I'm am so mad! I ordered preseed and it arrived on Friday at the post office, but apparently it wouldn't fit in our PO box, so we have to pick it up at the counter. Well, I didn't know until late Friday it had arrived so I wasn't able to pick it up. I went to the post office today, but it was closed. Instead of looking at the hours, I just assumed it was closed all day. Well it WAS open for several hours, but I missed them. So my preseed is sitting there until Monday.
I got some Mucinex at the store and started taking them today. I got EWCM more than I probably ever had, so yay for that! My temp went slightly down today but I hope I don't ovulate already. Day 9 or 10 seems way to early. I will have to watch and see.
I put the new curtains up in our bedroom, changed the sheets to some really nice ones which I sprayed with linen spray and put candles all round. Tony seemed to like it, leading to very fun !!! It is snowing yet again, so we will spend most of tomorrow morning laying around in bed. I can't wait!
Last edited by Missi93; 02-04-2008 at 01:12 PM.
The weekend went very well except the whole preseed thing. It snowed another foot, so Tony was busy shoveling us out yesterday to go to our friend's house for the superbowl. We had such a fun relaxing time and then came home and had some babydancing! It is a snow day at school today so I am catching up on paperwork I was behind in. I feel so happy and positive today. Wow, mood swings are getting bad!!!
YAY! Cycle day 12 with ovulation pain. I'm sure I'm going to have a high temp tomorrow. Tony and I DTD again last night, so I am hoping all those spermies are just swimming around waiting for that egg! We used preseed, which we both liked and I'm still taking Mucinex until I get a confirmed O. I bought red raspberry leaf tea and raw honey at the healthfood store. Both are supposed to help with uterine lining and other lovely fertile things (bee pollen in the honey).
I'm maintaining my positive outlook and so is Tony. I REALLY hope this is the month!
ERRRRRRR, no high temp this morning. I was so sure I ovulated. I took off a few hours and went home and attacked poor Tony. He wasn't sure what to think about me surprising him in the middle of the day and demanding sex! I just really want this month to be the one. We DTD then talked about baby names. We are leaning toward a German first name (my heritage) and an Inuit middle name (his heritage). I am so anxious and feel so positive that this cycle will be it for us! I keep daydreaming about telling everyone and keep mentally rearranging our spare room into a nursery. I want to shout out to my tubes, "release that egg already!" That temp has just GOT to be high tomorrow!!!
HIGH TEMP TODAY!!!!!!!!!!
I still think I ovulated on Tuesday. Either way, I think our BD timing was right on. And hopefully the preseed helped as well.
I still feel really confident this cycle. I'm cramping a little bit today, which I'm going to take as a good sign. And I have sore BBs. I told Tony I could test in a couple of weeks, but I'm hoping to test before then to be able to surprise him with a BFP!! I don't want to focus to much on my symptoms, just because I don't want to come back here in a month and seem like a fool for "imagining" symptoms, so I'm just going to focus on feeling good through the next few weeks.
I got crosshairs this morning, with Wednesday being O day. I still swear it was Tuesday. I still feel very positive and so does Tony. But just in case I am not pregnant this month, I've been considering taking a break for a cycle, just to relax a little bit. I have a good friend who moved to Portland last year and I would like to go and see her. I am going to need something to look forward to and a plan, or getting AF will be devastating. But enough of that kind of talk..... I WILL be pregnant this month!!
Sitting here at 5DPO and trying not to think about it too much! My BBs are getting worse by the day (sore wise) but since that really isn't all that unusual to me, I'm not taking it much into account. I had some cramping today which is supposed to be a good sign. I'm trying to just stay happy and stay in the moment. I was looking at baby nursery designs already and asked Tony if he thought I was jinxing it. He said we have to think about it sometime, don't we? He is so right! I love he is being so supportive and he really wants this as much (if not more!) than I do!!!!
I haven't been journaling a lot, but there isn't much to tell. I'm in a holding pattern until Monday, which is when AF is due. I haven't felt very positive in the last couple of days. AF symptoms abound, and I just don't feel pregnant. I know I am just preparing myself for the worst, but it still sucks to be negative.
Valentine's day was good but uneventful. Tony loved the pics I took for him. I was really happy with the way they turned out. Monday is a holiday and I am so looking forward to a long weekend. It will help, too, if AF rears her ugly head I will be able to be at home to deal with it instead of trying to keep a happy face at work.
I wish I was feeling more positive today, but I'm not. I've been really cramping, which is unusual. My temp tanked this morning, but I took it way early (almost 2 hours earlier) so I hope it was just a fluke. I told Tony I didn't have a good feeling about it this month anymore, but he said we aren't out yet, so he wasn't giving up. I so hope I am wrong. I keep hearing all of these stories where women just gave up trying and that's when they ended up getting pregnant. Though I would like to take a break if this cycle isn't it, I'm just not ready to completely give up.
I haven't really talked about it here, but I have been on Zoloft since August. I have struggled with anxiety and depression for years but have resisted taking meds. In August it got bad, so I started medication and counseling. Both have helped tremendously. Even though I have my moments, I feel better than I have in a really long time. I have made the hard decision of not giving up the meds while TTC. If/when I get pregnant, I plan to discuss with an OB if I can stay on the meds. I think a happy momma might outweigh any slight risks the medication may cause. I know this is the right decision for me, but sometimes I battle with the idea that this is the reason we haven't gotten pregnant yet.
I want a BFP more than I ever thought I did, especially since the rest of my life seems to be falling into place. Tony and my marriage is stronger than ever, we are financially good, my job would be ok to continue while pregnant and after baby, Tony is excited, ready and willing, and our families can't wait! So why isn't God thinking the same?
After feeling horribly negative in the last four or five days, last night I had a strange change of heart. I was having major cramping which is pretty unusual for me. In fact I was thinking about posting a thread asking what I could take for it safely in the TWW. It eventually subsided, but I got this feeling maybe it was implantation. I know I could very possibly be setting myself up for a huge downfall, but right now I'm just going to ride the wave of hopefulness. I have had minor cramps on and off today, but no spotting so far and I almost always have something on 11 DPO. I'm trying to relax as much as possible and see what happens. I didn't temp this morning just so I could hold on to hope.