I just need to have a little pitty party for myself for a sec if you don't mind. Ok I want to TTC bad! But DH doesn't want to. Its been slowly creaping up on me these last few months. DH keeps sending me mixed message about having another baby. Sometimes he acts like he might want another one soon but other times he just flat out tells me he doesn't want anymore. Its frustrating. In August DH started a new job making ALOT more money so now money isn't an issue but he complains that our house is to small for a third child (which it is but we are kind of stuck here for a while). Before the new job he made it seem like to me that the main reason for waiting was money. So I thought new job = baby
IDK, Gage and Claire will be THREE in Febuary and I really don't want there to be larger than a 5 year gap between them and the next one. And with our fertility past we need to get a move on it in order for that not to happen. DH says he agrees that he doesn't want a large gap but still doesn't even really want to talk about TTC again. Currently I'm on medicine that if I were to get pregnant on it would be harmful to the baby so it would take me 3 months or more to get onto meds that it would be safe to get pg on so when(if) he ever decides he is ready it will take me 3 months or so for my body to even be ready to get pg again. And to top it off I got on FB today and a cousin annoenced her pregnancy (I am happy for them but it just brought back some bad memories for me because when she got pg with her first we were in the midst of IFV with G and C)
Ok I'm done with my vent. I just need to tell someone who would understand maybe.