Am I crazy?

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raingirl28's picture
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Am I crazy?

Can you guys take a look over on my post on DYSAL and let me know if I'm crazy?

dreamchaser's picture
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I took a peek and you are not crazy! I hope this is it for you!! Smile

WhiteWolf68's picture
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Ditto, I hope and pray this is "it" for you!!! You totally deserve it after so long.

/hugs!

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Definitely not crazy. I see something too. Can't wait to see an update! Smile

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(loss ment)

Thanks girls. I was tempted not to post, but then I realized that I NEVER get to post stuff like this! This cycle has been wonky from the beginning, but in truth I've just felt "it" for the past few days. It's the first time ever where I've just felt like...I know I am..in a weird way.

Here are the symptoms so far:

-Major acne breakout on my face and back and chest. I have at least 7 massive cystic zits on my face and, while my skin isn't perfect, I never get more than one or two cystic zits at a time and only a few times a year. I worked from home all last week on the late shift and my skin looks so bad I was embarrassed to work in the office today!
-Weird crampyness and bloating. I had cramps during AF, but they never really went away and I had that early O. Then I was fine for a few days then some of the crampyness cam back.
-SORE BOOBS! OMG! Last night when I took my bra off I wanted to die. The last two times I felt this way was with an HSG shot last year and my early loss the year before.
-Insomnia/weird dreams. Last Thursday I had a vivid dream that I was buying a lunch box (one that I've wanted for like a year but it was $26 and I just didn't want to spend that on it). When I woke up I was so sad that I didn't have the lunch box that I immediately ordered it online (and it's awesome! Got it yesterday and it's so fun and cute!) Then last night I had a dream I went back to law school with an astrologer friend of mine. Very odd. I've also had trouble sleeping for no reason. I'm not tired really either. It's like I'm just...blah. Not tired, but not energetic. Very unusual for me as I like to sleep 10-14 hours whenever I can!
-Food just tastes different. Everything has been tasting like it has dill in it, and I hate dill. I had herb and garlic cream cheese on a bagel on Saturday and I thought maybe they changed the brand/flavour. Then DH tasted it and it was fine. Same thing last night - had some lipton noodle side dish (alfredo) with our meatloaf and it tasted off...like it was too sweet. I've had those noodles 100 times and never thought they tasted off. And today I have apples and peanut butter in my lunch. I LOVE apples dipped in peanut butter, but it just doesn't taste right. Like the peanut butter is bitter? I had it two weeks ago and it was fine so I don't think it went bad....

The weird part is, DH has literally just decided he wanted to go back to school. We figured we could afford him not working and going back full time if I was working, but I don't think we can if I go on mat leave. I wonder if this is the universe saying it's not the right time for him to do this?

I wonder....the last two years I did IUIs at this time almost exactly. The first was successful with an early loss. The second I think was a chemical as I had positives up to 10DPO I think, then beta under 5 a few days later. Maybe we are meant to have a November baby?

And the last thing - I've always wondered if my iron was the reason for our lack of conception. In December I went on a new iron supplement (recommended by a hematologist) as my iron was dangerously low (ferritin and hemoglobin both under 10). In two weeks I will have been on it three months and it should have made a difference. I can't wait to see what the blood test says and if it's higher than it's ever been, then maybe it's a contributing factor?

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Sometimes it's something as little as iron that can make a difference. For me it was Royal Jelly/Bee Pollen.

Any dark blue veins on your body any? That's how I always knew.

KUP! Smile

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"WhiteWolf68" wrote:

Sometimes it's something as little as iron that can make a difference. For me it was Royal Jelly/Bee Pollen.

Any dark blue veins on your body any? That's how I always knew.

KUP! Smile

Actually yes! Forgot about that one. I was sitting on the bed Monday morning after getting out of the shower. I had opened up the blinds as it was nice and sunny. I was putting lotion on and I looked at my boobs and I had veins I had never seen before on them! It freaked me out!

And the apple/peanut butter thing - it's the apples, not the peanut butter. The skin on the apples (even though I washed them well) just tastes funny....

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Just went and checked out the pic, totally see something!! Good luck and KUP! :goodluck:

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Oh girl I so hope this is it for you!!! I definitely see something! I'll be stalking you like crazy, so KUP!!!!

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I can't decide if I feel it anymore. It comes and goes throughout the day. Symptoms like boob soreness is sometimes bad, but then sometimes almost not there so I don't know.....

Ug.

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I went through that with my last pregnancy (symptom severity fluctuation). Still had a successful pregnancy. :goodluck:

WhiteWolf68's picture
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Did you test again at all?

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Also.. My cheapy strips were positive at 9dpo but frer didn't show positive till 14dpo and even then it was so light that I couldn't get it to show up in a pic.

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Thanks girls. No further testing. I think I ran out of ICs as I can't find any in my stash. Lots of OPKs though! I used the one and only FRER I had as well.

It's hard for me to say when AF will be here because my usual cycle is 29 days, which would put me at AF coming about Feb 28. But I O'd early, so I think AF would be here the 25th or 26th.

Maybe I'll go to Walmart tonight and get some FRERs. What will it hurt right?

Sometimes I wish I had a friend from here to be physically with me to take tests.... As we all know, husbands aren't the best at seeing lines! And my DH has severe eye issues and can't see anything up close with one eye, so it's hopeless to get him to scrutinize a test.

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My husband hated when I'd ask him to see if there was something there or not, so your not alone.

See if Walmart has any on sale, maybe get that bonus 3 pack.

::fingers and toes still crossed::

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Can't be there in person... But will scrutinize pics you post. No charge. Wink

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BFN on a FRER today. I think it was BFN. I kept thinking maybe I saw a line but when I blink there is nothing. It was probably the shadow of where the line should be. My boob soreness is almost all the way gone too. Sad

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I'm sorry Rachael... Sad I really used to despise cycles like that, where they symptoms are so positive that one is sure to get a BFP (and hence why I wound up the IVF route).

/hugs

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I'm still crossing my fingers.

:goodluck:

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Thanks. Yes, this cycle has driving me nuts from about CD7!

At least one thing positive came out of it. DH and I have been getting better at communicating and for the first time he brought up the adoption option. I've researched it a bit and I think he was surprised. So, we are considering booking an appointment with CAS (Children's Aid Society) to start talking about and looking into a public adoption. Smile

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I think that's lovely. Smile Communication is a great thing.

raingirl28's picture
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It is. The couples therapy is going slow, but I do see some really small changes so I guess something is working. There are hard days where I just want to strangle the heck out of him (ok, not really...but you guys kwim) because he frustrates me so much, but those days are farther apart now.

I just wish my body would do what it's supposed to do. And if AF is coming, I would usually have some kind of idea by now. Boob soreness is almost completely gone (except a small halo of pain around the top on each boob) but no other usual "AF is coming" symptoms... *sigh*

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:bighug: so sorry!!!

raingirl28's picture
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Well, AF arrived yesterday afternoon. DH was a little sad. I guess we try harder this month!

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Nooooooooooooo! Sad

I am so sorry!