Okay so I'm SO frustrated tonight. This isn't all necessarily about TTC but it's all related in a way. So this week started with a stomach virus. The virus I think only lasted for about 24 hours but I felt horrible for days after finally realizing that I have thrush. Well it's in my throat and my esophagus and possibly every where else in my GI tract. It could be why I was sick at the beginning of the week but I'm pretty sure that was just a virus. Well most of this I already mentioned but what's making all of this worse is that they can't treat me for it properly even if it is every where or if they can I don't know how. You can't take some of the meds they give you when you're pregnant or trying so I'm afraid this will interfere with TTC. I can take the oral meds. You just drink it and it goes through your system but since I've had a fever and body aches with it it could be every where. My usual doctor who deals with this stuff is out of the country for a year and I have to see a new one on Wednesday and I'm not sure he's going to be as good as my other doctor.
On top of this, Wednesday I was getting a package from outside and it was pretty big and heavy and I couldn't see my feet and I stepped funny on the step up into my kitchen aggravating my achilles tendon which I have pulled and torn numerous times over the years so I'm in a stupid moon boot again. I was hoping I could avoid it but I can barely put weight on it. So I've got at least a few days in the stupid boot full time. I didn't get to work at all last week and the pay period ends this week so I really need to work but with the moon boot and the body overrun with thrush I don't know what to do. I've got an appointment Wednesday already and a schedule work day Tuesday but I'm also supposed to get blood work for the RE and go back to him for more tests this week and so is DH.
Sometimes I think TTC is like a sport or something and is just a total disaster. I feel like my body is falling apart and I'm not even pregnant yet. I'm worrying about how we'll deal with all of this when I am pregnant and this crap happens since I'm sure it will. My life is such a disaster sometimes. Ugh!!!!! I just want to get back to work and be able to exercise and do my usual schedule and it's just all kinds of screwed up. I can barely walk with this stupid boot on. If I can't work out really good I at least get 10k steps a day and I couldn't even make that happen today. Sorry for the extremely long vent. Just frustrated tonight.
I'm so sorry Leah! It seems like everything happens at once sometimes doesn't it? I guess that's why they say "when it rains it pours! I'm so sorry! If it doesn't get better I would start going to different doctors maybe someone out there has more answers? Do they have you taking vitimans and stuff? I know since I've started taking vitimin D I am hardly ever sick anymore and when I am it goes away so fast. I know it's different for you since you are immune compromised but maybe it can still help?
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