Bittersweet Day! (loss ment)

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raingirl28's picture
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Bittersweet Day! (loss ment)

Today is a rather bittersweet day for me. Today marks 6 years since our first loss from our "oopsie" and also marks the day we gave up birth control and started the "just let it happen" approach.

However, this morning at 6:30AM a new nephew arrived in our family. DH's Sister had her second baby, a little boy. (sadly, both unplanned babies)

I know I should be happy for them and I am, but I'm also sort of sad that I've hit the 6 year mark. It's sort of taken the excitement out of this IUI cycle I'm doing now and I'm not feeling all that positive anymore. It's probably awful of me to feel this way but now at least I won't forget this nephews birthday because of the day it falls on....

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*HUGS* I always had mixed feelings when friends/family were having babies while I was ttc. I had one friend in particular who I had a difficult time with. Her pregnancy was unplanned and her marriage was in a bad place at the time as well. I had a lot of emotional struggles dealing with that. Hang in there Rachael!

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Thanks. I'm happy and all that the new nephew is here. I think I'm just sad because of the day it landed on, that's all...

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Oh I'm sorry it's hit another year honey. Sad

I also had a friend that it was very hard for me to be happy for. My 39 year old best friend had a surprise baby, in a not stable relationship, last year. She didn't even think that it might be hard for me to hear, and told me every little detail, and was shocked because she was trying. Some of it was excrutiating to hear! I just didn't know what to say, because I didn't want to not be there or not be supportive for her. It was very hard. It can still be hard talking about her son.

Big hugs to you. You are so close!! You will be there soon, I promise!

Joined: 07/26/04
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I think we can all relate to this. I post about it all the time...

I'm sorry you hit another year. I'm on almost 3.5 now, and it just plain sucks!! I pray this cycle works for you!! :bighug:

raingirl28's picture
Joined: 09/03/07
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Thanks everyone.

DH and I had a bit of an argument last night which didn't help things. You all know that DH and I aren't perfect in our relationship but we get by. DH has been hugely depressed and it's worse than ever now (it's not uncommon for him to send me texts that he's threatening suicide - and yes, he's indirectly in therapy as the only way I could get him to go to see someone is via couples therapy).

One of our TTC issues has always been his lack of libido. You can't get pregnant if you don't have sex!

Well, with the IUI we are blocked from sex from the time I trigger to IUI time, so I was hoping to get one or two days in before trigger day, being last night and the night before. That way our bases are covered. I strongly suspect they will call me today to trigger, which means DH and I can't DTD tonight. That means our only spermies will be the IUI ones and I'm afraid it won't be enough.

DH doesn't get it though....he never gets it....