Completely Devastated *update 2*

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Completely Devastated *update 2*

DH's SA came back today and let's just say, I don't eve know how I have a daughter. He is seeing a urologist on Tuesday and I'm waiting for my oB to call back. At this point I have no idea what is going to happen in terms of treatment. If any, at the moment... Sad I have cried my eyes out. He is destroyed, we are just at a loss. HIs numbers were soooo low it was shocking. I'm probably at my lowest I've ever been. At this point, I'm not even sure I can even have a baby. I'm just destroyed right now. I will KUP as to what happens next week.

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Okay, so he went first yesterday, and let's say it was Okay and then NOT GOOD! Sad First off, he was not overly concerned with DH's SA results. He said he has good quantity and good mobility, which is a positive. So he gave us a regimen of how we needed to time sex. He said that men with results like that must start having sex 72 hours prior to O, and then we needed to BD every 12 hours after that until after O!!! HOLY COW!! Then I must elevate my legs during and after BD for at least 20 min. He said I can't even cough!!! He wasn't too thrilled that DH produced at home, and actually leaned toward the test not being that accurate. He must repeat in 6 weeks to get a better understanding. Now the bad news... he had sugar in his urine. Which means he is either pre-diabetic or already a diabetic. Which explains a lot symptom wise and fertility wise. He has to get blood work this week, and follow up with the MD and start treatment if needed. He must make a complete lifestyle change now before this gets out of hand. This might very well be the reason for not conceiving. At least we have some answers and can keep TTC. I go today to the OB...will post when I get back *****

*****Well we were referred to the RE. We have an appointment next Friday afternoon. She is very well respected here in NJ, has awesome credentials, so I'm hopeful. AND the insurance covers everything of what I was told. They are really good at this office and will keep me up to speed with all the insurance info anyway. The only down side is that it is 40 min away from our house! Sad I could have gone to another RE much closer but my OB insisted I see this one, so I'm just following her instructions Everyone thank you so much for everything, I really feel grateful for all the support that I have been getting here. It is very much appreciated. This has been a stressful week and now to top it of my damn tooth hurts and I have to go to the dentist tomorrow. IT just NEVER ends...****

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Marisol im sooo sorry!!!! :bigarmhug: maybe after some treatment, DH can boost his sperm and it will happen for you. Are he drs saying there is no chance?

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Oh Mari!!!!

I don't know what to say.
All the old cliches come to mind but I know you don't want to hear anything like that.
Just know that my thoughts and love are with you both at this time.
Be strong for each other. Things have a way of coming right.

Hugs sweetness. Huge hugs.
I think I can safely say for all if us that we all have huge padded tear absorbent shoulders for you.
Xxxxxxx

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I am so sorry for your news. Huge hugs!

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SO sorry to hear this!! *HUGS* My husband has male factor. There are some supplements he can take that can sometimes help. I can get you the list if you'd like. Has he been sick at all in the past few months? A very high fever or an infection can affect sperm and it can take 3 months to replenish a new supply. Men regenerate sperm every 3 months. There are many reasons he could have a problem and there are things that can be done to help correct them. Seeing a urologist is the best thing to do. They will do bloodwork to check his hormones, should also have genetic testing done including karotyping, and a physical exam will also be done. Has he ever had his sperm tested before? It's difficult to actually diagnose with just one sample. I'd definitely get a repeat done in a few months. *HUGS* Try and stay positive, you have options! I remember all too well how I felt when we found out about my husband. If you ever want to chat please feel free to PM me anytime.

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*hugehugs* Marisol, I'm sorry to hear this. Maybe some diet changes might help...? I had a friend whose SA was not good, but improved a great deal when he made some changes to his diet, in particular he cut out diet coke. I hope that DH's condition is treatable.

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Everyone thank you so much. I found him a urologist rather quickly don't even know if this guy is good enough or not, but with my husband it has to be done quickly if not he would get discouraged and not go. For the first time I'm at a loss of what will happen. With numbers that low, I have no idea what will be done. I would love the OB to still put me on the med's in the mean time but I don't know if that would even make a difference. I couldn't even go to work today. I know I shouldn't compare the two but I'm so down about this I feel just like I felt when my mom died. I've cried and cried. I'm hoping as soon as my OB gets the results she can put my mind at ease. I will be sure to KUP on what the dr's say.

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Marisol, SO sorry to hear this, all I can offer is a ((((((HUGE HUG))))))!!! I hope that you can get some encouraging news from your OB and the new urologist.

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"Mari626" wrote:

Everyone thank you so much. I found him a urologist rather quickly don't even know if this guy is good enough or not, but with my husband it has to be done quickly if not he would get discouraged and not go. For the first time I'm at a loss of what will happen. With numbers that low, I have no idea what will be done. I would love the OB to still put me on the med's in the mean time but I don't know if that would even make a difference. I couldn't even go to work today. I know I shouldn't compare the two but I'm so down about this I feel just like I felt when my mom died. I've cried and cried. I'm hoping as soon as my OB gets the results she can put my mind at ease. I will be sure to KUP on what the dr's say.

You are greiving, it's completely normal to feel the way you are feeling. *HUGS* When I was diagnosed with premature ovarian failure two years ago I slipped emotionally for a couple months. I was greiving bad! I still have bad days. My heart goes out to you! You will have some more answers soon and can make decisions from there. Hang in there!

