and started saying he was shattered and it was ll my fault...I said well at least he got to go back to bed..I had to get up and go to work...he said it wasn't his problem.
I apologised and he said bye and i said bye and hung up..he rang back saying saying I hung up on him..i said I didn't he said it was a bit sharpish and he was only kidding..blah blah blah!!
Feel all cryie and horrid...do you get emotional around O time?
Pah...stopping tyoing as I'm at work and mascara running isn't a good look...aRGH!
may write again in a bit when feeling more like me!