Cycle Day 40. I finally took my temp again this morning to see if I may have ovulated recently. Nope. 96.02. I am so frustrated. I had postive OPK tests. I had EW. I did NOT have a temp jump.
Awful August is in my rearview mirror, along with the stress of it, but I really am just begging for AF to get here so I can start over. This is THE longest cycle I've had so far, by 5 days. 5 days is an eternity in baby making time. I'm trying to decide how much longer I should wait before I go see my doctor about, if nothing else, giving me a prescription to force my body to flush it out so I can start over. Though, at this point, it has been the 6 months, so maybe we should start asking about clomid, or something like that.
My fear about going to the doc is that he's just going to tell me that my weight is the problem. I know my weight is A problem, but that also doesnt stop other overweight people from conceiving. I'm eating better, but it takes more than that to lose weight.
Then there's the whole God's plan aspect of this. We purposely prevented for so long, to be RESPONSIBLE, and I'm going to be damn 31 in 3 months. I know it's not unusual for women in their 30s to get pregnant, but I feel like I'm in a place of wait. I'm involved in so many outside things with church and advising for my sorority, philanthropy, and my mary kay business, etc....but part of the reason for that is I dont have a kid at home to take care of. People ask me all the time "how do you have time for everything that you do?" Answer: i dont have rugrats to chase. Maybe this is God's plan because we arent where we need to be with money yet. But I also believe that God gave us doctors to help us when our bodys arent doing the right things. i dont think that because it hasnt happened on it's own doesnt mean it's not MEANT to happen.
I just dont know what to do. I dont know if I should go ahead and try to schedule an appt for maybe the week after next, and just cancel it if the old which arrives, or if I should just wait it out a little longer.