I feel shattered.
AF is so heavy this month that I actually left work early as I had to wash my jeans.
Never have I had one like this...been on the pill since I was 16 so...I guess it means its totally normal now and there is no pill in my system..thats what DBF thinks and hopes..says maybe this would be the first realistic month of ttc so we will go for it.
Very happy that hes as excited as me over ttc.
Got home last night and he told me that he had heard on the radio that we should kiss for at least 3 mins a day...awwww....spent the evening snuggled up watching burn notice and smooching.
Although I am more tired thatn a tired thing on a tired day I feel very loved up.
Barcelona in 2 days!!!
WEll a good morning to all
I feel rather more alive today.
Had a glass of wine with a friend at the station before coming home last night.
Was absolutely shattered when I got home and my head was throbbing.
Curled up with DBF and watched Burn Notice before going to bed.
Dozed in my favourite place for a while which is lying between DBF legs with a cussion on his tummy.
Feet hang off the bed but its so comfortable...not so comfortable for DBF...but he was being so lovely...slept there til about 10pm, then I finally moved to my side of the bed while he watched Big Brother.
Kept waking up to hear the voices on Big Brother so quite surprised I feel as good as I do.
But reckon thats to do with AF being nearly gone...whoop!...that was a nasty one...but still only had 4 days of it...mind you the last couple of days where worth about 10..thought I'd need a blood trasfusion..tee hee.
Off to Barcelona tomorrow and I can't wait.
Weekend starts at 4 today!!
Badminton tonight..then a lie in tomorrow..a bit of housework, a bit of washing..packing...shower and make myself look lovely..then off to the airport at about 5pm...need to be at the gate for 530 pm....I think.
so excited....getting some sun and more seeing my best friend and her sister..going to be a riot.
Will feast on sea food.
I hope everyone else has a great weekend too.
I had a fab time in Barcelona.
Lots of tapas, lots of walking, lots of sight seeing, lots of catching up..and lots of watching the girls get totally hammered and avoiding being included in rounds so I didn't get hammered.
Managed to nurse my drinks long enough to not be offered drinks.
Was so good as everyone was ill in the mornings and I was full of the joys of spring!
The weather was wonderful an the hotel spectacular.
There was a tiny pool on the roof where we had breakfast so we lounged around there for a couple of hours on Saturday.
The girls said they had never seen anything like me before..as in..apparently I just went brown before their eyes...hey...I'm lucky I guess.
We saw Galdis house and shopped...my feet were killing me.
Worse just before I left home to go to the airport I moved weirdly and spasmed my back so spent the weekend limping a bit..but the bed was so nice it seemed to sort me out mostly..get home to our bed and my back is horrid again..we so need a new mattress!!
Not happy being back at work...nothing has been done and have had to call annoyed clients back as noone picked up the reception voicemails since Friday...disgusting.
I am not happy.
On a funny note..on sunday my best frind and another girl and myself were at the marina when an old man saunters by wearing what we thought on first glance were speedos...on second glance we saw it was actually a huge tattoo and he was stark Bollo naked..and his willy was massive..I mean proper to his knees.
We just sat there gawping..whereas noone else batted an eyelid..he even walked past a police car!!
Weird weird weird!!!
Shame to be back really.
But..I'm off to Lake Como Saturday week..so can't moan really!!!
Should geet my Positive o on Friday..so will be playing from Thursday..okay..we've been playing since I got home Sunday...whoop!
I'm giving my all this month.
Feeling positive too!!
Hope everyone had a lovely weekend!!!
Only 2 days to go til o..although I will terst tomorrow just in case...all very exciting!!!
Slept awfully last night.
That stupid mattress hurts!!!
Ended up in the spare room for the last couple of hours so got some sleep...roll on when we get that new mattress.
Michaels says to wait until we are back from Lake Como. We go in a week and a half so I can just about last it out I think...but I'm getting more and more tired through lack of sleep.
I even very nearly fell asleep on the train coming home and I never do that!!
Thank God I haven't O'd yet or I would be reading all sorts into it.LOL
Need a new firm nice lovely mattress.
The only way I'm comfortable in bed is if I lie between DBF legs with a cushion on his tummy.
I guess its because the mattress hasn't sunk there...sadly he can only have me there for an hour or so as its gets uncomfortable on his man bits.
But at least he lets me.
Anyway....not a lot to report today...just the waiting game at the mo.
Had a faint + on my opk yesterday...guessing it will be faint today too and get my blazing tomorrow on day 12 as per normal..although started with the games yesterday to firstly try the instead cup and secondly because I was getting cramps similar to O pains and wondered if I may o early...don't want to miss it so thought..lets get it on.
The cup is okay actually...goes in easily and settles easily.
Caught everything..plus the bit that came out got caught in the cup as I inserted it so I got it all...very pleased.
Left it in over night.
This morning freaked a bit thinking I couldn't get it out...couldn't hook my finger under it..so sat on the loo and strained and it moved down a bit...and I managed to get it...a bit messy coming out...but it seems to do what it needs too.
I would never use them for AF though...that would be totally gross if it split.
It was bad enough like this.
But glad I got it.
DBF just helped me keep my legs in the air..like an upside down sitting position as I slotted it in...was easy.
Lets hope it works...really want to know that mine and Michaels child is growing inside me.
Can't wait to have a little one that is made from both of us.
So pleased I'm off to Italy in 9 days as it means that I won't be obsessing so much as I'll be doing things.
Just have to remeber to avoid seafood and alchohal just in case.
Want to give the potential bean the best start ever!!
Feeling even more tired today as I didn't go to the spare room last night..I just don't want to not sleep next to DBF....he has no problems with the mattress..so I think maybe we should just get a topper.
Maybe I am really a princess and there is a pea on my side of the bed...LOL
Onto search the net for decent cheap toppers or mattresses.
If I don't fall asleep.
Well if the last few months rae anything to go by I should get my + today!! Whoop!!
Will test in abit but I'm taking it as read really.
Still feeling tired..but sleep was a little easier last night.
I got home and Michael and I went to examine our bed...the middle leg wasn't even touching the florr which meant that was the reason the middle frame had snapped and even though it was held up by books the bed would sag when it had our weight on it...so we fixed the middle leg and Michael sorted the break properly.
I was so excited to go to bed as I felt I was finally sleeping flat again.
Did have some back pain during the night..but nowhere near as bad as it has been..so hopefully it will be even better tonight..if not then I guess it is a new mattress...not something either of us want to spend out on but..its either that..or we move bedrooms or we sleep seperately..and when i finally get pregnant I am not sleeping somewhere that hurts me.
Got a house warming do tonight..so I'll nip to Tescos tonight and pick up some bits and bobs then we'll go across the road to our friends.
M has suggested doing a bit of clothes shopping tomorrow for the hol..I asked if we could go to Primark as its cheap and cheerful and I love it..but he doesn't like the area its in..so we may go to Cambridge..I asked if I could get the monsoon dress he had seen and wanted to buy me and he said yes!!..so I'm looking forward to being spoilt..Monsoon have such beautiful dresses.
Plus I need a new bikini as I have put on weight and mine barely cover my nipples..so need a new one..some vests and a pair of shorts too..Primark would be great for that...could get loads for £30..but I guess I'll find another cheapy shop...I'm not proud!..and if I'm getting a Monsoon dress..well thats the extragance.!
Going to an all you can eat buffet tomorrow night too...can't wait..love chinses..haven't had it in ages!!
Then off out with the 'in laws' for Fathers day for lunch I think...that will be nice too.
Then its 4 days at work, Friday will be packing and getting the house nice and then Sat its off to Lake Como...Whoop!!
Can't wait for the good food, good weather, good company and fantastic views!
