We have one frozen embryo from this cycle. They were watching four in culture. One died over the weekend and two stopped dividing over the weekend. One went to "advanced blast" stage and was frozen today. So we have three separate snowbabies from three different cycles - maybe enough to do an FET if we have to.
I have no symptoms, I feel nothing. Part of that is that I'm trying not to get my hopes up, and I'm just so tired of over-analyzing every twinge...every month.
People IRL keep asking me when my Beta will be. I need to call and make the appointment, but I don't really want anyone to know when it is. Whatever the news, I'd like to live with it for a few days before we share. If it's negative, I know people will start feeling sorry for me and trying to make me feel better. I hate that. If it's positive, I still won't feel secure about it.
My last IVF cycle was so crazy, and after all of the ridiculous Beta numbers, we were so thrilled to finally have a positive result and see a gestational sac. After that, things went crazy and we had the biggest disappointment of our lives. I'm so afraid that something like that will happen again that I'm not sure I could be thrilled with a positive Beta number. If it's low, I'll worry. If it's high, I'll freak that there's some crazy twinning again.
I don't know what to think and I still have to wait forever.
So... BFN once again. AF showed, ick.
I'm not sure I know how to be hopeful anymore.
We are meeting with the RE on Friday - we'll see what he recommends.