Ugh, I am so restless and torn right now……Ok so here is the deal I have my HSG on Wed and I am terrified of the results either way for different reasons. Clear means good, but then since I have already had 1 possible ectopic on that side there is a very high chance of having another, so that scares me a bit. I really don’t want to go through that again…..If there is blockage then that means IVF is the only way I will ever have another biological child. I have talked with a grief counselor about my fertility and she has said if I feel like I need to do IVF to put things to rest then to do it ,but to realize that it may not happen that way either. Which I do, but the whole process seems so overwhelming and daunting…….Blah. DH and I have talked and he is on board for whatever. He thinks if my tube is clear we should try on our own for 3 months and if we are not pregnant by Dec, then we should start IVF in Jan. If it is blocked he wants to go straight to IVF. I am not sure……Should I just bypass the chance of another ectopic and go straight to IVF ( I know there is still a small chance of an ectopic) or take the chance and TTC on our own if my tube is clear. The other thing that has me wondering is that if my HSG is clear we will never be able to confirm if it was ectopic because nothing was ever found on ultrasound…..Soooooo yeah…….Ugh. We are still going forward with adoption we finally were able to get our fingerprints done today and we had to take the car seat safety classes last week. We figure adoption can be such a long process to begin with so we can still do IVF in the mean time if I do get preg we can put all the adoption stuff on ice until later since one day we will adopt no matter what…..Thoughts????