Not doing this anymore...

I've been thinking about this for a while and I have decided to drop out and no longer TTC #3. I have had issues with anxiety in the past and I took clomid this cycle. Today was my 1st day not taking it after 5 days and I felt really down all day and didn't feel like doing anything. I just had a panic attack and I'm terrified what the next 2 weeks are gonna bring. I can't handle this hormonal up and down anymore and I am afraid it would be worse after i had another baby so I better bow out so i can be here for my other 2 kids. I don't want to be on zoloft again and I want to enjoy their childhoods too so I guess #3 is not gonna happen :(

I will still be here wishing you all luck and lurking from time to time. I havent discussed this all in detail with DH yet so we shall see what he says. Maybe it's just the drugs talking but I am a hormonal mess and I'm worried about the next upcoming weeks with my cycle and what that's gonna be like now. So now i think i took the clomid for nothing cuz i will have a horrible period and horrible cramps and won't even be TTC. Oh well... live and learn. im just mad at myself cuz i knew better then to take a med like this that would effect my hormones. what a dummy i can be sometimes.

ughhhh boy do i know the feeling...!!! :bigarmhug:

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Originally Posted by MrsV2B

ughhhh boy do i know the feeling...!!! :bigarmhugs:

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did this happen to you with clomid?

i actually have never had to take clomid however i was sympatizing with the fact that you feel so discouraged....

thank you! I'm having panic attacks right now and i'm so scared i'm gonna have to deal with this for a week and be alone with the kids etc... I guess this is a blessing in disguize cuz i guess i couldn't have had another and handled it anyway

I'm so sorry you are feeling this way, hun. :bighug:

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:bigarmhug: Sorry Gina.

ok now that i've calmed down i think i will be ok. i talked with DH and he said "so if you have trouble you can always go back on zoloft no biggie!" he's so great. he's even talking about renting a bigger house next year with 4 bedrooms so i feel like there is somewhere to put the baby. he knows i feel bad that we won't have a nursery here. so that's good too! for a man who didn't want to do this in the first place he sure is being supportive. so i guess we are still on the baby train! woo hoo!

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Originally Posted by glwolf

ok now that i've calmed down i think i will be ok. i talked with DH and he said "so if you have trouble you can always go back on zoloft no biggie!" he's so great. he's even talking about renting a bigger house next year with 4 bedrooms so i feel like there is somewhere to put the baby. he knows i feel bad that we won't have a nursery here. so that's good too! for a man who didn't want to do this in the first place he sure is being supportive. so i guess we are still on the baby train! woo hoo!

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I am happy for you!!!

Here if you need a shoulder, need to vent or share good news...through the TTC #3 journey