disappointed, false bfp w/clueblue?

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kadibug's picture
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disappointed, false bfp w/clueblue?

i got a bfp yesterday and again today, cd24 and 25. i've been testing in the evening and not using first morning urine. i couldn't handle seeing a bfn and then having to face my students. (teaching is one of the worse jobs when you can't have children!). thus, i test in the evening.

i am so worried now b/c of reading up on the type of test i used. i used clearblue digital and there are many stories of false positives. when i called the RE's office to get my prescription for prometrium, i was asked what cd i am on. when i said 25, she mentioned a chance of a false positive. now, i'm not getting my beta measured until cd 28 (friday). what she said got me thinking and researching. Sad now i am scared and getting the feeling of disappointment. maybe i'm not pg!

more discouraging is my cervix. this am it was high and soft (getting more pg like) and now before bed, it's really low and like af is coming. i have no symptoms other than some very unusual cramps. i just want to cry and scream.

after 2 digital tests, am i not pg? i read about a lady who got 3 false positives from her clearblue dig test.

what do you think?

Aggiegirl06's picture
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Oh my goodness, I've never heard of a false positive on a digi! My gut instinct is if you have 2 + then you are pregnant. Digi's are not as sensitive as line tests and if they are picking up the HCG then you have higher levels.

Hopefully this is not a chemical. I pray that Friday comes soon for you and confirms your +.

PS- I hear you on the teaching. We went back to work yesterday and AF is due next week during the week. Either way it's going to be a rough day.

ChrissyD2103's picture
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I second what Amanda said about digis. I hope that this is just some weird fluke and that you get to breathe a sigh of relief here in a few days!!

yipeeladybug's picture
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I would say if you are concerned, get a FRER (First Response) test which is pink. They are usually pretty good for the most part. I am inclined to think it's a real BFP too.

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Lurker...

I agree, if you're concerned about the test, get an FRER.

But I wanted to share that when I got preggo in April my cervix was high for days and then closer to AF time it was low and stayed low and hard for WEEKS! I was so nervous something wasn't right, or I wasn't preggo or anything and everything! Turns out I was being scared over nothing, I was pregnant with a happy, healthy baby.

The cervix changes all the time, especially in early pregnancy. I say, don't worry about what your cervix feels like right now, go by the tests your seeing. Good luck and I hope you have a HH9M!

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That is very true..the cervix changes throughout the day...don't worry too much about that!

I hope Friday comes quick and you get some answers..I too would test with a FRER.
Some digitals are very sensitive..others aren't..its the luck of the draw.
On my last pregnancy my digi read 1-2 weeks yet I my blood reading was only 8...the Frer and other tests were barely there lines.

I am thinking of you and keeping everything crossed for good news!!
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I had 1 false pos on a clear blue dig test once then when I took one the next day it was neg. I now use the dollar store tests they are not real sensitive but they have never gave me a false. I was real dissapointed. With the dig and swear to never use them again.
But u had 2 pos mayby just buy a non dig one and take it then u won't have to worry any more when I found out last time I took like 5 test cause I couldn't believe it

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If it's digital and says "pregnant" you are probably fine and I wouldn't worry. Just don't crack open the digitals to look for a line as they all have them even if negative.

I also vote for FRER. Two lines and you have your conformation.

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:lurk:

Chances of having one false positive are slim...chances of having 2...even slimmer! I say you are most likely pg. Your "unusual" cramps are the exact symptom I had with all 3 of my pregnancies - the ONLY early symptom in fact. Best of luck and congratulations!

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I agree. Test again with a FRER, I'm sure it will be positive. KUP!

kadibug's picture
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thanks for the feedback. sorry i wrote clueblue in the title... i was tired!

so i took another clearblue digi test this am and it said pg. on the way to school, i swung by the store and picked up both first response and answer pg tests. i took one of each in the girls bathroom before 1st period. (how freakin psycho does that sound?) it wasn't first morning urine and i didn't really have to go so both tests didn't have much on them...

