And it's probably PMS. But I am just on the verge of tears all day today. Don't you hate that when you know in your heart of hearts you're being illogical and you should dust yourself off and perk up and you just can't? Today was a BFN as 12 DPO and I am pretty sure AF will be here in a day or two. I usually don't early test but was headed to the doctor today and wanted to know one way or the other. We've only been trying for 6 months, but I really thought we would be there by now. Thursday is my 35th birthday and I have this horrible voice in my head which tells me I waited too long, and now I am too old, and it will never happen. I know, that's irrational. If for some reason we can't conceive on our own, we have other options. We're both healthy so I think we only have age working against us. But it still sucks. And hurts. And I really never thought it would be this much work.