the termination and d&c went well... i am no longer pregnant and this is very hard. after being told that my baby was going to die, i quit feeling my abdomen or looking at the tummy pooch. it was just too sad and difficult. i had a few moments outside the operation room where i was able to say goodbye. i rubbed my belly hard and felt it. it moved and i felt so incredibly devastated. how can i have a baby and not be able to save it? how can i be so powerless? these were my thoughts. my baby died at 11 weeks, 5 days. i try to keep it together knowing it wasn't going to make it more than 14 weeks... but if only i could have saved it.
the doc said i didn't bleed much and i haven't done more than spot since. the d&c was very well done, i guess. i still have a pooch but it's smaller. the baby was sent to pathology to be studied. we should get the results in two weeks during the following up appointment.
all this time trying to have a baby and i was put into this situation. it's still very unbelievable.
my RE was told the news from my obgyn. we're going to talk on the phone today. dh and i plan on meeting with RE in a month to also discuss the pathology results.
did this really happen? god, i pray i will never be here again. i also hope that my odds of losing another baby are down since my body had carried a pg this long.
thank you for your thoughts yesterday. it was a very difficult day - the hardest i've had so far.