Very oddly, I feel unstressed, unexcited, and unemotional about TTC this month. After the m/c I had in May, I was super high strung about getting pregnant again. After the chemical pregnancy last month, I feel the opposite. It just occurred to me today, that maybe, it would be okay if I didn't have any more children. I think I am tiring out of this whole thing. And it seems like there have been many signs that maybe it is just not meant to be.
I actually hope this feeling continues, it's nice not to feel unhappy all the time.
"Everyone" always says it happens when you least expect it or when you give up on it. I don't know if there is actually anything to it, but I am glad that you are feeling less stressed. With DD, we tried for over 2 years and I finally gave up and just decided it was just not meant to be for us and that's when I got my BFP. I know that it doesn't always work that way, and even if it doesn't end up being your month, I hope you get some time to relax and just take it easy for the month. A chemical is still a loss, and I also think it's normal after a loss to have a different set of emotions about it.
I know what you mean, I even considered going back on BC because I felt like actively 'NOT TTC' might be better in the long run than the monthly heartbreak and disappointment. We even got a puppy in hopes of keeping my mind occupied, now I've just got poop on the floor
Enjoy the new feeling of un-unhappiness and I'll keep my fingers crossed for you