Hi.... Not new here :D

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cazzoom's picture
Joined: 06/22/02
Posts: 1315
Hi.... Not new here :D

Hi all.

Well okay I use to be a member on this board about 4 years ago.

I am Cazz. I joined the TTC pages here in 2002. Yes almost 9 1/2 years ago. I started at the 0-6 months and then moved on to the (back then 7 months + ) board.

I actually started the 2 years or more board and was it's first moderator. I then went on to also start and moderate the IVF board.

Through all of this TTC I managed 10 pregnancies and 12 babies(5 natural pregnancies 5 assisted) but lost them all very early.

All the losses were in the short space of just under 3 years.

In November 2006 I had a natural pregnancy and then miscarried.

I then gave up the whole TTC process. I could not bare any more. I could not pay thousands more dollars for it all to just end in heartbreak.

It seems my body agreed with me and promptly stopped working.

I have spent the last 5 years finding my happiness, moved house 4 times, nearly ended my marriage and found a career that I LOVE surprising as it is I am a newborn, child and family photographer.

Anyway 2 months ago I started bleeding. I couldn't beleive it. 5 years without a hint of AF no spotting, no bleeding at all and yet here was AF.

Okay I thought. It must be in reaction to this last move, its the best move we've made to an area that will help my business and we are close to everything. Hubby and I are going more than okay and I feel like I am getting back on track.

so a month went by and lo and behold AF again! :eek:

And then November 1 hits and wouldn't you know it AF AGAIN! stronger and longer.

So while I am now 37 and I have no idea what this means I have an appointment with my OBGYN to see what this means and I am hoping that this could mean our miracle pregnancy and baby.

Oh I am not naive or anything and I know this could all end in heartbreak but I think that I can handle it, because I am not going to expect anything.

So I am hoping after this long explanation that I will be able to join up here again and just see where this journey takes me. All in all we have spent the last 15.5 years TTC

Thanks for reading this!


Joined: 11/02/11
Posts: 56

Well congrats and Good Luck

FLSunshineMom's picture
Joined: 06/07/06
Posts: 3859

Wow, what a long journey you've had. I'm 43, so it will be good to have another oldie but goodie around. Wink Welcome "back," and I really do hope you get your miracle.

Aggiegirl06's picture
Joined: 03/31/09
Posts: 567

Wow, that's an amazing story. Welcome back and I definitely pray that now is your time and your body is giving you the "GO" sign. Baby dust!

Joined: 02/24/11
Posts: 1651

Wow !! You are an inspiration to us all !!! Good luck to you

cazzoom's picture
Joined: 06/22/02
Posts: 1315

Thanks for the welcome Biggrin

reneakelly's picture
Joined: 06/22/02
Posts: 154

AWWWWWWWWWWWW Cazz welcome back I remember you. I pray this is it for you.

Joined: 07/26/04
Posts: 1595

what an amazing story. hoping this is it for you!! welcome!!

yipeeladybug's picture
Joined: 01/18/06
Posts: 1214

Hi Cass, I had no idea of your history despite being friends with you on FB! Welcome back and I truly hope that this time you will have a baby!!

kadibug's picture
Joined: 07/17/11
Posts: 247

i must say how sorry i am that you have had many losses. i'm recently healing from my most recent.

thanks for sharing your journey.

Lizbet22's picture
Joined: 04/01/09
Posts: 2859

H cazz
Sorry I am so late to this thread.
Thank you so much for sharing your journey.
You're strength should leave us all inspired.

I am 38 myself and in 20 months I have had 7 miscarriage of 8 babies so I understand.
So I haven't had your problems though but I can still relate to an extent. It took us a year to get to the first pregnancy.
It's fantastic that your body has started working as such again and I truly hope your ob appointment brings good news!!!!
Please please keep us posted!
You are in my thoughts xxxxx

cazzoom's picture
Joined: 06/22/02
Posts: 1315

Thanks ladies. It's a hard journey to go on, unfortunately there is nothing you can do to change what has happened, I am hoping for a happier future.

I appreciate your welcome and Hope I can jump in here with gusto and support you all.


reneakelly's picture
Joined: 06/22/02
Posts: 154

Cazz have you ever been tested for natural killer cells?