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Going nuts already

I am 5DPO and already going nuts. I keep thinking every time that this will get easier. That this time I won't stress so much and wonder if I have symptoms and this time I'll stay busy so I don't have time to think about it etc etc...this time feels just like every other time though except this time I took Clomid. So while in some ways it helps that I took it because I don't trust anything that could be a symptom and I can blame it on Clomid I also know my chances are probably greater than before. Plus DH and I DTD more this time than we have any other time and he keeps telling me he's got a good feeling about this month when he's never said that before. AHHH! I'm analyzing every little thing up to my DH's "feelings". I'm going nuts! This is going to be such a long TWW. :banghead:

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Joined: 06/03/11
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Leah, I am in the same boat, 4 DPO and going crazy already! It's our first month TTC and if we don't get our BFP, I am going to be just horrible if we have more months of this :eek:
I will hold out until sept 30th when AF is due...okay I might take some $tree tests before then:ahhh: who's idea was it to make us wait 2 weeks anyways...darn menstral cycles!
I am going to try to stay busy, :vacuum:, but it is always on my mind and I am starting to makeup symptoms, I have been taking my temp the last two nights without even knowing what my base temp is, I think it's around 96.5 and the last two nights have been 98.3, but it looks normal for temps to be increased after O until AF shows, so....as you can see clearly obsessing!

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I'm already obsessing too. And I want to stay busy so bad but I'm a substitute teacher right now and they haven't needed subs as much lately so I didn't work a single day last week which was just awful and only have one day lined up this week! Agh! I agree it's totally unfair to make us wait two weeks! My first month TTC was awful! I do think this is slightly better but not much. I'm pretty sure I had a chemical pregnancy in the first month because I had a positive test early on and then started bleeding and they were negative after that. By the time I got to the doc they could only confirm I wasn't pregnant...couldn't tell if I had been or not. And I had a whole bunch of symptoms and was so sure that I was. It was a mess. Last month was slightly better but AF has been weird every month since we started TTC. Plus I think the Clomid is making me crazy hormonal too. I dropped my cell phone on my foot this morning when DH walked in and scared me and I cried so hard. So stupid! Haha. Good luck! Hopefully we'll both get through this without too much insanity and we'll make it to our BFPs! I'm definitely keeping my fingers crossed!

Oh and I'm trying to wait until the 28th to test which is the day of expected AF but I have a bunch of internet cheapies so....I'll probably use a couple before then. :biglaugh:

Joined: 09/04/11
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I know how you feel. First time around it took a while for us to get preg, then I had a chemical pregnancy then after I started charting and paying attention to my cycles we finally got preg with DD a few months later.

This time around I was a lot more diligent about wanting to understand my cycles plus, I really wanted a late spring/summer baby, so I felt the pressure was on. This past cycle was the first cycle that everything aligned just right (us both being around at O time, DTD on the right days etc). Starting around 7 dpo I started feeling symptoms but I was going crazy obsessing over it, which really threw me for a loop - I'm not that kind of person but I couldn't help thinking about it. Just as I thought I was out for this cycle because my temps were dropping around the time AF was due, my temp spiked again and remained high, so I tested and got my BFP. Hoping this is your lucky month too.

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I'm so happy you got your BFP this month! Smile I think that might be a little of our stress too because for me it would be best if I could be pregnant during the school year and be due in the summer. That way I could work all school year and have the summer off and not have to try to find a summer job while being pregnant. I worked with a summer camp this past summer and there's no way I could do that pregnant. It was an extreme sport complete with 20 mile bike rides down the side of a mountain! There's just no way I could do that pregnant. So every cycle I'm not I worry about that and I keep thinking about what I'll do if it takes a while and I'm not due until the fall or something. DH is wonderful though and keeps telling me not to worry about that. He says every month that I'm not is one month closer to him finishing school and getting a great job with great insurance (which is true) and is also another month of savings for us. I suppose it's a balancing act. Today I've decided to cook a pot roast or something for dinner so I have something to occupy me while I'm at home alone. Eek! Thanks for the encouragement!