I've been doing some research and I'm really starting to think that I have PMDD instead of PMS. I've read that you have to have at least five of the symptoms with at least one mood related symptom...I pretty much have them all. Last night when I got upset I started out so furious it was like I was seeing colors and then once the anger wore off I was sad...so sad that I couldn't stop crying and honestly it started over nothing at all. I sat down after I stopped crying and I fell asleep sitting up! It wore me out that much. And honestly that's pretty par for the course for me about a week before AF shows up. I usually don't feel better until it does show up.
I really don't want to take any kind of medication for it if I do have it because I had docs try to put me on all sorts of antidepressant stuff before my immune disease was diagnosed. They thought I was sick because I was depressed when really I was depressed because I was sick. Duh! Anyway, it just made me numb. I couldn't feel anything. And I don't want that. I like my feelings. I just hate them before AF because it's like I have no control. It also makes me wonder if I ever do get pregnant if I'll be completely nuts out of my mind from the hormones. It kind of worries me. Does anyone on here know anything about PMDD or does anyone have it? If so what do you do for it and what's it like during pregnancy? I'm also kind of wondering if my freak out yesterday is basically my answer this month to whether or not I'm pregnant. I sort of feel like since I always do that and feel that way and I did this month it means I'm out...any thoughts?
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Hopefully there is something other than birth-control pills or antidepressants to help treat it! I was on an antidepressant when I was pg with DD because I had a history of depression and they were worried about postpartum it was deemed very safe to take during pregnancy,now they find out it causes heart defects like pulmonary stenosis - which DD was born with!
Oh no that's terrible! I'd be so upset if something like that happened. I think I can probably deal as long as I'm aware of some important things that make it worse. For me it seems to be much worse if I don't sleep enough and if I'm cooped up in the house or by myself too much. I can't be still for too long. I seem to feel a lot better if I get out of the house even for just a short time, and if I have something to do. I would hope that post pregnancy just being busy with a baby would be enough because I'd be busy all the time, but it'll also be extremely exhausting and difficult so...I'm not sure what to think. I wonder if it's something I can talk to the RE about.
Aww thanks sweetie. I'm going to mention it to the RE too I think along with seeing if they have someone I can talk to to help me deal with all of this. I'm usually great at coping with difficult things but this is just so different from anything I've experienced that I really don't have a clue where to begin when it comes to dealing with it. Feeling better today though. Sometimes just getting it all out helps for a while.
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Thanks sweetie! The Clomid definitely made this way way worse! Some of this is probably still wearing off from not being off the Clomid quite two months yet but I have definitely felt this way other times in my life mostly when I was on the pill or something like that though. It seems if I have a different than normal cycle this happens. I honestly can't remember anymore what it feels like to be normal. It feels like we've been TTC for so long that I really don't know what it's like to have a "normal" cycle anymore. Ugh! Oh well I'll talk to the RE about it I think and see what they think. I'll probably see too if they have a counselor or someone on staff who can help me deal with this. I've dealt with a lot of things in my life and have been to counseling before but nothing I learned there has helped me be able to cope with all of this TTC stuff. I'm sure it'll all be better soon. You girls certainly make each day easier just by being here to understand.