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Hey, I am sorry to hear you got bad news about the SA. Getting a diagnosis for IF is never easy to take. On one hand you are thankful to have another puzzle piece tell you WHY, but on the other hand you have a sense of lost hope and devastation. I've been on both sides - unexplained IF (two years) and explained IF (one year) and they are both incredibly hard. It makes you want to give up. Hang in there. I understand what you feel right now.

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You know I'm not sure I want to give up. I'm more scared of the hardship its going to cause. I don't know if this will all be covered under the insurance. If this is going to be an even longer process. It's the unknown... Also, going thru with the treatments to then just have them fail. This sucks big time.

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I remember being where you are. It was about a year ago. My second IUI failed. We found out DH has low testosterone and couldn't go on meds b/c of his liver. After my tri18 loss we found out that I have DOR. It looked like treatments for IF were pointless. Nothing was covered by insurance. DH and I both teach school so we aren't exactly wealthy... it was a very low point in my life. The only rational person through the process was our RE. I don't know if it's the same for you or ever will be, but it came down to "IVF is your only option and even that won't work in a year or two."

When you have been TTC for as along as we have on this forum, you come across points like these. It is so HARD to deal with the stress of it. Sometimes it feels like a pointless fight. We can't lose hope. With time, we all deal with the stumbling blocks.

Hang in there. Keep up your courage. *hugs*

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Kadi-thank you for the kind words. Dh has gotten very mad at me the past couple of days because he says that I'm jumping the gun. I guess he is right to a certain extent. I mean he is going to the urologist on Tuesday which I'm assuming will send him for further testing, so we don't know what that will show. I'm praying to God it's something that is treatable. I have to see my OB this week and I really have no clue what she is going to suggest. However, from what I have read online (which I know I shouldn't) with numbers that low, IVF is the only option. IUI is not even recommended. BUT I guess he's right, he needs further testing. This is by far the lowest I have ever been in the TTC nightmare but I guess we finally know what's wrong and we can only move forward. We have come too far now and we have to give it this one shot. I am just so scared of the end result. Sad

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Marisol :bigarmhug: I'm so sorry.

I can completely understand the fear, especially of all the unknown factors. And I'm willing to bet your DH is feeling the same way and may be why he's getting a bit mad at you. You will be in my prayers that you get nothing but great news and guidance about this journey and all of your options.

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Let me know if it does come down to "IVF only". You can cry on my cyber shoulder.

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Marisol- I'm so sorry about DH's news. Praying for a good appointment with the urologist today. KUP

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Aww, thank you ladies. We are leaving in a couple hours. I will KUP as soon as I Get back!

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Hi Marisol. I'm a little late on getting to this, but I am so sorry to hear about the SA results. I don't have any particular knowledge on that issue, but I do know how painful it is to get a pretty devastating infertility diagnosis. I hope you got some answers today at the urologist appointment. Keep us posted as you feel up to it.

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Marisol - you are in my T&P. Although little consolation, at least you may have answers. HOpe the appointment went well!

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I just want to repeat how great everyone has been!! :bighug:

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Marisol- I'm so sorry about DH's news. Prayers that everything goes well at the doctor.

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Hi Marisol just thinking about you today i hope your ok !

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Thinking of you love.
Glad that you haven't been given worse news. And that there is a plan of action.
Sorry about your toothy peg.
Hope you are okay love and dh is too.
Xxxxx

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I'm sorry to hear your husband has to have further testing for possible diabetes. Overall it sounds like you had a good appointment on the ttc front. Keeping you both in my thoughts and wishing you all the best!

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I was just peeking in and wanted to add my thoughts, prayers, and support to you as well. This group is filled with such phenomenal women! I know that they will continue to be with you every step of your journey! ((((HUGS)))))

~Missy

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Marisol, I know how the feeling of devastation goes. Here, in NJ, we are lucky to have some really great doctors and a wide range of them too, we have lots of fertility clinics, etc.

Sending you & DH prayers...

Jennifer

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Jennifer-yes I'm very happy but I'm dealing with all my clothes being soooo big on me. Since school is almost out I really don't want to buy anything. I think I've hit a wall though I haven't lost much. I really should up the workout but I'm just too lazy and tired most days to do anything more. So I guess I'll maintain this weight till the summer and then increase it. (if I'm not pregnant)

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When do you and DH have to go back to the doctors? Since school is ending soon, maybe they can get everything sorted before then and you'll be pregnant summer time. Smile That would be awesome. ::fingers and toes crossed::

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We go on Friday!! So nervous.. Friday is a CRAZY day, I have a root canal at 8:45 am!! Then an appt with the RE at 2:00! THEN, we might take a quick getaway to the casinos since tomorrow is DH"s birthday AND I'M Oing this weekend!!! So hoping we can make ourselves a little baby for Mother's Day in Atlantic City!! LOL!!

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Oh cool! I like the idea about getting away, wishing you an awesome fun time in AC! Smile And..."baby dust" too. Smile

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Marisol

I'm so sorry that you are going through this. I hope you have a great weekend and make a LO to remember the weekend by.

Lots of :bighug:

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I'm so sorry, Marisol. :comfort: I will be hoping and praying for IVF success!