I am not sure if it was Mother's Day or what that preceded my up and down emotions but last night I had a bout of crying and wanting to give up.
I just keep remembering how much I hated having 2 generation gaps with my parents - they were grandparents before I was born. I keep thinking is it wise to have another baby when I am turning 43 (my one sister gave me her opinion on that one - and was pretty nasty about it).
I won't hear when my appointment for the fertility clinic is for another 6-8 weeks and then my appointment will probably be another 8-12 weeks after that! I will not do IVF unless offered a guarantee that there would be a baby at the end and we know that there are no guarantees.
I wonder what all the stress is doing to my health and my family.