Hi to everyone and welcome Carin,
Amber- hope your son had a great first birthday and that you enjoyed the day celebrating with him and family.
I have been fairly quiet on here I guess because this is my first cycle off BCP and I have no idea what my cycle is doing.
Normally this would be CD 16 but that would be only if and a big if my cycle is normal which I doubt at this early stage. Lately, I have been lurking a bit on here and on the TwoWeekWait site just reading about everyone's experiences.
Hope everyone's week is going well.
I need a de-stress pill today!!
Having the most emotional day ever.. so stressed out and sad...
Yesterday was my first day off in 6 weeks with no work or school, just me and my boy!! So we cleaned h ouse, he napped, i cleaned more, we baked cookies, we went to visit my grandma, he had icecream... (he was spoiled!) and just had a great day together!!
Today I had to work, but just my nanny job, and these people are like family now, and they love when i bring brody because their son can play, but they didnt really seem so keen onm him coming today, and it was an extra long day, and i didnt want to send him to daycare that early, he HATES it and especially when I wake him just to take him straight there...
so I brought him for a little bit, then had my dad come get him t o take him, and he cried and didnt want to go, and i just feel so bad, he loves playing here... and just sat and cried a bit because, yes its waaay easier without him because now i can.. well here i am, typing away!! relax... and the kids will nap and he wont nap here, but at least he'll nap at daycare. but kinda sucks to pay 30 dollars for somebody else to watch him when id rather watch him myself here! anyways, just really down today, and my other job is stressing me out because its too often... so i feel like i never see him or kevin.. sigh
and now kevin is wishy-washy on the baby thing, i think because hes had to work-sleep-take care of b- repeat, and hasnt got to go to the gym or even have a moment alone, or even a moment together, so now he thinks we shld wait so we can have more "free time"
But i really dont think were going to get more free time... the older b gets the more things we end up doing, or i'll prob work even more later... idk.. i just want to get pregnant more then ever now, to give me an excuse to slow down, work less, relax..
Have a month off school, then brody starts two new preschools next month and im super stressed about that... we have like 2000 house projects going on, and i work every single weekend, EVER.. so annoyed about that..
Oh and i feel horrible because i cant get his bday planned out, which is in less then a month now... soo i really shld get that done... sigh.... just wanna cry for some reason!!
Oh well,, hopefully its just hormones hehe
Thanks for the vent! I feel a little better already
Cait- I hope things ease up for you! I *do* think it's important to try to take time for yourself whether it's a 20 minute nap or whatever you like to do to relax. I know it's easy for me to say because I don't even have a child yet, but I really think it's important that people take at least a few minutes for themselves each day, no matter how many things you have going on.
I feel like I'm able to think and function better when I take a few minutes alone to myself each day.
And at the very least take a few deep breaths and try to view things as one little step at a time.
Hope this helps.
I'm so happy to be a SAHM now. I hated the stress when I was working. I would get so stressed out about all the nit-picky crap all the time.
OMG I can so relate with the stress of work, Anna! One of my co-workers is the epitomy of nit-picky crap! Fortunately over the years she's been called out on acting like a supervisor even though she's not!
Hope you enjoy your time as SAHM. That will be my goal at least for a while if my DH and I can afford to, when we have kids.
I never though I would ever get the opportunity to be a SAHM. I was already applying for jobs and then DH got this opportunity for a new job that will pay him more than we could make together if I just got a job. So he said he'd do this and I could be a SAHM. I'm so excited. The downside (there's got to be one right?) is that he'll be gone quite a bit, but it's not forever, so we're going to take the opportunity to better our financial situation.
I love being a SAHM! Well, most days. ha ha! I could never find a job here even if I wanted to. And it would definitely not be worth it after daycare costs! I did work up until we moved here last year. I do miss having adult interactions every day.
I'm the exact same way. Except I haven't gotten the nerve up to quit. I will someday though. It stresses me out so much. Even the drive into work in the morning rush hour stresses me out.