Good morning to you all!!!
What a top weekend, we had it filled to the brim.
Friday we went to a house warming..their new house is lovely..so airy and fresh...was so nice..the garden is lovely!
We only stayed an hour as I couldn't keep my eyes open...then we just went home and DBF insisted on watching Big Brother and was happy that the guy he voted to go went...hahaha..hes obsessed.
I dozed on the sofa until bed time then had to wake up to Boink....yay!!
Saturday I did housework while M went and did some work and then I finished housework when he went to see a friend. Then we went to an all you can eat Chinese and it was lovely.
We picked up some friends on the way and while waiting for 2 of them we saw a siamese cat on the pavement.
We were discussing how unfriendly these cats can be when it jumped on the bonnet of the car and tried to get in DBFs window..then it walked across the roof and sat on the back window.
We got out of the car and the cat jumped down to get as much love as possible..couldn't believe it...my door was open and it kept jumping in and out...the strangest thing I've ever seen..but also had the awww factor.
Sunday we went to Cambridge and M bought me a gorgeous dress from Monsoon...its gorgeous, its green with thin straps and a floaty skirt. I love him sooo much.
I also picked up a new bikini as mine don't cover my nips any more and some shorts and tops for Italy...very productive.
Then we had lunch/dinner at the in laws for fathers day...was prawn pasta..I love prawns but was very conscious of "What if" so didn't eat too much.
When we got home I got into my pjs ready to just chill in front of come dine with me when our friends called asking us to last minute babysit as they were going out with her dad for Father day..I jumped at the chance although LO was asleep so didn't get to do anything with him other than give him his dummy when he lost it and was crying...was very cute though as he grabbed my hands and wouldn't let go...was worried once I got away he would cry again but was as good as gold and it made my weekend.
Been keeping up with the boinking which is good. Just tonight and tomorrow to go before the Compulsory boinks are out of the way....so then its just for fun although DBF is put off a bit by all of it...bless him...hes not good on demand...but hes as excited as me..so fingers crossed.
Anyway..on with work and see if the managing agents actually return my call over the invoice they sent me...taking money thats not theirs and being very elusive..the sooner I sell that flat the better.
I love it..but can't be dealing with thickos. LOL
I just had a call from my oldest and dearest friend.
He was my puppy love, my first, and has remained close to my heart.
I have known him since I was 6 weeks old..in fact he was the first neighbour I met when Mum and ddad brought me home from the hospital 6 weeks after I was born..I was a premmie weighing 3 pounds....awww.
Anyway..haven't heard from him since last summer when he was drumming at a gig at a horse farm near my home with M.
He just rang me for a catch up..."Lizard" he said "How are you?"
We wibbled on about the trial of working life and what had been happening over the past few months...I told him we were ttc..his response was.." Thats why I rang..I just had a feeling you were pregnant and wanted to find out...but didn't want to just come out and ask"...
What with the two predictions for this month and now his call..my sixth sense believer is ringing...Along with another friend saying I had a dream you were preggers in the summer....well...I really hope that the bond me and Ralphus have...stretches to him being right....how cool would that be....tee heee...
I'm so sad!! LOL......hahahaha
Oh..I feel guilty as anything...poor DBF just couldn't finish last night...had no problem with maintaining if you get what I mean but the goal just wasn't reached..he was really upset..I mean he was joking about it but I know he felt like he let me down.
I said to him that he hasn't..and that if I had my surge on Friday then I would asume I o'd Sat or Sunday as my cycle is only 26 days and it was fine.
He said well wake me before you go to work and we can try again or if I stayed awake while he watched Big Brother he maybe could try again then..but I said to leave it.
I don't want him feeling pressured and I don't want to be so obsessed about it it puts him off.
I know he wants a baby with me as much as I want one with him and if this month isn't our month..well it just means it wasn't meant to be.
Anyway...when i first spoke to a doctor about it he did say that every other day would suffice..so...I'm not too worried..I know that we'll probably play tonight before he goes to the cinema...and one night off isn't going to stop play.
Hes so lovely my DBF...he has his moments..but I'm very happy we are on the same page.
Had my last puppy class last night...again he was a mare to keep attention, but better than last time.
M and I are in discussions about getting him snipped..I think that will solve the problems with attention, but M feels bad about it...but its probably all quite big in his head as we are TTC and he may be thinking about the puppy having his manhood taken away..but does understand its healthier for the little mite.
I will go back to classes once the op has been done and then maybe Rocco will stop just wanting to be with the girls..hes such a tart.
Last day at work thursday..so getting my fix here while I can...its weird I'm not looking forward to not being able to catch up on the girls here and find out whats happening...All I know is that I'll be sending baby dust and sticky vibes to all..and I hope I'll come back to loads of good news for all the ladies and for myself....we shall see.
Over all...life is good!!
Its official..I have broken DBF.
Need to somehow get the pressure off him.
When I got in last night he asked if I wanted Nook Nook...of course I said yes...but didn't say that it was for fun only as I thought he might withdraw his offer...I love making love with DBF so any chance I'll jump at it.
So we played but again he didn't finish..I told him not to worry and fessed up it was for fun only.
He said oh...I thought that it would help as we missed yesterday..bless him.
I said don't worry..I said I feel bad because I broke him..he reassured me just said he was tired and his ankle hurt after his run.
And I'm sure we've done all we can do this month so once we're away it will be fun and nothing serious.
hoping his trip to the cinema chilled him out a bit and I really hope he doesn't feel guilty.
It will happen when it happens eh?
Getting a few digging pains in my ovaries and a dull throb over my right leg..or feels like it there...but it keeps swapping sides so I doubt its anything to get excited over..but my boobs do feel a little weird..got a ache which is so dull I can barely feel it..but its there...could be normal though...I tend to read into every ache and pain and then think... oh it happened last month as well.
So trying not to obsess
Anyway...must get on...got lots to do today in preparation for hols.
May see if its possible to get tomorrow off too as my team meeting is today..that would be sooo cool.
Boss has said I can go on leave as of 1600 today!!
Dancing around my desk!!!
DBF says it gives me more time to do the housework..I said "Talk to the hand cos the face ain't listening"
I get a lie in tomorrow!!!!
Oh a week of no posting..:(
Hey ho...will look forward to hearing all the news from everyone when I return...
I'm off to Lake Como..
Holiday was wonderful..weather wonderful..although so hard to sleep at night..but it was lovely.
Our friends little boy just reaffirmed how much I want a child with M..he was an angel..totally.
Only grizzled Fri and Sat and that was because it was like 39 degrees in the shade and even I was grizzling.
He was so happy and lovely and cute.
We ate too much and the others drank too much, I avoided alchohal other than the odd glass of wine on occassion..just in case..and to keep the body clear.
Came back to baking weather here too...was even harder to sleep.
This morning when I got up DBF asked for a cuddle as it was cooler and he doesn't like how we sleep on seperate sides of the bed when its hot...so had a quick cuddle.
AF found me again..so we are doing all we can this onth.
I have ordered a basal thermometer...will get DBF some folic acid too as apparently its good for sperm..I've cut out ALL caffeine now and am drinking only water..and we're not going to go every day over my fertile period just the crucial and every other day once AF has flown away.
This TTC is knackering..emotionally and physically...but it will be worth it.
Anyway...positives...we drove to St Moritz in Switzerland on Thursday..just because we could..and it was so beautiful...we stopped at a little beauty point to take some pictures before we hit the top...there was this bug..it was horrible...it was all floppy antennanes and arms and legs and big bulgy belly...we decided to get in the car and drive far away from it..it was the scariest thing I've ever seen...anyway...just as we're pulling off, V says "Michael its got in your window"..and promptly tickled his neck...DBF almost crashed the car and screamed like a girl....we laughed so hard...if you knew DBF then hes one of these people who winds everyone up by doing this sort of thing and thinks nothing can touch him..so there were many high fives around the car!!! LOL
V and C's little boy loved tunnels..as soon as we went through one all you could hear was giggling..it was a lovely sound.
