AF is due in three days and I feel her lurking at the door.
Tony and I decided we will go to the doctor if no BFP after next cycle. I'm going to focus on losing some weight before then. I have to go to a training for work May 19-24 which will be physically demanding and I want to be ready for it.
I start a new work assignment in several weeks which I hope will distract me from the TTC obsession. I think it's unhealthy how much I focus on it.
Cycle day #1 , AF found me. TOTALLY SUCKS! I was super sad yesterday and cried a lot. Tony didn't know what to do with me, since I rarely cry. He kept trying his best to cheer me up. Sweet man. I am excited we are going to the north shore for my birthday and relaxing in that big suite overlooking the lake. I'm trying not to look to far into the future, but May and June aren't going to be easy to try in, since I have to travel for work and we will be having house guests. I hope this cycle is it!
I've been so lax on my journal writing. I think a part of me was hoping it would just eventually become a pregnancy journal. But since THAT hasn't happened, here I am!
I got a reassignment at work and am now working with adult drug addicts. Much different than teenagers (well, in some aspects). I'm back to having an office at our main office instead of the high school where I was at before. I feel a million more times organized and have a chance to really take care of myself through out the day. I am also so busy the day just flies by and I barely realize I have been at work. All this has been very good for my mental state and well being!
No baby yet. This cycle I was a whole day late and even Tony was convinced we might have actually done it. But the witch came and both of us were pretty upset. I called the doctor and have a infertility consultation on the 16th. I'm not sure what to expect, but I feel like we are spinning our wheels. I have a feeling he is going to tell me to lose some weight, so I'm already starting to eat a little healthier and trying to exercise more. The weather seems to be getting better by the day, so taking walks and other outdoor activities will be easier.