Awhile back Liz did a cry/scream/vent thread and it was so nice to have a place to just "let it all out" and get things off our chest, especially since we can all relate to one another here in a way that others can't.
Mind if we do it again?
I'll start (unless someone else beats me to it, lol).
I have a "cry" to share. This morning while on FB, there was a friend who had a pic of her growing belly, and she wrote that she was feeling little wiggles every day now, and how great it felt. It's her 2nd pregnancy. While I am soooo happy for her, it just really got to me, and I started to cry. I guess sometimes I forget just how badly I want to feel those little wiggles again (and everything else that goes along with it, iykwim).
*hugs* Mary - I haven't yet been there but I totally understand at the same time.
Want to hear my vent? DH had to have his wisdom teeth out and two root canals plus two crowns done since January. His dental coverage had a max of $2000 which barely covered the wisdom teeth. With all the small appointments, cleanings, xrays, checks, oh yeah - a mouth guard because he grinds in his sleep - we have had to put more than $10,000 on my credit card in emergency expenses. Luckily I have an awesome rate but it's still stressing me to the max. He still has one crown to get and that's $3500!! Our credit is maxed though so we can't even pay for the next one. We are meeting with the bank tomorrow to assess the situation and see about consolidating it into a loan to pay off instead. I JUST payed off my car and two student loans last December and now I'm in debt again and I hate it. I know there are lots of people worse off than us, but it still depresses me. We want to buy a house but we are barely getting by and have no $ for savings. We have no idea why though as a lot of our other friends with single incomes are doing way better! Grr.. I'm just so frustrated at $$$ these days.
to you girls!
I'm stressed over the fact that our dumb a** principal hasn't told us what grade I will be teaching in September or if I will stay in the same grade. I would love to know so I can prepare for the beginning of the year!
I'm also upset that I can TTC for at least 3 months now!! UGH!!!! And my cousin and close friend are pregnant! So now I have to see their growing bellies for the next 9 months!
Rachael - Aw man, so sorry, girl! How frustrating! I hope the bank can give you a good deal on consolidating a loan
Marisol - I'm sorry you won't be able to ttc for at least 3 months. And it's hard to see those close to us with growing bellies, isn't it? Huge hugs, girl
Hugs and kisses to u ladies!! Well heres my vent : yesterday DH got let go from his job so im totally like pulling my short hair out !! I mean he has a check comin nxt wek and the unemployment ck as well ... But im nervous because i havent saved much since pur wedding and bills are due ! I mean i have the means of paying them but the little money i hsd to my self is gone ! then on top of that he broke his iphone so now i have to buy him a new one ! Granted i wad going to anyway but still !! Ughh !! Then today im supposed to be ovulating and i hope things go well regardless .. * Update* so dh called me to tell me that the hilton just called him for a job offer !!! Ughh God is good but i dont want to put all my eggs in onr basket just yet !! Do u ladies think its selfish of me to still ttc ? I mean hopefully he will have a job in the nxt 9 mOnths but who knows? Then at work my boss is acting soo ughh i just want to transfer out !! Me and my coworker spent an hr trying to figure out the issue with our cash ( im a bank teller ) and it really had me drained !! Now im at the gum trying to sweat out my frustration !! Then again another one of my friends whom i love dearly is prego and shes so cute !! IWANT THAT TO BE ME !!! ( little kid voice ) !! Lol sorry for the essay !!
sorry ladies. Mary, I have been dealing with the exact same thing with a number of my preggo (and newly preggo) friends. In fact, I've had to hide some of these friends' posts b/c seeing them made me cry, and of course I was very happy for all of them...just resentful that I am seemingly unable to get pg.
Esp now that this month marks 2 years TTC for #2.
Heres mine...some of what I am going to write I would really prefer no comments on because I have kept it quiet so I didn't upset anyone or incite a pity party...too many hormones everywhere so I don't want anyone upset..I am dealing.
Anyway...a friend I was at school with has just posted shes 12 weeks pregnant!
I am so gutted and jealous....my insensitive friend has just had her baby and me...well for the last 2 months I have got all excited only to have 2 more CPs...last one 10 days ago..the one before that the last cycle....out of 4 months I have been preggers 3 times!!
The progesterone I had I got too late...and even then apparently its not known if it does work or not.
6 flaming miscarriages and still its flaming bad luck!!!!!!
Been told to wait 2 cycles...I want to go for it this month and then leave 2 cycles...but M isn't hven't it...he is sick of the happiness and then the lows....and I am sick of just knowing it will be anopther failure...
So to see friends..my age...having happy oops....well...its doing my head in.
I am so jealous..I feel bitter and twisted.
I am back to having that feeling I had before I fell in Feb..of laughing being hysterical..i just do not feel good or happy!
THe only thing keeping me going at the mo is my trip to the States.
Its scary really...if you think about it...TTC actually takes over your life..I don't think I think long term of anything else...not an hour goes by without my thinking of pregnancy, ttc, or M/C
Its a horrible journey for all of us...and I wouldn't wish our situations on my worst enemy.
TTC 2 Years +
Liz- I will respect your request and not comment, but just want to say
Vent- did y'all see that you can now add your "expected baby" to facebook?!? Ridiculous!
My TTC Space
Tasha - I don't think it's selfish to want to ttc, you said your DH had a job offer anyway, right? *Hugs* for everything you're going through right now.
Liz - Hope it's okay to give you a special smiley And thanks for making this a sticky. Great idea
ETA: Sophia - sorry, meant to include you in my o.p. Hugs to you, too. You have been through so much
My vent for the day.
I got a +OPK yesterday evening and this morning. I couldn't help but hope for BD and that it would go well. Then this morning DH and I both woke up early and couldn't go back to sleep, so I thought it would happen, but DH then told me his back was bothering him. Another month, come and gone.
(I know not everyone here believes the way I do, so feel free to ignore the following if you want)
My prayer: "Lord God in Heaven, help me let go (and keep letting go) of what I want and totally trust You with this. Help my friends, too, with whatever they need. In Jesus' name, Amen."
Last edited by FLSunshineMom; 08-03-2011 at 11:25 PM.