So here I am, after almost a year of TTC #2, finally starting a journal.
History for those of you who are interested:
DH and I were married for 3 years when we decided to try for a baby. He had wanted to start the day after the wedding, but I held him off! We both work in schools (he's an assistant principal, I'm an itinerant teacher) so we had plenty of kids to deal with already!
We stopped preventing and tried naturally for awhile. Then I started charting and my cycles were all over the place. I had some blood tests run and it turned out that my prolactin level was significantly elevated. In fact, my OB's quote was, "Are you sure you're not lactating??" So they put me on parlodel (bromocriptine) which made me sick, but regulated my cycles. We tried on our own for another several months to no avail. I did a few clomid cycles and nothing. Finally, we went to the GBMC fertility center in Baltimore.
The docs there ordered the normal workup for both of us (blood tests, HSG, endo. biopsy, SA, etc). They also stopped the parlodel and retested my prolactin. It was really high once again. They sent me for an MRI and it turned out that I have an adenoma on my pituitary gland. Untreated, it affects hormones and can affect vision and balance. Excess prolactin inhibits ovulation, which is why I wasn't getting pregnant on my own. My RE doubled my parlodel (barf) and we prepared to do IUI.
After 3 clomid/IUI cycles I was still not pregnant. At that point, he recommended a laparoscopy to rule out endometriosis. They did the lap and found Stage 3 endo, which they removed. The next cycle was scheduled as another IUI, but somehow the insurance company screwed it up. They approve them in 3's and the paperwork for the next set had not yet come through.
We tried on our own that month and Lily was conceived on Thanksgiving morning of 2003! I had a bit of a rough time in my last trimester due to kidney stones. After 2 stent placement surgeries, I was OK and Lily was delivered by emergency c/s on August 25, 2004.
Fast forward about a year and a half. We decided it was time to try again. I didn't think it would be this hard...
We decided when Lily was about a year and a half that we wanted to try for another one. I have heard so many stories of people getting pregnant *right away* after first-time infertility, that I was hopeful I would be one of them. Clearly, not so.
We tried for several months with charting, etc. and nothing. Then I went to my OB/GYN in April or May and we discussed my LP - I thought it was a bit short (11-ish days) and retested my prolactin. He gave me 150 mg of Clomid, which I took for 3 months. Nothing. Luckily, my OB/GYN has no qualms about sending me straight back to my RE.
We met with the RE in October, I think. We discussed all of the options, but ultimately decided on injectables/IUI. Our new health insurance covers 6 cycles of IUI as a lifetime benefit. The injectables were a pain, but not that big a deal. I really was expecting to get pregnant - I always had 3-4 good follies and my RE does back-to-back IUIs on two consecutive days. Perfect timing, good levels... still nothing.
On March 6 I had a second laparoscopy. Hey - it worked the first time, right? He found "minimal" endometriosis and removed it. I had my post-op with the RE on March 22 and we decided that IVF is our next course of action. They're not doing cycles in May, so I'll have an IVF consultation with the PA in late April and we'll go from there. It's a 6-week process, so that will put embryo transfer sometime in early June.
In the midst of all of that, we're moving April 20. But everyone keeps telling me...
So I made the appointment for our IVF consultation and I'm starting to get nervous. It's freaking me out a little that our potential babies will be created in the lab and not in my uterus...
Don't get me wrong. I'm ready for it - the odds are good, I trust my docs, and I know several people who have had great success with IVF. I'm not worried about the process - I've already done shots and every-other-day vagicam appointments. After all of the invasive procedures I've had an egg retrieval and embryo transfer seems like no biggie. It's just weird. IUI seemed like helping things along, whereas IVF seems like we're cheating.
When I watch video of the lab creating embryos it just seems like it would be easy for something to go wrong. They poke that syringe in there to insert the sperm and I can just hear that little egg saying, "Ouch!"