Anyway..its all back to reality now.
Not a lot to report today.
Still catching up at work...getting back into the swing of things.
I think I ran over a squirrel today on my way to the station....horrible...stupid thing wouldn't just run in a straight line was circling and I couldn't slow down enough or swerve so I think I squidged it..I hate it when that happens..I love squirrels.
When i lived in London we had a friendly squirrel that my dear old mum caould Freddie..we thought it was a boy til she brought her kids to visit..she would actually come into our kitchen and try and open the cupboard that had the nuts if that didn't work she would come into the living room and get either mine or mums attention to go and feed her.
She would actually sit on our laps and eat.
When mum passed away I hid a lot in my room so the neighbours didn't keep knocking and one day Freddie appeared in my bedroom, just to let me know she was there and then pegged it out of the window in mums room and wai6ted at the back door for me to feed her...how cute eh?
Was sad to leave the house for her.
Anyway..there is my ramble of the day!!!
No TTC goss today though.
The witch has flown today...whoop!!!!
Now its just waiting to O...and to get DBF in the mood!!!
I'm in a particularly good mood today...I love coming into work and reading this site...I have to say I'm so happy I found it...the ladies here are fantastic...I really hope that the cyber friendships I seem to be making grow and grow...you guys are fantastic.
M decided that having the puppy sleeping on the sofa with us when we're curled up wasn't hygenic..I have to agree..but I do love having my ball of fluff on my lap.
But...I have to say that lasy night having him on the floor seems to have calmed him down a little...he wasn't all over us, vying for attention or trying to chew us...and although he seemed a little sad, I have to say good on DBF...he had yesterday off so was obviously very consistant with Rocco...so there wasn't any problem.
Posted some of the holiday pics on FB last night...and the day before...DBF's sister commented on one of us all in Switzerland with little G in his buggy asking when we were going to give her a nephew....I just responded Hahahahaha....not ready to let that one out the bag yet...wait until we have a BFP until we let people know our plans....my family know we are trying, but M's doesn't and we want to keep it that way or else there will be added pressure..my family are quite laid back..whereas M's would be a little over excited me thinks..anyway..its nice to surprise them.
Anyway..on with the day...
Another day begins..another day closer to O..another day closer to that little bean.
Nearly the weekend and I can't wait...going to see Bruno....really looking forward to it..I love sasha thingmajig!!
DBF had his bro over last night...he was in show off phase so I went up to watch tv in bed, removed myself from the situation..he finally came up and apologised...we had bickered over dog fur....Mad....said he loved me and that was that...then as I switched the tv off to go to sleep all i could hear was the tv downstairs and the boys laughing and talking...sound carries really badly from the living room to the bedroom..I went downstairs and asked very nicely if they could keep it down as I was going to sleep..DBF told me to 'shut up'..went back upstairs and they were still being loud, so I went to the spare room as the sound doesn't carry to there and had a fab nights sleep...DBF isn't happy...I guess he was also ratty through dropping the cigs and I should take that into account..but wow..sometimes he just does my head in..MEN!!
I don't mind if he wants to have a go when we are on our own, but when he goes off in front of people it makes me look and feel bad...
He talks to me like that in front of our potential LO and there will be hell to pay.
Anyway..I'm sure it will be all fine when I get home with his memory stick.
Shame we're not playing badminton tonight...that would relieve the tension.
A quiet day at work today as everyone is out of the office for an Away day..so I'll be able to knuckle down and get on with some Health and safety stuff, without stupid questions being thrown at me.
Have to say I feel good today as I had such a good nights sleep..only thing is I forgot to get the thermometer which I left by my bed with a pad and pen..so didn't start the temping last night...Pfff..hey ho...always tomorrow morning.
Spoke to my dad last night and really want to go and visit..but its going to be hard as DBF is really busy with work for the next 5 weeks..the B and B is full so he has to work weekends....don't really want to go alone..but if needs must..we'll see.
Hope to my big brother soon too..missed his birthday as I was away..maybe I'll take him for dinner after work one evening.
Thank crunchy its Friday.
Wish I wasn't here today..although I was in bed at about 2030, it wasn't a good sleep as I cried myself to sleep...DBF was stressing over the dog eating a plant of his..I can understand that its frustrating as he has nutured this plant..but he thinks the dog has got something wrong with his brain and that he should have calmed down by now and shouldn't be destroying things or being so hyper.
I keep explaining that because we are not consistant its our fault..I keep saying that we have to be vigilant in training but he says its not so..I can't do it alone..if I don't let him jump up and he does than its mixed messages surely.
DBF says that the dog shouldn't jump at visitors and I say but if they did as I asked and just ignored him for 5 minutes then he would calm down...I know it means guests can't sit down for 5 or 10 min when they get in, but surely standing up and turning their back and NOT touching the pup when hes trying to get attention for such a short length of time is better than pup getting attention and jumping all over them all evening??
But no...I'm wrong as always.
Thats not fair of me actually as once DBF had calmed down he did say he agreed with Some of the things I said.
Anyway..as rows go I'm then told I don't pull my weight..WTF??...he vaccuums and cooks..I do everything else..he wants me to do it all because I'm a woman and should be house proud...I said I'm out of the house 12 hours a day...I come home and clean the kitchen after hes cooked and made a huge mess and clear up where things are bad..weeknds I do ALL the washing, clean the kitchen again, sweep floors clear tables....sort out the bedrooms..but he wants me to clean and vacuum after work...helloooo.....hes home more than me why can't he do it.
If he was a clean addict as in did it all then I would have no problem..but he doesn't...
He told me to look at some of our friends places and how clean they are..I pointed out that they have cleaners!!!!!!...still didn't shut him up...hey ho.
So petty and silly...
I told him I would talk to a girl and work and also my puppy class people to see if they will have Rocco..he keeps changing his mind..i text this morning about it and I have just got a text saying ask about what???
I love him and 90% of the time hes great..but hes such a male chauvinist pig..and he has no patience what so ever...
Sorry this has turned into a moan fest...guess I just need to get it of my chest.
He did apologise last night..but sometimes when the words are out there it still hurts for a while.
Anyway....we're going to the pictured tonight and getting a bite to eat before hand so hopefully we can put it all behind us.
We have a strong relationship and I guess you need a few barneys to clear the air at times.
He just needs to learn how to talk to people, because its not just what he says its how he says it...and he did admit that because he was stressed he was picking on me...so thats a step forward eh?
He said we need to kiss and hug more too...so lets see...:)
Sorry for the rant.
I'm good now.
2 days to go til O...whoop!!!!!!!!
Nearly in the 2ww!!
Weekend was great..DBF and I backed each other up with puppy and remained consistant and its already having an effect...plus not letting him on the sofa has worked a treat too...so all is lovely in the Essex household!!
Saw Bruno on Friday..very good but not as good as Borat and not for those easily offended...was cringingly good. LOL
We had chinese too that evening..yummy..:)
Sat we got a new puppy gate so puppy has a little more room to run about in when we are out so he doesn't just stay in the kitchen plus M put a carpet in there and it looked so cosy...watchiung the cat do the leap of faith to get to her litter tray outside is fun to watch.
She seems fine with it though.
