Well last night was as comfortable as being in a foriegn enviroment can be. But it is always interseting to see how the other half live. My DH gig was at a mansion on the brisbane river. They had hired a marquee the same size as ther back yard so that the band had some place to set up and the people could dance. It was none the least a real eyeopener.
DH and I were put in an ucomfortable situation when a very drunk sixteen year old (yep it was that kind of party where mum and dad don't care what there children are upto under there noses) started aksing us about our sex life and are we going to have children, was I pregnant, and when are we going to have them. I seriously wanted to tell her that was none of her business but at that stage all I could to was laugh at her. I think if I didn't I would of said some nasty things probably to a nice girl. But it leads me to wonder does groing up in an eviroment of having every thing, allows children to grow up faster than they really should.
As this girl was under the asumption that if the boy buys you something nice, like flowers or jewlery that means that the sex will be good. And that really made me sad to think that a sixteen year old thought that way or needed to think that way. I just hope she dosent think that sex is only good when a present of love is given.
Any way I just hope that I will have a lovely bundle of joy this year or be carring one by next New years eve.
There is not much happening on the ttc front except for bding. Today is the IL 30th wedding anniversary. So dh and I did the right thing and drove up to there home (100km away) for todays festivities. While princess Alice, dh sister arrived very late, after all the other invited guests had arrived despite having ment to come up with us. To make matters worse we had all gone intogether for there present, so we had to wait til she arrived to give it to them, even though I had done all the work of putting it together and organising the card and wrapping. It is very hard to come up with a creative way to wrap A4 size papers. Then she wanted to hand it to them so of course she got all the credit for it despite Dh and I doing all the work. AAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !!!!
But other than that little spoil things went very well. Still dropping hints for them that we are planning to have children very soon. As much as PA annoys me I really needed her advice about a couple of things like baby asprin and the robatussim that is spoken about frequentaly on these boards. Becuase she studies Pharmacy and works in a private hospital that has little public pharmacies I was hoping she could tell me about the availability of these things here in aust. But she arrived late and we had to come home early this evening so dh can start back at work tommorrow. NO MORE HOUSE HUSBND
I will back to being a house wife who works two days a week now x-mas is over.
At least I will have going to the gym to fill in my day.
Must go for a swimm tommorrow I have not been for a month. OPPS
First I would like to thank all thoose who put forward the remakes about the robatussim. Especially Kris for adding the link about the information for dosage and why some women need to use it. Ok thats enough of my awards ceromony speach.
I thought it was all in my head or that I wasn't being aroused enough after I had the early stages of cervical cancer removed. (There was a long wait til we were allowed to BD again.). The only frustration now is that proseed is not easily available here down under yet. And couldn't we have used it last night. Talk about frustration and ruining the mood. But the twist gets better by lunch time today the robatussim had started to work it's magic. I have gotton my first real EWCM
I am so excited. but we have our house guest again and DH won't perform if we have visitors. But thats ok i might be able to convince him later about it.
I have been very good lately with my exercise though. I have swimming the last two day and I had a really good session at the gym. And I am still in shock about the amount of energy I have. It is wonderful not to wake up tiered every day. And need a rest by mid afternoon.
Ok I have to say first my burst of energy did not last long. It is 11 am and I have already had my first nana nap for the day. Yep it is time to strangle the old fatguie problem. But given the amount of exercise that I did yesterday and the fact that I worked last night, should I really be surprised? Given all that i am going for a swimm this avo and I must rember to a least put sunscrean on my face!
With all that said and done I had a very empowering day yesterday I got up the courage to start asking for referalls to see a gyno/obs about ttc and the time it is taking and not ovulateing. I first rang Arthritis Queensland, becuase I had been to a meeting before x-mas where they had spoken about a wonderful gyno/obs who looked after women who have arthrits but know one had his contact details or name with them, only to find they are still closed becuase of x-mas and the new year. As a voluntry based organisation you can kind of understand. So I rung my nornal gyno/obs and spoke to his receptionist about things. I first asked about needing a referal and she said I would need one for Medicare purposes. I must of let out a big sigh becuse she asked who my Gp was and I told her. She than understood where I was coming from. My GP hates writting referals for any thing. So I told her I have a back up plan, another GP I saw when I was younger, who doesn't bulk bill any more not even for pensinors. But all well should end well by next week. I made two appointments yesterday One to see another Gp, Who is a colleague of my normal GP and the other to see my Gyno/obs.
But after having said all that I put in my temps this morning with FF, it came back saying I was 3dpo, I was in shock yet excited all at the same time so it really was a big moment. Even DH was still home to share that news with me. I just hope we have bd enough to catch that little eggy.
Just a quick update.....
FF has now put my ovulation date forward a day so I am still three days past ovulation.
Oh and Yes I still went for my swim yesterday afternoon.
I found out that my DMother has got herself a new job. Not sure what doing or where but she has a job again. So there goes any chance of her doing my iroing, yes she ws going to be paid for it. But is good news none the less,
Ok just a quick update on the scarey things in life.... Pain. As I mentioned in an earlier post that DH fears pain. Well the surgery he had before x-mas didn't work. So I am not sure where that leaves us now as I am not to thirlled if we have to wait until this Kidney stone decends to do any thing about it. DH has had three now in eighteen months & and the only way we foundout is that it exsited was when tha the first one decned the day after my surgery for CNI2. Great timing........NOT!!!!
