i had to take a break from on-line forums, so i've been gone for a while.
since my last loss was a tri18, the RE ran a test for my AMH (anti mullarian hormone) and discovered that it is low - 1.22. this means i have low ovarian reserve. my FSH tested fine on day 3 b/c my ovaries the right amount of FSH to ovulate but for some reason, i have less eggs. woman with less eggs have a higher chance of tri18, tri13, and m/c's. the doc said i am 32 but my fertility is more like someone in their late 30's.
this was crushing as having AMH at 1.22 means less success with IUI and IVF. dh and i are planning three more IUI's this spring and IVF this summer even though we were told that i might not produce enough quality eggs to have any left for FET ... pretty stressful to think that i have one shot at IVF.
we also found out that dh has low testosterone. he was on a lot of steroids for years in his early 20's due to ulcertive colitis and having a colonectomy done (spelling?!). he is going on meds.
i never though a diagnosis would come for us, but it did. i am so devastated that it's low ovarian reserve, but i am relieved to know why i can't stay pg and had a baby with defects.
i am still heartbroken about my tri18 but i have made great steps in accepting its passing. sometimes i think of its last u/s and get emotional, but i've accepted that it's gone and will never come back. that was so hard.
take care and good luck to everyone!