Yesterday I did all the housework and ironing..or the stuff I didn't do Saturday and then drove to Chelmsford to get a runner for where puppy sleeps as the carpet Michael put down was very light and would get dirty..so surprised him by doing the drive...he had decided he wanted the rug not the runner though..so I got the wrong thing..if only he had told me..but he said he didn't think I was going to go and get it..I said it was the last thimg he asked me before he went to work..he said that I had said no..I said I wanted to surprise him..hahaha..any way it looks good anyway.
Then we went to Cambridge to get a new grapevine to replace the one puppy ate and had a great lunch at Scotdales...was a great weekend and DBF was being very lovely and cuddly.
I love it when everything is disneylandesque!!
Hope everyone had a top weekend.
Oh oh oh....I brought my great grandmothers engagement ring into work today to see if I could get the band changed on it and to get it restored...sadly as it is so old and well worn and there is a crack in the Emerald they can't restore it...apparentley heat and Emeralds do not mix...but he said that it would be possible to remake using the orinaginal stones and the stones could be polished...got a quote on that and it was £1200 I nearly fainted..the ring is only worth £400/£500.
The other option was to resize it to my size so then once M and I decide to get engaged we can use this ring..because ultimately when that happens I want this ring with all my heart.
Was told it is an 18th century ring.
they know because it has plantinum top to the ring. I mean most of the band is 18 carot but coming up to the diamonds its platinum..and it isn't hallmarked properly and apparently that came in in the 1900's.
So its very antique.
I ask M if he would be happy to pay for my birthday present in September and luckily he agreed...went very quiet when I said about £1200 to remake..but remaking would make it not the same ring...shame its gold gold as I don't like the colour but the band is thing and the platinum is more prominant so not complaining.
Only thing is I wanted to pass it down to my kids for when the got engaged and make it a family heirloom, but i won't be able to do that as its well worn already.
You never know I may be able to do something in years to come...but I love that its an antique.
Anyway..very happy that I'm getting it resized.
I'm a size H and a half!!! tiny!! LOL
Will get my positive tomorrow around 2pm...woooohoooo...so nice to be able to know thing by the minute..I am very very lucky!!
Had a nice evening..drove straight up to DBF's folks house from the station to meet him in the gym shed and have a work out..did half an hour on the cross trainer...had my special tummy melter on..its thick belt that helps you sweat off more calories...couldn't work out what was dripping on my foot and though it was sweat from my chin...gradually I got a patch on my dress that looked like a pee patch and it was growing..(Yes I did a work out in a little floating dress and plimsols LOL) and when I stopped it was sweat from the belt..it was gross..LOL...DBF said maybe I should keep gym wear in my car..hahaha
We went home had some dinner, played with puppy and watched 'Lie to me' then went to bed....decided againt boinking as was tired and DBF was watching tv so wasn't interested..thought that is was fine as tomorrow is O day.
Got woken in the early hours by DBF and though Whooohooo!!
So we started for this month...whoop!!
Bring it on!!!!
Not a lot to report today.
Picked up my great grandmothers engagement ring yesterday afternoon after having it resized.
They had polished it up and the band wasn't wonky and Oh My God..it is soooo beautiful...so want to wear it..but not until we diecide to get engaged..thing is now I want to get engaged..hahahaha...was going to ask M last night if I could wear it..but chickened out..I think TTC is a big enough step without pushing engagement on him...especially when its only because I want to wear the ring. LOL
I will want to be engaged when I pregnant..but no rush for that yet...marriage isn't top of the agenda, I just want the same surname as our bubba.
I love M to pieces and I know we are striving for a lifetime so no need to rush.
But the ring!!!!...its so so so beautiful!!!...square emerald with chips of diamonds bordering them...the band is a thing 18 carot gold and there is platinum leading up to the stone on the band...I love it...it is so beautiful!!
I should o in a few hours...yay!!!
I guess my little egg has been released now..or should be any minute...feeling the little pinch this morning.
Got a baby boink in last night although we were laughing most of the way through it.
I can't remeber how it started but I asked M if I could wear my ring..he said I could do what I wanted..I said oh..does that mean we're engaged..he said NOOOOOOOO...and laughed hard..and then the conversation went a full circle...but this time when I said are we engaged he just laughed...so the seed is planted...I'm hoping another seed is too. LOL
I'm guessing he'll be chatting with his mum today over whether we should get engaged....I really hope so..LOL
Off to see Harry Potter tonight!! Can't wait..then another play when we get in and then we'll have done all we can and its down to fate again...I'm assuming I'm in the 2ww..or rather 13 day for me..I dpo tomorrow by my guess.
Not doing well at the temping need to get used to it..but we will see what happens.
Hmmm...got another +opk yesterday...so not sur if it was on its way down and I o'd yesterday too..or whether I o toady or whether I am currently Oing....got the twinges...but not as full on as normal...just the odd sharp spike that takes my breath away.
Have to say I'm pleased though as it widens that window a little bit...only hope DBF is up for another session tonight..poor dude was talking of pressure last night again and wanted me to do all the work incliding getting him up...doesn't make for a sexy night when its like that...but as I've said before..my drive is higher than his anyway...hey ho...
Saw Harry potter last night..it was fab!!
Won't go into it as I know lots of people want to see it.
There was an amazing storm last night on the way home too...the lightening was beautiful.
We went to KFC before the film and there were loads of flying ants..I sid to DBF that that means there is going to be a huge storm..and it happened...he said I should be a weather girl...LOL
Hope everyone has a fab weekend.
Had a lovely weekend although the weather was rubbish...got lots of housework done and we moved the football table out of the dining room...the room looks so much bigger..DBF is putting the laptop etc in the alcove where the plants were and the plants or on the other side of the room..it looks really good.
We have been looking into log cabins too for a potential new home...the ones we have seen are so beautiful and you can make them to your requirements and are so much cheaper than houses which means there is a chance neither of us would have to seel our properties and I could continue to rent mine and he could start to rent his...the rent from his could potentially covr the mortgage.
His folks have a lot of land and we would ask them if we could build on one of the fields.
DBF said it may be hard as we would have to buy the land as gifts like that are hard to get and there is a lot of tax to pay.
Also hes not sure if they would want us to build there..I said wait until I get pregnant and they will be more than happy for us to live there as we would be only a few seconds walk from them instead of 5 mins..LOL
I said to DBF wheter he thought we could make it a reality and I was really into that idea and I was excited but he thinks its just a pipe dream really...but you never know!!
Been temping all last week and I have to say I'm sure I'm doing something wrong...its like the swizz mountain range up and down everyday...had a dip the day of my first +opk..which didn't make sense..then i had a couple of ups and downs then I had a huge rise..which if I ent just on the surge etc I would have expected to say i had O'd..I also had a couple of glasses of wine which probably did it..but yesteray morning I was back down in the 97's and the same today...I don't know if I o'd or not..I can only go on my surge really.
Also a bit worried I'm getting a UTI again as I have been peeing alot...yesteray I peed when I got home from the IN laws but I actually peed myself a little bit while laughing...(DBF was pretending to eat the dogs dinner and he was jumping around barking telling DBF o leave his food alone so I pushed DBF head in it, he got some on his mouth..it was sooo funny)...then again within half an hour..then again half an hour later when I was running a bath..then while waiting for it to run I peed 3 more times within minutes and it wasn't a little squirt either...not a full wee but ebough..then I was up and down until I went to sleep.
To early for that to be a pregnancy symptom...so confusing!
a wee again now!!!!
i guess whatever happens happens...I'll try and stick at the temping and see if I can get it any more accurate....its hard to do as I have ben waking up during the night and not knowing if I should temp then as i need more than 3 hours sleep to do it..and..maybe thats why I'm waking up as I'm panicing over doing it right.
Yhink I'll stick to my +opks!!
Temp went up lots again today..did as someone suggested and just did it when my alarm went off...see what happens tomorrow with it.
My gland under my right armpit is starting to swell again...a little earlier than normal..or maybe i just haven't noticed it this early before..but prtty sure that says i'm out..but a friend of mine said last month that how could I know for sure..I've never been pregnant so don't know if that gland would come up or not..fair answerreally..but...can't visualise me being preganat..sometimes i feel like I'm just playing and its all make believe.
Not sure if that makes sense.
Had SIL over last night, was good to see her..shes fab...dog was even well behaved and I was surprised to find SIL giving him fuss rather than saying to get him away...good sign of puppies behaviour and our training.
Got the personal lesson tonight that should help things even more.
One of our friends has Swineflu...they have been treating their son for it too..but now they know the dad has it....this swine flu lark is just getting silly. Its really scary too....especilly as a lot of people don't even know they have it.
Thing is he was supposed to go and see a match in Peterborugh with another friend and can't go..so M was invited..I had to say no as we are having the trainer round and he and i really need to do this together...guess he isn't too bothered..he hates footie..but I know he would have liked a lads night..hey ho..can't be helped.
Had the private puppy lesson last night..which was actually just sitting down and discussing what to do with rocco...he was going crazy over S...behaved worse than he has for the last two weeks...jumping on her..licking her jumping on the chair behind her..managed to cut her face too..not sure if it were claws or teeth...mind you she didn't notice i had to tell her she was bleeding..he was just so happy to see her.
She said it was because he classed her as aplaymate and had always fussed him at class which was something she shouldn't have done.
We got a plan together on how to cure the seperation anxiety...which is just making sure we don't fuss him before we leave, we have to put him in his room about 20 mins before we go anywhere and just go about our business with no contact..that over time should help.
Also if yhe misbehaves while we are out like chews up something we CANNOT punich him...something I have been trying to get through to DBF...not sure if we are going to be able to maintain this as DBF wasn't feeling well and hid in the bedroom until S had left...hmmmmmm
Saying that though he did say if I right a ground rule list he will abide by it...will do that today and I hope that he does.
We can only tell Rocco off if we catch him in the act and telling him off is verbally, no spanks!
Its going to be hard work, but if we work together then we should be good.
Appaerntly rocco has bonded overly well with DBF hence him getting more upset when he leaves..and that I need to work on my leadership skills as Rocco at times doesn't show respect for me..normally when hes showing off in front of friends...LOL
When its just us or regular visitors hes okay....
DBF laptop is playing up at the mo..for some reason it won't see the wireless network at home..but does at his mums..so we have his friend over tonight to have a look and to have dinner...be good to see him.
not a lot to report....no feelings on the baby front yet...feel normal....only time will tell.
Nothing to report at all today really.
Had a bad tummy ache last night but that was because my jeans were too tight..hate it when that happens..its sooo painful..so went to bed and left DBF and his firned downstairs.
Nothing really different this month...i guess the only thing is that I love the smell of fast food on trains at the mo and normally I hate it.
Oh and I hated the smell of dinner last night nad normally I love it..but that one was probably due to my tummy ache.
Nothing has me swinging eiethr way...but my fertility thing from Dr Amy says implantation would occur around tomorrow..so too early anyway.
I'm getting slight cramps bu thats normal too for me after I o...I tend to have aches and pains almost comnstantly.
M's friend brought his dog over last night so the dogs had a whale of a time playing...have to say I left them all to it and went to bed..but its nice to know the dogs had fun and DBF had his laptop fixed. LOL
Before I left work yesterday i got a very sharp pain above my left ovary..I went to the loo and saw some brownish streaks on my undies.
Nothing on the tp.
started getting very excited.
Got home went to the loo and double xhecked..then when I wiped there was a bit of colur..wiped again and it was like a pinprick of red and then a bit more...something clicked in my head..and I pressed on that damn ingrowing hair that has been a bit cysty and low and behold it was that..ARGHHH
Glad its finally decided to pop...but I got so excited...hey ho!! hahaha
Its nearly the weekend! Whoop!
Got a wedding reception to go to tomorrow...should be fun.
Hope you all have a top weekend.
Well...my boobs are killing me...very sore to touch...can't read too much into it as i have had painful boobs in the past with AF.
Also feeling very queasy this morning..but not sure if its because I want to feel quesy..if that make sense.
Also so tired...went to a wedding on Sat so had a reasonabley late night..plus a couple of glasses of rose wine...but ended up sleeping in til after 9am..then slept for a couple of hours at DBFs sisters too.
Feel sooo tired.
Lets hope I'm not ailing for anything...some friends have had swine flu and looks like another has just come down with it...so lets hope my sypmtoms are either PMT of pregnancy...was going to POAS today and totally forgot..hey ho will try tomorrow....
Weekend was great.
Tried my hand at cheese cake on Friday...white chocolate at that..and forgot to add the eggs..had just put it in the oven when I realised...so pulled it up and whisked up the eggs adding them one by one and stirring them into thew cake....hmmm....came out with a white chocolate omelette on top...hahahaha...was edible...but...I'm such a numpty!!!!
Well tomorrow is the last day of this cycle...i wonder what will happen thursday
Boobs still painful..they are really diagreeing with my bra.
Have to say that there is one thing that I have noticed that is a bit different..tmi ahead...stop reading for those grossed out...I get sore boobs on and off..sometimes painful sometimes just achey..but I have both my nips pierced and they do get a little bit of crust around the piercing most of the time..but..the last couple of days its been alot and I'm having to clean alot and they feel quite sore when I turn the piercings...particularly my left one...in fact just nudged it as i put the phone down and it made me wince...oh I don't know...i'm obsessing...I even peed on an opk last night to see if there was anything..got a faint line and went crazy...:ROFL:
did hpt and opk this morning and both snow white.
Hey ho 48 hours til d day!!!
Still fel a tad queasy today, but not as bad as yesterday.
DBF said he thought I looked pregnant yesterday...he was referring to my fat tummy!! LOL
Anyway..not a lot to report really.
Very tired, but slept badly s my back played up again..wondering if its a AF sign when I startgetting all this pain as i have been reasonabley okay in bed..still have an achey back but nothing like to day..woke at 0445 and had to keep getting up and stretching.
Feeling really icky today...and really hungry, but had toast and crisps...going to eat an apple.
My boobs aren't hurting, the just feel a little bit bruised from the the pain I had if that makes sense...but they feel almost normal again.
Feel like AF is going to appear today rather than tomorrow.
Really don't know if its my want to be pregnant thats making me feel so green or whether I'm sickening for something.
I feel so weird.
POAS this morning and still BFN.
Pretty convinced its not my month though..but then I don't believe myself either..confused.
DBF bought me a little positive voodoo doll for clumsiness yesterday to go on my keyring...no idea wherre he found it but its blue and looks like a skinny Mr Bump from the Mister men.
He seems to think I'm really really clumsy..I say forgetful..even over where the stairs are..hahaha
anyway...better do some work.
Don't know where I am as yet.
AF hasn't showed YET!
I normally find her first thing in the morning..besides last month.
Still think shes a coming as I have the tell tale ache in my side and top of my leg.
Keep going to the loo to check,,,a watched pot never boils!!!
just want her here so I can start again..or have today out of the way so I can let my imagination run wild. LOL
POAS again today and still A BFN...I am pretty sure that AF is marching up the garden path...its just taking her longer to get to the door as she has more suitcases than normal. LOL
Had a lovely evening at J's last night...ended up munching on chinese and having a good old catch up.
Tonight shes covering my grey and we're doing facepacks.
Really missed M though...I do not like being away from him thats for sure.
Am really excited too as on one of the boards I frequent here we are going to send a gnome travelling.
