I'm going a little nuts with TTC tonight so I thought posting here would be appropriate. I've been alone WAY too much today which is part of the problem. I'm just thinking about it a lot. I wouldn't say I'm freaking out or anything yet but I'm doing what I always do...I start to HATE that I don't have an answer or anything that proves I am or even leans me in one direction or the other. I'm 9DPO today and testing this morning with an IC and got a BFN. This is my second round of Clomid and my second time hyperovulating so I feel like my chances are really great but I'm afraid to get my hopes up.
This cycle has been pretty different because we were out of town for our niece's dedication weekend before last which was when I ovulated and then this weekend actually start Thursday we were gone for our anniversary and we just got back last night. Today was the first day I tested and I really wasn't expecting anything and really haven't even been that concerned about it until tonight. I've been hoping SO bad it would be this month and I just can't let myself get my hopes up and it's bugging me.
Of course the few people who know are sick of me saying "so do I seem pregnant to you?" and things like that since of course they can't know. And I'm completely nuts for asking but it's bugging me tonight. I guess it's because I'm having symptoms or what could be symptoms. I'm having very very sore boobs and they're huge and swollen...I think my nipples are larger too (TMI) but that could just be because they're swollen. I'm a bit moody but of course that could be PMS. I've had two dizzy spells the last few days that lasted about an hour with seemingly nothing else that could cause them. I've also had a lot of cramping. Not super bad cramping but the twingy kind. I guess I just need someone to obsess with me.
Sometimes I just get so tired of trying and trying and trying that I just want it to be this month so bad so that we don't have to try again...not that it's not fun. I'm just tired of being disappointed.