But wil know more tomorrow when we see the uroligist(SP?). Hope it is not to scary.. But it may mean more money to be folked out.
Ok I will tell you about my day so far. It strted off as usual. Alarm roll over take temp kiss DH, head to the loo. We watched the eposoide of neighbours that DH taped for me last night becuase I was at work and he wanted to watch the crickect game. Then breakfast and then time to hit the shower. I Ironed the clothes while DH started his shower. I than finshed the ironing and went in to the bathroom and chatted to DH while he was finishing up. Any way the topic of me being persistant on doing only the hours that I have agreed to at work came up again. I keep telling Dh that it is a matter of prinicple and he keeps telling me that I should bow down to them and do the shifts b/c the money is good. Thena he tells me that If *I want to become pregnant* than we need to stop living week to week. Well to say then the war was on is an understatement. I asked him what he ment by that statement and his deffence was that I am the one that becomes pregnant not him. SO I put it to him that *we* become pregnant not Just *I*. I could just scream at him. And than not two minutes later I did. We have low water pressure issues in our old house so if you turn the cold water on on one tap the person int he shower getts boiled. to prevent this we uaslly warn the other person that we are goingt o turn a tap on to let them know to get out of the way. We this Am he didn't. Well I screamed and yelled like I haven't done for months. But it wasn't gratifying at all. So I got back in the shower and finished it off while crying. I was so mad with DH.
Now to update Dh we went to hi appiont ment withthe specialist this am.
He wants to have another go at this persistant stone on the last friday of Febuary. He is still at a loss as to why he is getting these stones but did suggest that maybe there is a small bubble kidney there, and that is why this kidney seems to contiue to get blocked. And yes there could be some link towards the eyedrops and this kidney stone but it has nver been reported before.
Any way there is my vent for the day.
I did go to the gym again though and I am feeling good for it.
Feeling very confused tonight. I have a Dr's appiontment tomorrow to get a gyno/obs referral. I will be 8 days past ovulation and I am hoping that the gp will oder some blood tests to see if it has been a successfull month. I'm allways living in hope that each month is successful but This month I just feel strange about hoping. Evan though I know I have O'D I just not confident about having cuaght the little eggy and held on to it. I have had some pretty herendus backpain tonight and some front cramps that are not as servre as my back. But the back pain is more persistant than the cramps which just sneak in and out every know and then. I just hope it is not a sign of the wicked witch visiting this early. I don't think I could cope today or in the next day or two. I have been confused even more this week after speekign with one of the girls I work with about ttc and she warned me off the Gyno I have an appiontment with. So I am up in arms. I have been trying to track down a new gyno but I think I have found one at a private Hospital in Brisbane. It just means that I will have to travel to go to my appiontments and have a good plan laid out early with friends and faimly if I go into labour as DH can't drive. I still can't find out who the gyno is that the other women were talking about that has a good understanding about women with arthritis. I need a dr who is not affriad to think outside the square of normality here. Nothing in my body performs normal. Even when I have blood tests there are always one or two things that are seriously bazzar and don't make sense to people who don't know or understand the full picture. The one thing I found in my quest today is that only two places wanted me to speak with the dr who was not available at the time. Other just said get a refferal and then come and talk with us. But I am liking the idea of a female Gyno.
I have had my first real milestone here!!! I finally got my DR to agree to some tests... YEAH!!!!! Not only are we doing tests on me but on DH too. So we have the full story all at once. I haven't seen this GP in a good year or two mainly becuase of a BCP issue. But now that I am not worried about BC I have no problem seeing him. He was great today. Even though I did not get the refferal I wass hoping for I got a lot of encouragement and support. He did not like the cough syrap idea so what he dosen't know... you know the rest. He did like the fact that I was temping but wants me to temp vaginally for a more accurate result. And I am very cool with that. I am willing to try anything that is not too invasive at this stage. He remembered that I had issues with PCOS and said that it is something that I will always suffer but there are still women out there who have gotton preggos naturally with it. The blood test that he ordered was a pregestorne level for day 22 of my cycle and becuase that is a sunday I will have to have this on day 21 which is this saturday. I just hope and pray that the old witch stays away long enough for me to have the test done this cycle.
I think I have convinced Dh to have the test done but I want to wait to see if the old witch shows her face or not first. otherwise it could be a waste of time. But all is ready for him to go ahead with this at any stage. and there should be no dramas of getting the sample to the patholagy lab on time. Well this is me for a while I hope next time I post it will be with good news. But I am not counting a chickens yet!
I woke up this morning feeling the need for a big big hug and DJ has given them. So this can't be AF I hate being touched and hugged when the old witch is around. I just wish FF would make up it's mind about when I O'd. This is the third day change! I am feeling not pregnant but not feeling if AF is around the corner either. I have tested three times and with no BFP. Now I feel like I need a good old fashion cry session, but I have no idea why. with the exception of my close callin the shower the other morning I have had nothing since. Why does my body think it has the right to play games with me. I hate this waiting and more waiting.
I will have to wait ntil at least wensday to get the results of my Progestrone test. But I am stil trying to remain level headed about this. I am now apparnetly 13DPO and this is just to excrutiating.