Its going to be such fun.
I've order two really cool gnomes...as I'm not sure what they will be like..but it has to light and cuddly...so hoping they are what they say on the box.
Plus I'll pop into town at the weekend and see if I can any others about..I'm going gnome crazy!!
I can't wait to start it off.
Is it silly to get so excited over something so little.
Well it is CD1 for...onwards and upwards!!!
Plus I'm going to put salt around me to keep the witch away next month....I've watched Supernatural!!! hahahahaha
going to be a mare getting home tonight, but at least I get to leave at 1500 as the journey is going to take a while...got to go all round the houses..not looking forward to it..i can tell you..but got my tacky mags to read!! LOL
I am so tired today..but it is self inflicted..J and I had a girlie night last night..she helped me dye my hair and then we did facepacks....it was great..we snuck around the house and jumped out at the kids..who just though we were weird..hahaha...
then we lay in bed and watch big Brother and had girlie chats..so was a late one...it was so good seeing her..if the strikes are on next week I'll be staying there again..although Wednesday i may go out for dinner with my old work mate/good mate.
apparently M has booked a viewing on a house in the village..i'm excited to see it..but hes talking of putting an offer in..but I feel a little wary as we haven't got either of our properties on the market and I will make quite a loss on mine...especially after paying off my sisters debt (Grr) and sorted out the lease and the windows at the flat...so wouldn't have an awful lot to put in...but saying that...if we were to buy a new house..now is the time before i'm pregnant.
Also..even better..and I like this idea better..he spoke to his mum about us possibly building our own log cabin on his parents property..and he mum says it would be fine...i would so love that...we get to make our home to measure and the log cabins we have seen are gorgeous..we would want it all on one floor..and to top it all its soooo much cheaper than a house!!!.....I wonder what will happen.
I'm really excited.
guess we need to sit down and have a chat tonight.
I have to say as much as i love the house we are in..because I moved into Ms house..all the belongings besides my clothes and the odd items we bought together are in the attic..so it doesn't really feel like my home..I don't have my books or DVDs etc around me..its just my clothes and the rest is all Ms so it would be so nice to be somewhere that I can make home as well..does that make sense.
Whatever..I can't wait!!!!!
Just had a call from the managing agents of the flat I let through and apparently my tenants need to move as they can't find work in the area and their present work commitments have ended..they have found work in luton and a commute is just not feasible....ARGHHHH
Luckily they are signed to my flat til Oct..but I feel bad about that as they have a LO.
Thing is i can't afford to pay the mortgage without the rent....the managing company are putting it straight on the market to find a new tenant..so hopefully we will be able to get a new person and then let the present tenant break the contract.
Its not fair if they have to pay rent twice...I don't know what to do?..I don't want them to suffer..but I did the cash...
Have asked if I can get my property valued...maybe just sell it..its more hassle than its worth..but I'm not going to get what I paid for it..and even if I did I still at a loss...aRGHHHH...just when I think stresses are getting less.....
We didn't end up looking at the hose in the end...after a bit of a chat we decided that we were shooting way above ourselves...i have to say I am relieved because when I do finally get with child poor old DBF will be footing all bills..so we need to be realisitic.
I want the log cabin..but his mum and dad can't sell us the land..so although we could build there..we couldn't sell it seperately if we ever wanted..so guess thats out too..maybe...I don't know!
Saw the doctor and I do not have a UTI..he wiggled me around a bit and said it looked like it was actually my back.
thank god I have an appointment about my back and joints on the 17th...slept sooo badly last night.
But pleased there is no UTI.
He also said that i should get DBF in for tests in autumn...he said as my cycle was regular that he didn't think I needed tests for Oing as he was 100% sure I o every month..but if her were to do a test it would day 19 as I have short cycle.
He said it was best to get m in first for tests and then they would check for blockages on me..although he said that from my scan a few months ago i looked very nice and healthy..he said to try and keep every thing fun and that it wasn't overly ness to do it every fertile day..he said once or twice would be enough.
I mentioned my cm or lack off and again he wasn't overly concerned..just saud that the sprem will getr where they need to be.
Also said if charting and temping stress me too stop..and with opks as they can make your body stress and prevent concieving.
I told him it didn't really stress me..it was fun and that I had a fantastic support network with all the ladies here and we even made it all fun for each other.
He was cool..he made me relaxed and positive...and made me want to share everything with all you ladies ttc.
hoping that his laid back attitude will help me and others in our journey..if its just briefly.
hugs to you.
hope those ttc get their bundles asap.
Well...it looks like the idea of the log cabin may be a little more feasible than we thought.
M's mum brought it up again yesterday and said a;though we couldn't buy the land from them, if we built it and decided after x amount of years that we wanted to move then they would buy it from us so we didn't lose out.
M was saying if we did this there would be a chance that we wouldn't need to sell his house and could fund it through getting a mortgage on his and then tenants paying rent to pay the mortgage and obviously me and him chipping in here and there.
I would sell my flat and put what I earnt straight into the cabin.
We have looked at some 3 and 4 bed cabins and they are gorgeous.
some come with fitted kitchens and bathrooms..others are just kits that the company will build for us or we can build.
I'm so excited..it would be so wonderful if this could be pulled off.
Obviously subject to planning permission....but its so much cheaper than a house..we get to chose what we want.
Plus we would be closer to his parents..not like we are far from them now...but..instead of 5 mins walk up the road it would be a skip across the field.
I'm happy with the idea of having the in laws near by..I do look on them like my own parents.
Especially as my mum isn't with us and my dad is miles away.
I know they would love for Michael to be that close..means that we have no intention of moving and he and his mum are dad are very close.
I'm so excited.
A new home for a new life and new family.
Fingers crossed we can get this.
6 days til we can start thinking about babies again too....I'm so hoping that we catch the egg this month...would be fab to have a May baby.
I want to start planning my family. The waiting game can be so frustrating.
Life is good..and I so hope and pray everything falls in place.
Its so exciting.
spent yesterday afternoon and this morning looking at timber houses and log cabins.
the company i spoke to today seem a lot more professional then athe others.
Plus it seems cheaper for everything..although the delivery charge and base will knock it up a bit.
Plus they can make to our own spec..
Also although they can make the homes permanant they also do residential mobile homes..which if we chose this would make getting planning permission easier.
this last one we have looked at is absolutely beautiful..even get kitchens and bathroms which look amazing!!!
I mean over all I reckon we're looking at £120,000 all in all...but...for a 3/4 bedroom place new build with veranda and fitting...I think thats pretty amazing...particularly in the area we live when house prices are rocketing.
Away from home tonight nad tomorrow..hate that..but glad to spend time with my friend.
Shame I'm not seeing the girl i was hoping to..but hopefully next week.
Best crack on.
didn't sleep well last night.
Was so so so hot..plus my friends youngest slept in with us too.
Was n't complaining as my friend had a really bad time of it the night before and wanted her kids close.
won't go into dettails as its private..but..lets just say i'm vey glad i'm there tonight as well to keep the wolf from the door.
I ended up sleeping in her eldest bed from about 2am as he had gone over to friends so there was a spare bed....my friend had spread out so far that I was hanging off the edge of the bed...and she had a Queen size bed..haha
My back hurts lots and i feel like I have a trapped nerve on the lefy now too..roll on hodpital week after next!!
Missing M lots and can't wait to see him tomorrow.
Not sure whether to let him know whats been happening or whether it will worrt him.
But don't like keeping things from him.
Anyway...to work to work!!
At least there is a gnome who is having fun round the office..LOL
My IT guy isn't in though..so wondering if my memory card will go in a memory stick...hmmm
I am so tired.
My back played up so badly last night..
