I have days like this every once in awhile, thankfully they are fewer and farther between. I've been thinking about what it would be like to be pregnant again and have a baby. I get all nostalgic (sp?) about when I had my daughter and dream about what it would be like to be able to experience that again. For the most part I am okay with where we are in life. I have a beautiful 15 yr old daughter, and an amazing husband who loves me! I just wish sometimes that our journey had a different ending. *sigh*
Thank you ladies. I'm not sure why I even posted that. Just feeling a bit down about things not turning out the way I had hoped.
Feeling better today. I hate when I get down like that. I have so much in my life that is great and I know that. I just get sad sometimes at how things turned out in that area of my life.
Thank you combatcutie.
I so know how you feel!
My brain knows it is time to give up on TTC, but my heart doesn't want to listen.
I would like 1 more baby and am fully prepared to be finished at that point. I just really would like to end the trying, because I am choosing to, not because the choice has been made for me For me I get this sad feeling about...hmmm.....once a month Must be that lovely reminder that comes almost like clockwork.
DS Sawyer 4/1/06
DD Payton too beautiful for this earth, born silently 7/19/09 at 33 wks
DS Greyson 6/29/11
DS Parker 4/14/14
I'm so sorry... I know how you feel... and I have those days too... No good cure for them except a good cry, a tub of ice cream (or your favorite junk food), a good bottle of wine and a good movie... even then, still not sure if there is a good cure... hang tough! If you're anything like me, you will know exactly when your mood will shift... and hopefully it's sooner, rather than later for you!
Things will brighten soon... xoxo
Thank you Audgee and JustMeNHim.
Audgee, I hope you are able to find peace. For the most part I've come to terms with my situation. I didn't make the decision myself to stop ttc. It was taken from me when my body shut down (diagnosed with premature ovarian failure in 2010). But at the same time my husband and I were getting to the point of getting off the rollercoaster. We had gone through so much at that point, having done mulitple IUI's and IVF attempts over the course of 6 years, we were at our breaking point financially and emotionally. I have a friend who has 4 children and her family is complete, yet she still has moments from time to time wanting another. So maybe that feeling never truly goes away. I wish you all the best! I hope you are blessed with your bfp very soon!
JustMeNHim, Thank you! I do love a nice glass of wine every once in awhile, it does help! You're right, there is no real cure, however there are many positive ways to help get through those dark moments. Like you, I do know when the mood is lifting and thankfully they are short, usually a day, two at most. Wishing you all the best too!!