A little more spotting bfore I went to work last night, than nothing since than. My temp hit another all time low but no AF. some mild cramps, I will go to my Dr's this am. Get my script for implamon and get hime to put it in. I am feeling pretty down. I have a huge week ahead of me now and I am not sure if I am up the the meaningless bull **** my family have install for me.
it is over the witch is here, to all of thoose who read my journal and keeps tabs onhow I am going, I will say my sad goodbyes. The witch haslanded offically and I am going back on birth control to get my arthritis sorted out again. I hope every one reaches there BFP very soon. Merideth Your bundle of Joy will be with you very soon just hold on to your patience you will need them.
Katie good luck and I think your puppies are very cute.
Cazz, I hope you too will have a keeper one day very soon.
Becuase I am at a loss as to how I am ment to be feeling I will continue to post here.
I am not sure how I am ment to ber feeling, but for some reason I feel like I have had a great loss this time round. I am not sure why. The witch is being hell and everytime I have to go to the bathroom it is a constant reminder of the loss. I just cry and cry. I am so tired and worn out by all of this. I am doing my very best at being strong and not letting things get to me. But it slowing showing signs of crumbling in a big heap.
I know I didn't get a BFP but somehow I still see this as a big loss.
It is time to say good bye for a long time now. I have been back on the pill for a week now! I am still lurking aroud a bit. I am sure to be back oneday soon but for now I have to say goodbye. So I guess the title is not to be!