I'm fine when I go to bed and then after a couple of hours of sleeping I awake to a severe ache on my lower right back..I just can't get comfortable..I turn over and it throbs more...after dropping off and waking at least a dozen times I finally sat up in bed and that helped me get a bit of sleep..but this happens almost every night..sometimes its less severe..sometimes i get to sleep through but still have to peel myslef out of bed and walk around until it subsides.
Its doing my head in...I can't deal with the amount of broken nights sleep I'm having.
I'm scred its something to do with my kidneys...but if it were it would go on all day wouldn't it?
Not wear off once i have been mobile for 10 minutes.?
I hurt..i'm tired.
I'm also worried that having pains like this could affect TTC....when i wake up my belly is always hard and bloated almost like I've been lying rigidly..plus i feel like my belly is tretching constantly and i have pains like Ovulating pains on and off all the time.
sorry to moan but I'm just fed up with it...guess I need to ride it out til I see the consultant..but...I need my sleep!!!!
Well I am in in a far better mood today.
Sleeping half sitting seems to be working for me..and after reading some of the ladies responses I am going to try sleeping with a pillow between my legs too.
Weekend was great.
Got home Friday and Michael told me to hurry up and shower or we'd be late for the restaurant!..what a nice surprise..he had missed me and decided to spoil me.
Saturday was housework and chilling and he went out with his friend so I was home alone and loving it.
sunday I did us a fry up and out house guest Jada Lada Ida Happybottom joined in..much to Michaels disgust...he is not amused at having agnome in his bed..ahahahaha....
will upload the pics later...not in bed though.
anyway..its CD 12 today..should have +opk tonight and tomorrow!!..so we need to get to it..plus i need to sort my alrm for early early Wednesday morning as its the last time we get to baby male as I'mmstaying london again due to train striles..so really hope that all we have done and all we will be doing over the next couple of days will be enough.
DBF drew a baby and a bean on my tummy yesterday..so looking on that as good luck and trying to avoid washing it off...
Oh...just had it pointed out to me that my hospital appoinment is next Monday...thank God my boss is on the ball!!
Missed out yesterday..had the dentist and got to work late.
not a lot to report really..expect pretty sure I'm out this month.
Ended up getting my + yesterday and not Monday as expected..so may have a even better + today too..although I hope I don't as it would mean I have more chance of catching the egg if i'm not still waiting to O...if I o today then there is a chance of getting the egg i guess.. and I am having o like pains.
My reasons for all this is that although I woke at 4am to play with DBF..he wasn't that responsive..or rather was but couldn't finish...
We did get it in yesterday morning though...but now I won't see him til Friday and by that point the egg will be gone..or fertilised if we are very very lucky!
I don't know...feel really fed up today...no sense of humour..he just rang me due to a totally unrelated thing and started saying he was shattered and it was ll my fault...I said well at least he got to go back to bed..I had to get up and go to work...he said it wasn't his problem.
I apologised and he said bye and i said bye and hung up..he rang back saying saying I hung up on him..i said I didn't he said it was a bit sharpish and he was only kidding..blah blah blah!!
Feel all cryie and horrid...do you get emotional around O time?
Pah...stopping tyoing as I'm at work and mascara running isn't a good look...aRGH!
may write again in a bit when feeling more like me!
Yup...even better + today!!
Dark as a dark thing can be...guess that means I o tomorrow...my left ovary is stabbing me...wonder what the chances are that if we do the do Friday late afternoon that we still have a chance..or if there are any little men waiting still...I really hope Ms men live for 3 days!!!!
Looks like i'm a day behind this month..normally I'm on 2DPO.
Means my LP is shorter..hope that doesn't affect anything.
Well feeling in a lot better mood today.
although I am tired from lying in bed gossiping til silly o clock..but was good to see my friend..haven't seen her since November properly.
Staying at J's again tonight..which will be nice..I can fall asleep early there.
There isn't a lot to say today...
All quiet on the western front.
Shame I'm away from home as I can't temp as the times get messed up..but guess when I get back I'll find myself in a higher temp range....then I can see if we did manage to get it right this month or whether my fears are valied.
Would be cool if we got it right..although DBF would never shut up about how much I worked him previously when we only needed to do it once..hahaha..that would be my luck...my ears would be ringing. LOL
Its almost the weekend..yay!!!!
i cannot wait for a lie in and an evening tonight just relaxing.
My tummy has been hurting lots.
Woke up at 0535 with a pain so horrible...it was just like when I had the UTI...was gutted too as I didn't have to get up til 0610 this morning!! Pah!
Ended up on the loo for half an hour.
Its mostly gone now but feel a bit tender on the inside..doesn't hurt when touched though.
Since coming off the pill and ttc to comcieve all I seem to get all month long is some kind of aches and pains...does my head in.
My wrist is sarting to hurt too...limited movement on it!
Had this last year..had all kinds of blood tests etc..thank God I have the appointment on Monday...thank god its monday and not Thursday like I thought!
sometimes I fee like I'm 80 not 35!!!
And here we are again.
Had my hospital appointment yesterday.
all is in order.
I do have hyper mobile joints..but its nothing to be concerned about.
He said stretching and paracetamal..but its probably something i've just got to live with.
He did want to do an xray..but being in the 2WW we decided to wait and see if AF shows..once shes appeared then I can book an xray.
But other than that...no answers really.
I did take a paracetamal before bed last night and I slept soundly..so thats good.
DBF bought me some deep heat too..but sadly I can't use it...allergic to aspirin and they say not use if pregnant..so don't want to try it in case..also..with the allergy..well that would put me in hospital anyway..so its just the tablets.
told DBF that i couldn't have an xray and bless him he thought I was teasing him and trying to say I was already pregnant...he looked so hopeful and happy..I can't wait to give him a baby..I know he'll be thrilled.
Weekend I felt so grumpy..work had annoyed me sooo much by one dragon woman trying to treat me as her departments skivvy!
I have my own work to do and I'm not wasting hours stuffing their envelopes!...wouldn't mind if I was asked...in fact I relish helping out.
but when I have an email forwarded to me which I wasn't supposed to see insinuationg my work is not important and I am to do ALL this departments minial work..well..luckily my boss agrees that the email shouldn't have been sent round the department....Grrr...was so angry..its played on me all weekend!
Luckily they haven't asked for my help today because I might just tear someone a new A hole.
Made it worse on Friday..when I had spent 2 hours stuffing their stupid envelopes to be told that they had to take them back as the girl who had given them to me had put the same post code on ALL the letters!!!
Felt sorry for my boss! LOL
Anyway...other than that its been okay.
Had FIL's birthday so we had a nice roast beef dinner and just chilled with them.
Rocco has not wanted to leave me alone this weekend either..so cute...hes been sitting at my feet just staring at me making the oddest sounds...sounded like Gizmo from the gremlins..plus he keeps trying to climb into my lap.
Guess I smell of food!! LOL
Been kind of avoiding writing so I don't obsess too much.
Very glad I didn't too as I think my obsessing would not have paid off.
Was getting very excited as my gland hadn't showed and was getting no normal AF symptoms.
But Saturday the gland popped up..although today is popped back in again and I don't know if I'm sore because I strained my arm trying to get the umbrella on the garden table up.
I don't know...I could say there are other symptoms like gums bleeding or feeling a bit icky..temp going sky high today...but then I have had all this before..(Except temps..but then i woke a few times and its really hot at the mo) so basically I think the only way to tell for is whether I get a BFP or not..and so far its BFNs..so its 90% onto next cycle...but its all good.
Had my bro over at the weekend..was really nice to see him...introduced him to DBFs family and we sat in their garden so the dog could run about with their dog.
The weather was absolutely amazing!!
