Well okay I use to be a member on this board about 4 years ago.
I am Cazz. I joined the TTC pages here in 2002. Yes almost 9 1/2 years ago. I started at the 0-6 months and then moved on to the (back then 7 months + ) board.
I actually started the 2 years or more board and was it's first moderator. I then went on to also start and moderate the IVF board.
Through all of this TTC I managed 10 pregnancies and 12 babies(5 natural pregnancies 5 assisted) but lost them all very early.
All the losses were in the short space of just under 3 years.
In November 2006 I had a natural pregnancy and then miscarried.
I then gave up the whole TTC process. I could not bare any more. I could not pay thousands more dollars for it all to just end in heartbreak.
It seems my body agreed with me and promptly stopped working.
I have spent the last 5 years finding my happiness, moved house 4 times, nearly ended my marriage and found a career that I LOVE surprising as it is I am a newborn, child and family photographer.
Anyway 2 months ago I started bleeding. I couldn't beleive it. 5 years without a hint of AF no spotting, no bleeding at all and yet here was AF.
Okay I thought. It must be in reaction to this last move, its the best move we've made to an area that will help my business and we are close to everything. Hubby and I are going more than okay and I feel like I am getting back on track.
so a month went by and lo and behold AF again! :eek:
And then November 1 hits and wouldn't you know it AF AGAIN! stronger and longer.
So while I am now 37 and I have no idea what this means I have an appointment with my OBGYN to see what this means and I am hoping that this could mean our miracle pregnancy and baby.
Oh I am not naive or anything and I know this could all end in heartbreak but I think that I can handle it, because I am not going to expect anything.
So I am hoping after this long explanation that I will be able to join up here again and just see where this journey takes me. All in all we have spent the last 15.5 years TTC
Thanks for reading this!