... and they were both BFP! looks like this is probably for real.

thanks for the encouragement. i am totally scared of a chemical or early miscarriage. i've been over zealous with everything - caffeine, lifting heavy things, soft cheeses, blah, blah, and i won't go the gym. i am completely freaked of a m/c again. i'll do anything to keep this one.

fingers crossed for my beta on friday! please, please, please, let this one work!!!

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Ahhhhh ohh yea oh yea!! Another bfp!!!! Hh9m

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Congreats hope this is it for ya. Gl

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Awesome!! I can't wait to hear the good news from your beta!! With my DD I had no clue I was preg until I was 3 months along and I ate everything you aren't supposed to as well as lived off of caffine. She turned out okay Wink I totally hear ya though I won't even take a tylenol when I have a migraine durring the 2WW because I am afraid I will jinx myself or something. HH9M!!!!

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Whoop!!!!!!!
Congrats girl!!
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awesome!! Congrats!!

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Yay! I'm glad you retested- I knew those digi's were right! Congrats!

kadibug's picture
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thank you very much for your positive feedback. i know it can still be a bit painful to hear of a bfp even if the person had a very rough road of infertility. you are happy for them but (in my experience) you still wonder, "why not me then?" it's nothing personal against the person with the bfp.

i hope i'm not hurting feelings posting here. if my beta is okay, i promise to make a very classy exit from the ttc 2+ years forum.

you ladies have been/are so wonderful!

i know i am so very lucky right now but i am so very scared!!!!

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Congrats!

In this forum, I don't feel hurt you are pg, altho I have asked the "why not me?" question so many times.

Really, hearing of your BFP, if anything, gives me hope that it can happen, even after more than 2 years.

So I hope you won't be a stranger and check in with us once in a while. Wink

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"kadibug" wrote:

thank you very much for your positive feedback. i know it can still be a bit painful to hear of a bfp even if the person had a very rough road of infertility. you are happy for them but (in my experience) you still wonder, "why not me then?" it's nothing personal against the person with the bfp.

i hope i'm not hurting feelings posting here. if my beta is okay, i promise to make a very classy exit from the ttc 2+ years forum.

you ladies have been/are so wonderful!

i know i am so very lucky right now but i am so very scared!!!!

Don't you DARE leave us!!!!

Same with the other ladies who have BFPS and haven't been on to update us.
We share your joy!!!!
I for one am so pleased that this noard has pregnancies...its a wonderful thing!
We are all here for you always!!!

Our kitchen table would feel empty without you!!
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blissfulliss's picture
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OH!!! I'm so excited!!! I was dying to post on this topic but because of work I wasn't able to..work.. so lame... haha. Wink

Thinking of you today... Pleeeeeeeeeeeeeease update us soon!!! I hope you have good news - praying for you!!!!!!

Also, I get very excited to see BFPs on this board - I look forward to them... it's a little harder to swallow @ times on some of the other boards where ppl get pg right & left, oopsies & everything, but here...I know that everyone WANTS it and has been working dilligently to get their own BFP, so I feel nothing but excitement & happiness Smile :)
(Not that I'm not happy for ppl on the other forums, but I think you all know what I mean...? ..I hope?..)

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thank you for understanding my hesitance about sharing on this board. i did find a great board on RESOLVE. it's for people pregnant after infertility.

my beta came in today at 530. really good for 4 weeks.

on the other hand, my thyroid rose to 3.9! the doc is going to adjust my levothyroxin on monday to get my number back down to .5 or 1. maybe my thyroid was behind all this mess of not being able to get/stay pg. only time will tell. when the RE first tested me, my thyroid was at 11.

my next beta is on monday. i am suppose to call back to schedule a vital u/s in two weeks.

the excitement is still absent. not sure when i'll think it's time to accept the pregnancy and believe in it. this is a horrible feeling. i feel so lucky and unlucky at the same time. infertility has really taken the joy from early pg, hasn't it?

thank you again for your kind words and understanding. and blissfulliss - YES, i totally get you!

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:pileon::thewave::pinkelephant::wootjump::party:

Ok, I think you get the idea! Your beta is wonderful! Congratulations!

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Y would you leave ??!! Sad we will just share your pregnancy hehehe!! Ahh GL HH9M

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OH!!!!! SO HAPPY for you!!!! I'm so happy & relieved that your beta was great!!! Smile Still sending T&P your way.. Smile :) I think it's perfectly natural for you to be protecting your heart right now... TTC can be so hard on your emotions anyway, especially after a loss... I hope you will continue to get great care & good news so you will be able to relax about your pg..:) :bigarmhug:

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so i've been doing positive self talk. for the first, i've tried talking to my body. i'll try anything. i told myself, "you'll start having symptoms this weekend"... and i did! heartburn, sensitive nipples, bloating, and headaches. i was so happy to feel like crap.

i also got my new thyroid med with a higher dose. i'm not digging the prometrium since the doc gave me suppositories. i'd rather swallow a pill then do THAT twice a day, but (again) i'll try anything.

tomorrow is the second beta. i'm still acting like a freak. i took a very luke warm bath to shave.
i only ran the water enough to reach my hip while sitting up. i just WORRY constantly.

so glad to finally post that i'm having pg symptoms. it's been one week since the first BFP (i'm still testing everyone morning - psycho) and i finally can say that i'm starting to feel pg.

please god, let this one be a loving new born baby this may!

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Congratulations! :party:

Totally understand the nervousness. Hang in there, and take it one day at a time.
:bigarmhug:

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So excited for you!!! This wonderful!!!!
Good luck at the beta today!!! Can't wait tinhear the numbers!!!
Eeeppp!!!!
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*lurker*

Congratulations! I am so excited for you! I am a graduate of this board, so I still follow everyone as much as possible. I just don't really post much. I wanted to say that my second pregnancy, which was our pregnancy following 3 years of infertility, just didn't seem as full of joy. It seemed like infertility makes the first trimester (and a lot of the rest of the pregnancy) feel so full of anxiety. I really hope that you are able to enjoy this pregnancy more and more as time goes on. :bigarmhug: Best of luck on your beta numbers, but don't let them rule the first tri for you. My beta with my twins only doubled every 52 hours and not 48. Got me all freaked out, but my RE had it right when he said the numbers were just fine.

Oh, and I still posted on this board during my pregnancy. Unfortunately, the board died for awhile and we just didn't have many posts. That is why you haven't really seen me around.

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Hi Melnzai
I hope that we may see you around more now...get to know you?
Be great to have an original here with us...cheering us on.
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thinking of you today miss kadibug!!! Smile :) let us know your numbers when ya can!!! Smile

melanie, i totally remember you....i think you got pg close to when we were just starting out on our ttc journey.. Smile

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melanie - it was so great to read your message to me. i hope to be a real graduate in 9 months! my first two weeks pg has sucked. since i ovulated i had this feeling that i was pregnant. i quit drinking caffeine right away and all that jazz b/c i just knew. the next thing was a huge temp jump and some odd feelings in my uterus. i just could not believe i could be pg after all that i'd been through. since the bfp i've been a wreck. i hold it together at work, of course, and around friends. only dh knows my constantly cautious attitude. i worry about every cramp, pain, discharge, whatever. i tell myself that i'll get better after the first tri. i will. i will. i will. i want to be happy and part of me is. the larger part of me is preparing for the worse. i know it's normal, but it sucks.

blissfulliss - thank you for thinking of me today. things went well today...

hcg - 1570, but my thyroid is still climbing - 4.67! that's up from friday's 3.9. re told me not to worry that my dose increase of levothyroxin should do the trick and be back to normal in a few weeks. i just worry, of course! that's all i do - worry.

i'll be getting the viability u/s in two weeks. waiting that long will kill me. i will make it knowing that my pg symptoms are an excellent sign. just today while showering, i noticed that my uterus felt like a sore muscle when i raised my arms and arched my back to rinse my hair. "chill out, kate" i say in my head "you ARE pregnant. you are. you are."

i'll come back in a while to post about my viability u/s but i don't think i should be on here much. i do think it hurts some and i understand. i mentioned this before, but i've found RESOLVE's pg after infertility forum. it's more appropriate for daily posts.

still praying for a baby in may!!!

thanks for you kinds words. i'll be back in a few weeks.