Its all been really quiet of late really...I am soo tired though...with the hot weather I'm sleeping less easily..and I forgot to take my pain killer before bed so my back was hurting...OMG..what a moany entry!!
Can't moan..life is good..I'm good...will see if it gets better!!!
Well AF is officially a day later...no sign this morning either..although I believe she will show up today..as I got my LH surge a day late I reckon it means my cycles up by one day.
All tests are BFNs.
So its just the waiting game.
Boobs are tender..gland is up a bit..all signs of AF.
Been feeling nauseaus..but then..I seem to be feel nauseas all the time.
Anyway..pretty sure if I were going to get a BFP I would have it by now...so guess my scycle is just changing.
So will wait it out..but if my cycles a bit longer..then I would be due on on my birthday next month..so it could be a nice present. LOL
Saying all that though..I just wish AF would get here as its doing my head in!!
ARGHHH,,,,,shes being very evil this month..very evil!!
Its actually 14 DPO..not 13!!
And so she slies through the window this morning.
Hey ho..better to know than that waiting.
Onto the next cycle and lets hope that brings good news.
DBF is being very sweet...seems to think we almost did it this month...and we are getting closer to the goal..like his attitude.
Hes being very cute.
Just had the floorplans for the cabin want updated and they have asked me to confirm so they can draw up the elavation plans.
Its very exciting...we should have the assessment back in a couple of weeks if the elavation plans are done as quickly as the floorplan!
Over the last few months i had thought the BCP was out of my system as after an initial day of brown AF I would have a day of red and then it would again petter off into brown and then stop.
Well..yesterday when AF made her prescence known it was pink..then when I went to the loo it was bright red...now today it is still bright red...feel like I am bleeding soo much.
but the thing is..I feel really happy with it..its like all the times I thought that my periods were back to normal...that actually they weren't quite and that this is my first full out period.
I can't believe how healthy its making me feel...stupid thing to get excuted over isn't it..but..there you go..small things..small minds and all that.
Feel like I could sleep for a week though..LOL
Very glad I am finishing work in an hour..then I can get the chores out of the way and relax...eat things with lots of iron...hmm..think I've done that already with 4 bars of dark chocolate..and I'm not a chocolate person..so..
Hey ho..its nearly the weekend and i so hope that this AF is the beginning of the perfect cycle....time will tell!! LOL
Af has left the building now and its just to wait for my little egg to leave the departure lounge.
Have to say at the moment I have next to no sex drive...Which is very odd for me...but I'm sure it will come back.
Need to get it back of DBF will feel like i'm just after his men..LOL
Had a nice weekend but have had a headache since sunday..was really bad Sunday and has just been a little bit since then...maybe I'm tired.
Saw my friend on saturday and it was lovely.
pregnancy really suits M...she looks radiant and her and her hubby are so excited.
they are also very jammy.
She came of BCP about a year ago and have been using condoms since.
One evening after gettinga little tipsy they decided not to use a condom..R said to M that she knew what could happen...she was like..nah..not the once it won't..we wouldn't be that lucky...and lo and behold..first time..only time she gets pregnant...I said to her shes a jammy mare...but so happy for them..they will make the most amazing parents..they have the type of relationship you would strive to have with your SO...its amzing the way the interact with each other..they make me feel so loved up when ever I see them.
Didn't go to the hen party due to my headache...don't think I'm too popular about that...but I really don't know the girl very well and I'm sure she wouldnt miss me...a couple of the others girls seems a bit annoyed...they said how was I supposed to make friends in the village if I didn't go..well...maybe there is a point but I was ill and really couldn't face a night of drinking and whatever.
Feel quite guilty..but...what can you do.
Got her wedding this saturday..and I'm looking forward to it...feel more comfortable around a mixed group..I tend to get on better with the lads in the droup then the girls..i mean a couple of the girls are fab...I don't know.
got a lovely new dress for the wedding..love it...plus I'll wear it to the Denmark wedding in October.
so many weddings...on the 19th I have my best friends wedding in cork...the bridesmaid dress should arrive over the next couple of days..need to find a dressmaker to take the hem up a bit...but can't wait to see her walk down the aisle...she'll be a beautiful bride.
anyway..onto a days work now.
What a lovely weekend.
The wedding we went to was amazing.
Even the speeches were good.
The father of the brides speech was very short but actually amde me cry it was beautiful.
He had a letter that the bride had written him when she was a wee nipper..he said he had had it on his wall at work for 20 plus years and it summed everything up..he read a little..it said I love my daddy and my daddy loves me...so cute..he was crying and the bride was crying and I was crying..and lots of people were...it was lovely.
the reseption was held at the grooms dads place..it was huge..like a country estate...the house was like a manor.
Had two wooden log cabins off to the side..one in which the groom himself used to live and that was huge too.
They had a massive garden fenced off with so many roses growing it was like a fairytale and then they had massive of land around it.
there were at least 50 cars parked on one side..and then the other side was the marquee...which was massive and heated.
they had posh portaloos...with music and flowers and they smelt nice!
the Bride was beautiful..her dress was amazing.
The Groom so happy.
They were so happy they sneaked off to consumate their marrige but didn't close the door...you can guess what happened...hahahaha...bless them..good thing they aren't shy.
Its CD 12 for me today so should get a + today or tomorrow...going to test when i get home tonight.
Trying very hard to take it easy this month.
Just relax and not put pressure on DBF..although saying that he is chomping at the bit to get started.
Especially since another of our friends has just told us she is pregnant again.
she was worried about telling me in case I was upset.
Mad woman..I'm over the moon.
Its not like we have been trying for ages and ages and that we are disheartened...it will happen when it happens.
I can't imagine myself ever not being happy for someone or being upset just because we aren't pregnany yet.
Hey..each new pregnancy I see brings me and M closer to the front of the queue for our little one.
DBF asked me if I liked the name Frodo the other day..told him it sounded like a Lord of the Rings character and what with his surname...which would rhyme...no nono!!!
He did mention the name Gabriel though...too much Heroes!! LOL
But I like that..so we have 2 boys names now...guess I know what DBF would like as first born. LOL
Life is good.
One more full week at work then I'll be missing in action from the 17th, back on the 23rd.
I have my best friends wedding to go to in ireland..the bridesmaid dress arived on Friday and it is sooo gorgeous..oops..haven't tried it on yet and need to see if I have to take it up as I'm a short bum!
Then we get back on the 20th and I'm off until the 23rd as my birthday is the 22nd...can't wait..I really hope my darling mum remembers and sends me a baby for my birthday as i would be testing on my birthday!!
How cool would that be.
Anyhooo..onto my days work!!!
Hope everyone had a top weekend!
and no +opk yet..again I'll try tonight..I think I got my + on day 13 last month...or 14...can't remeber...hey ho..extra chance of having the little men waiting!!
Today is my 100 post in my journal...have I really been trying for this long!....scary!!
Not a lot to report really.
Erm...shopping tonight as we have no food and DBF has been making dinners up out of nothing..have to say i am impressed though.
Puppy continues to pee in the kitchen...not proper pees but marking and DBF is stalling having him snipped...I can see where he is coming from..but then he can't see my side of the arguement...I guess I have a couple of months to convince him it is for the best..and quite frankly I'm sick of mopping the floor at 5am every morning.
i know getting him done doesn't guarentee an end to this terrotorial marking..or his hyperness..but it does lower the risk of testicular cancer and the poor thing having all these urges that he can't do anything about...Maybe I'll just book him in and see what happens...maybe not..it is a decision for both of us and I can't just undermine him...can I?
No....wrong way of thinking.
Nearly time for my Best friends Wedding...just over a week til I fly out there...I am so excited.
My best friend is all grown up.