Okay I am sitting here at work wondering first off why I waited so long to start a journal...and secondly why the heck I waited to start it when I am at work?? :shrug: Since I am at work this first entry obviously will be short.
I have been finding myself feeling a bit sorry for myself. Which is totally not me and it bothers me a lot that I am doing it. I think of all that has been going on lately and am feeling like it is pretty unfair. But I know that everyone else has the same or similar things in their lives to deal with. And I know it could always be worse...and I should be thankful for the fact that it isn't worse. But still I have been feeling sorry for myself. YUCK! :puke: Honestly I have found myself just wanting to totally give up on TTC. I realize that to some 16 months of nothing isn't much (my heart breaks when I read about those that have been trying for years and years) but to me it almost seems unbearable to think of it being any longer. :cry: I am totally falling into that "Why me?" stage. And it is driving me crazy! :bonkself: So now that I got that out...maybe I can figure out what to do about it. Hopefully I can figure out how to deal with it. Because I absolutely hate feeling this way...
Well I think I will end there and get back to work before I get caught. :shock:
Till next time.... :loveUSA: