To my beautiful niece who was born last night. She was 9 lbs 8 oz and 22 inches long and the most beautiful baby! Holding her was both the best and the worst experience ever. The best because she is such an amazing little baby and the worst because it makes my heart ache for something that will never be Husband and I have come to the realization that enough heart ache and stress is enough. We've decided to have me go on birth control (a type that makes me have no period or just a few a year (why suffer if it won't lead to anything right?) and put an end to this way too hurtful and long journey. I am at peace with it, so everything will be okay. Just means more time to travel and spoil ourselves with things we wouldn't have been able to buy if we had children. Best of luck to you all and I hope all of your wishes and dreams come true in 2013.